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In this episode, Steve and I get into a conversation about success, faith, control and what happens when you start questioning the things you once thought mattered so much. Of course, we also cover why Steve hated me for a few hours after getting a flat tyre while coming to film my free community qi gong, and our upcoming trek to Annapurna Base Camp in Nepal, which we have done a grand total of f**k all training for. We get into my very much non bestselling book, Authentic, and why I recently decided to publicly own the fact that it didn't become the bestseller a part of me had hoped it would. Not because I am disappointed in the book, but because I have been looking at my own relationship with success, achievement, comparison and the meaning we attach to outcomes. Because if you don't own something, it can end up owning you. And I have no desire to let numbers, expectations or a little bit of shame take away from something I am bloody proud of. We also explore the relationship between faith and action. Steve is very much a man who believes in doing the work and making shit happen, whereas I am learning to put in the effort, listen deeply, trust timing and know when to step back. Neither forcing everything into reality nor sitting around waiting for the universe to deliver feels like the answer. There is a dance between the two, and we get into what that looks like in our lives, our businesses and the opportunities that have come our way. We speak about the illusion of control, the uncertainty of life and how the intentions we set do not always unfold in the ways we expect. Sometimes what we think success should look like is very different from what ends up being meaningful. This episode is a funny, honest conversation about loosening the grip, questioning what success actually means to you, doing your bit and learning to trust what happens next. Because you can work hard, want wonderful things for your life and still leave room for something you could never have planned. Support the show

“So what now?” What now if you are no longer chasing the dream like your life depends on it? What now if ambition is no longer in the driver’s seat? What now if the old jet fuel that once made you move, prove, push and make shit happen just is not there in the same way anymore? I still want a beautiful life. I still want wonderful opportunities. I still want to do great work. I still want to create, contribute, serve, build and be met by the things that are meant for me. But I no longer want to be dragged there by fear, pressure, panic or the need to prove that I am worthy. This episode is about the shift from chasing life to meeting life. From forcing doors open to listening deeply. From being led by ambition at all costs to being guided by truth, timing and the body. It is about learning to back the almighty yes, trust the deep ass hell no, and stay close enough to yourself that you know when it is time to move and when it is time to pause. This is not about giving up. It is not about losing your fire. It is not about becoming passive, lazy or less devoted to your work. It is about growing into a new relationship with desire, success, purpose and opportunity. One that does not require self abandonment to get there. Maybe what comes next is not another chase. Maybe what comes next is devotion. To the work. To the timing. To the body. To the yes. To the no.  Support the show

Steve and I speak about what it looks like to support each other in relationship when life gets hard. When emotions are high, capacity is low, and the relationship has to either become a place of safety or another layer of stress.  We talk about how easy it is for both people to fall into their usual ego responses. For me, that can look like withdrawing, going inward, feeling alone and shutting people out. For Steve, it can look like wanting to fix, solve and move into action. And while both responses make sense, together they can create distance, tension and disconnection if they are not named. This episode is about what changed when we did name it. Instead of letting our old patterns take over, we were able to stay more aware, communicate more clearly and keep coming back to what was actually needed. Sometimes that was listening. Sometimes that was holding. Sometimes that was talking something through. Sometimes it was simply being a steady place to land. We also speak about the maturity it takes to let yourself be supported, especially when your old pattern is to believe you have to handle everything alone. There is a vulnerability in saying, “I am not okay.” There is a vulnerability in letting someone see you in grief, rage, despair or confusion without turning it into a game, a test or a wall. This conversation is for anyone in a relationship who is moving through something hard and can feel the patterns starting to take over. The withdrawing. The fixing. The personalising. The resentment. The silence. The tension. The feeling that the actual issue becomes secondary because now you are both caught in your own protective responses. Support the show

Being in your body is not just about feeling grounded, calm, sexy, peaceful, connected or alive. That is part of it. But being in the body also means being willing to feel what you have spent years trying to outrun.  The tight chest.  The grief.  The anger.  The ache.  The old fear.  The truth that has been waiting for you to stop long enough to hear it. So many of us say we want to be embodied, but what we often mean is that we want to feel the good parts of being alive without having to meet the uncomfortable parts. But the body does not work like that. The body holds what we have not had the space, safety or courage to feel. And at some point, coming home to yourself means coming home to all of it. This episode is about the difference between thinking about your pain and actually being with it. Because the mind can analyse, explain, justify, spiritualise and make meaning out of everything, but the body tells the truth in sensation. It will show you where you are bracing. Where you are protecting. Where you are gripping. Where you are still holding what your heart has not been able to put down. Being in the body is not about forcing yourself to heal faster. It is not about making pain pretty. It is about building the capacity to stay when something uncomfortable rises. The way back to yourself is not always soft and lovely. Sometimes it asks you to meet the pain you have been managing, numbing, performing over or pushing through. www.katjohn.com.au The Membership Waitlist Support the show

I asked Steve how he feels about turning 50 this year, and we ended up speaking about something much deeper than age. Years ago, when Steve first came to see me as a client at 39, he told me he felt like his best years were behind him. He thought the good years had already happened. That the window had passed. That life from there was maybe going to be more of the same, or a slow decline into responsibility, routine and getting through. And then the last decade became the best decade of his life. We spoke about what changed, what opened, and how Steve sees the last 10 years now. He shared that he attributes so much of that shift to our relationship, to the way we have grown together, communicated, challenged each other, built a life, had fun and kept choosing something more honest. This conversation is about ageing, but it is also about the stories we tell ourselves about time. The belief that we are too late. That the best has already happened. That because one chapter felt heavy, the next one cannot surprise us. Steve’s story is a reminder that life can still expand. Love can still deepen. Joy can still return. You can meet yourself differently at 40, 50 and beyond. You can look back at a version of yourself who thought the best was over and realise, actually, life was just getting ready to show you something else. This episode is a tender, funny and honest conversation about love, ageing, growth, partnership and the possibility that your best years might not be behind you at all. Support the show

How simple can you make it be? How simple can you make dating, love, work, life, communication and the next honest step in front of you? Because so often, we make things far more complicated than they need to be. We overthink what we already know. We delay the conversation we know we need to have. We turn a clear no into a maybe because we do not want to disappoint someone, and we turn a clear yes into a whole strategy because we are scared to want what we want. This episode is about the way complexity can become a hiding place. Chaos lets us avoid the truth. Overthinking lets us delay. Confusion lets us stay in what we already know, even when it is no longer working. But simple asks something different from us. Simple asks us to be honest. Maybe the life you are looking for needs you to stop adding chaos to what is already clear. Maybe it needs you to tell the truth sooner, and then live like you heard yourself. KATJOHN.COM.AU Support the show

Meet my qi gong teacher, Peter Caughey from Forest Rock Qigong. Peter is the founder of Forest Rock Qigong, a master teacher in Qigong and Taiji, and a Doctor of Traditional Chinese Medicine with more than 30 years of teaching and clinical experience. (Forest Rock Qigong) Together, we speak about the impact qi gong has on us mentally, emotionally, physically and spiritually, as a practice that brings us back into the body, back into presence, and back into a more honest relationship with ourselves. We talk about how qi gong supports the mind to slow down, the body to soften, the emotions to move, and the spirit to feel more connected. It is not about forcing yourself into calm. It is about learning how to listen. Learning how to meet what is here. Learning how to move with life instead of constantly pushing against it. Peter also shares the deeper wisdom of yin and yang, and how life is not about choosing one side over the other. It is the dance between doing and being, strength and softness, effort and surrender, movement and stillness. This conversation is a reminder that we are not meant to live in one mode all the time. We are meant to learn how to respond to the season we are in. We also speak about the Taoist way of wu wei, which is often understood as effortless action. Not doing nothing. Not being passive. But moving in a way that is aligned, natural and in rhythm with life. Knowing when to act, when to pause, when to soften, and when to let life meet you. This episode is for anyone who feels like they have been living from force, pressure, urgency or overthinking, and is ready to return to a steadier way. A way that feels less like pushing, and more like listening. Less like control, and more like trust. Less like being separate from life, and more like being in relationship with it. You can learn more about Peter and Forest Rock Qigong here: https://forestrockqigong.com/ You can also explore Peter’s 21 Day Online Qigong Challenge here: https://forestrockqigong.com/21-day-qigong-challenge/ (Forest Rock Qigong) Support the show

In this episode, I speak to the moment where the old fuel stops working. The part of life where you realise you are not lazy, you have not lost your fire, and you are not broken. Maybe the thing that used to drive you simply does not work anymore. The proving, the pressure, the pleasing, the performing, the fear of falling behind, the need to be good, successful, impressive, chosen or enough. That fuel may have taken you far. It may have made you disciplined. It may have helped you survive seasons you never should have had to survive. It may have built parts of your life that look strong from the outside. But it may have also made you tired. This episode is for the person who is in that strange space where nothing is working the way it used to. The old drive has gone quiet. The old goals do not hit the same. The old version of motivation is not there to pull from anymore. And while that can feel terrifying, it may not mean you are falling apart. It may mean something in you is finally done. This is not the end of your fire. It is the beginning of a different one.  Support the show

In this episode, I speak into the grief that can come with becoming more honest, more awake and more yourself. The heaviness you feel is not a sign that you are going the wrong way. Sometimes it is the ache of leaving behind a version of you that once had to exist. The version who stayed quiet. The version who kept the peace. The version who made herself smaller so other people could stay comfortable. The version who said yes because no felt dangerous. And while you may not want to go back, it can still hurt to move forward. You can miss who you were, even when you know you cannot live from that place anymore. You can be proud of your growth and still feel sad about what it has asked you to release. You can outgrow a pattern, a role, a relationship, a way of being, and still feel tender about leaving it behind. This episode is about giving yourself permission to grieve the old self without making that grief mean you have made the wrong choice. Because grief does not always mean go back. Grief means something mattered. Grief means a version of you did her job. Grief means you are standing at the edge of who you have been and finally telling the truth about who you are becoming. Support the show

In this episode, Steve and I speak about what it means to love each other more deeply 10 years in. The love after, “I have seen so many versions of you and I still choose you” kind of way. We talk about how our love has grown, changed and deepened over the years, and why we believe that has come down to communication, the willingness to keep growing together and continuing to have fun.  Because 10 years in, you are not the same people you were at the beginning. Life changes you. Work changes you. Family changes you. Grief, stress, seasons, bodies, dreams, disappointments and growth all change you. And a relationship has to be able to hold those changes. We speak about the importance of continuing to meet each other where we are, not where we used to be. To keep having the conversations. To keep telling the truth. To keep listening, even when it is uncomfortable. To keep being curious about each other, instead of assuming we already know everything there is to know. And of course, we talk about fun. Laughing matters. Being ridiculous together matters. Taking the pressure off matters. Sometimes the thing that keeps love alive is not another deep conversation, but the ability to look at each other and laugh at the absolute nonsense of life. This episode is a reflection on long-term love, the beauty of growing together, and the small choices that help a relationship stay alive, honest and connected over time. And 10 years on, we love each other more than we did at the start, because we have kept choosing to know each other, grow with each other, speak to each other and still have a bloody good time together. katjohn.com.au Support the show

In this episode, I’m speaking into the difference between what the head wants and what the heart knows. The head can want a lot of things. It can want the impressive thing, the safe thing, the thing that looks good from the outside. The thing that keeps us approved of, chosen, respected, admired or protected. It can want the next achievement, the next goal, the next version of success, the next thing we think will finally make us feel enough. But sometimes, the question we need to ask is, do I actually want this? Or do I want what I think this will give me? The heart often has a quieter clarity. The heart is the part of us that can feel when something is aligned, and when something is only being chased because we are scared to stop. It can feel the difference between a true desire and a conditioned one. Between a genuine pull, what is ours, and what we have been taught to want. And this is why it is healthy to question what we are going for. Do I want this because it feels true? Or because I am trying to prove something? Do I want this because my heart is in it? Or because I have been subconsciously influenced by what I have seen, absorbed, compared myself to, or been praised for? So much of what we chase is shaped quietly. By family systems, culture, social media, old wounds, the desire to belong, the fear of being left behind. By the version of success we were handed before we ever got to ask whether it suited us. This episode is an invitation to come back into that kind of listening. To question the chase. To sit with the truth beneath the wanting.  Sometimes the clarity we are seeking does not come from thinking harder. It comes from getting quiet enough to hear what has been true all along. Support the show

What are you pretending not to know? It is a confronting question because, most of the time, we do know. We know when something no longer feels right. We know when we are outgrowing a relationship, a role, a version of ourselves or the way we have been living. We know when we need to speak, leave, begin, rest, change direction or finally tell ourselves the truth. But knowing asks something of us. It asks us to act. It asks us to risk disappointing people. It asks us to let go of what is familiar. It asks us to stop hiding behind confusion when the truth has been there all along. Sometimes we pretend not to know because we are not ready for the consequences of knowing. So we overthink. We ask more people. We wait for another sign. We keep gathering information, hoping the answer will change. This episode is an invitation to get honest with yourself. Not to judge where you have been avoiding the truth, but to notice it. To listen to what your body, your intuition and your life have already been trying to tell you. Once we stop pretending not to know, the next step usually becomes painfully clear. Next Best Step Workshop - book here! Support the show

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In this episode, I spoke about a daily prayer that has become an anchor for me. “Guide me to where I’m destined to be. To the people I’m meant to meet. To the ground that calls my name. To the chances that are mine to take. To the life that’s mine to live.” It is simple, but it is not passive. This prayer is not about sitting back and waiting for life to happen. It is about learning to trust the timing of what is meant for us, while staying awake enough to move when the moment arrives. It asks us to have faith. Faith that lets us keep walking even when we cannot see the whole path yet. It asks us to listen. To the body, to the pull, to the quiet knowing. To the truth that often speaks softly before it becomes loud enough to ignore. It asks us to stop forcing what is not ours, and to stop dismissing what keeps calling us back. Sometimes we are so busy trying to figure it all out, prove ourselves, choose correctly, be impressive, be safe, be certain, that we miss the small invitations life is placing right in front of us. The right people. The right rooms. The right places. The right chances. The moments that do not always make logical sense, but something in us recognises them. This episode is about devotion to that listening. Support the show

If you want to laugh, this one is pure light. Steve and I talk about what we used to do at the start of our relationship to prevent the other from hearing our farts. I know, I know, it's crass, but every relationship goes through this phase and we thought we'd have a giggle and talk about the things we did. Very relatable. Website: www.katjohn.com.au LSKD code: KAT-LSKD Support the show