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What happens when life brings one loss after another, and you barely have time to process what you've been through? In this episode of the Purpose Beyond Motherhood Podcast, Nicole sits down with Jen Conrad, author of Finding God in the Trenches, for an honest conversation about compounded grief, identity, and finding God in seasons when He feels distant. Jen shares how losing a business, navigating a difficult adoption journey, and grieving the death of her mother left her struggling emotionally and spiritually. For a long time, she tried to keep moving forward rather than face what she was feeling. Together, Nicole and Jen talk about the different forms grief can take, including infertility, pregnancy loss, and the loss of dreams we imagined for our lives. Jen also shares practical ways she began processing her grief, including journaling, building a support system, seeking counseling, and learning to be honest with God about what she was experiencing. If you've been walking through one difficult season after another, this conversation is a reminder that you don't have to have everything figured out before coming to Jesus. Connect with Jen Conrad: Website: https://jenconrad.com Book: Finding God in the Trenches, available on Amazon. Connect with Twelve 12 Ministries: Visit weare1212.org for Christ-centered resources and support for infertility, miscarriage, pregnancy loss, and childlessness. Support + community Twice-a-month virtual support group  Twelve 12 Ministries Website Shop Instagram + Facebook: @twelve12ministries Email: [email protected]

Some days, infertility feels especially heavy. Maybe you're heading into another doctor's appointment, waiting for answers, or simply trying to make it through the day without letting fear and disappointment take over. Today on the Purpose Beyond Motherhood Podcast, Holly is taking a few minutes to pray with you. Drawing from Hebrews 10:23, a scripture she held onto throughout her own journey of infertility and loss, Holly prays for peace, clarity, and the strength to trust God one step at a time. She also shares a reminder worth holding onto: your longing for a child is not a lack of faith, and your grief is not a failure to trust God. Wherever you're listening today, we hope you'll take a few minutes to pray with Holly and be reminded of the faithfulness of the One who holds your story. Scripture: Hebrews 10:23 “Let us hold unswervingly to the hope we profess, for he who promised is faithful.” Find support through Twelve 12 Ministries: Visit weare1212.org for Christ-centered resources, support groups, and ways to connect with women who understand infertility and pregnancy loss. Support + community Twice-a-month virtual support group  Twelve 12 Ministries Website Shop Instagram + Facebook: @twelve12ministries Email: [email protected]

After losing her daughter Grace at 18 weeks pregnant, Carol Kraemer found herself grieving, angry with God, and struggling to understand why this had happened. She didn't have answers, and for a season, she wasn't even sure how to pray. In recognition of Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Month, Carol joins Nicole and Holly on the Purpose Beyond Motherhood Podcast to share her experience with second-trimester pregnancy loss, the role of counseling and community in her healing, and how she began rebuilding her relationship with God while still carrying unanswered questions. Carol also shares how her daughter Grace's life inspired her to create Evergrace Coffee, a business built around helping others find the community and support that made such a difference in her own grief. If you've experienced miscarriage or pregnancy loss and have struggled with anger, questions, or even your relationship with God, we hope this conversation reminds you that you can come to Him honestly. You don't have to have all the answers before you begin talking to Him again. In this episode: Grieving a second-trimester pregnancy lossFeeling angry with God after miscarriageFinding support through counseling, prayer, and communityLearning to trust God without understanding whyHonoring a baby's life and finding purpose after lossThe story behind Evergrace CoffeeConnect with Carol: Evergrace Coffee: https://evergracecoffee.com Instagram: @evergracecoffeeco Connect with Twelve 12 Ministries: https://twelve12.org You don't have to walk through infertility or pregnancy loss alone. Explore our Christ-centered resources, support groups, and ways to connect. Support + community Twice-a-month virtual support group  Twelve 12 Ministries Website Shop Instagram + Facebook: @twelve12ministries Email: [email protected]

October is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Month, and we're beginning the month with prayer. If you've experienced miscarriage, pregnancy loss, infant loss, infertility, or you're carrying grief that feels especially heavy this month, this prayer is for you. Nicole prays for the woman who needs to be reminded that God sees exactly where she is, knows what she's carrying, and is present with her in her grief. Our prayer is that this month, even in the hard moments, you would notice His presence and find comfort in knowing you are deeply loved by Him. October 15 is the International Wave of Light, a day when families around the world remember babies who are loved and missed. Throughout October, Purpose Beyond Motherhood will be sharing weekly episodes with prayer and personal stories as we make space to remember, grieve, and turn our hearts toward Jesus. Learn more about Twelve 12 Ministries and our Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Month resources at Twelve 12 Ministries. Episode Highlights  A prayer for women grieving miscarriage, pregnancy loss, and infant loss  Prayer for women walking through infertility and waiting  Finding comfort in God's presence  Remembering that God sees you in your grief  Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Month  International Wave of LightSupport + community Twice-a-month virtual support group  Twelve 12 Ministries Website Shop Instagram + Facebook: @twelve12ministries Email: [email protected]

We're bringing back one of our most-listened-to conversations on the Purpose Beyond Motherhood Podcast. Caitlin Estes, Certified FertilityCare Practitioner and founder of Woven Fertility, joins Nicole and Holly for an honest conversation about understanding your reproductive health, advocating for yourself, and exploring restorative approaches to fertility. Caitlin shares about the Creighton Method, NaProTechnology, whole-body health, and why understanding what is happening in your body matters, especially when you're walking through infertility. At the heart of the conversation is a reminder we still believe today: you deserve to understand your body, ask questions, and have a seat at the table when decisions are being made about your fertility. And since this conversation originally aired, Caitlin has continued this work in a new way with her book, Woven Well. We're excited to share more about the book and the resources Caitlin has created for women who want to better understand their bodies and fertility. In this episode:  Understanding the Creighton Method  What NaProTechnology is and how it approaches fertility  The connection between reproductive and whole-body health  Advocating for yourself in fertility care  Recognizing the complexity of the body God created  Finding options when traditional fertility care doesn't feel like the right fit Resources: Woven Fertility Support + community Twice-a-month virtual support group  Twelve 12 Ministries Website Shop Instagram + Facebook: @twelve12ministries Email: [email protected]

What happens when you’ve prayed for healing, believed God could do it, and the answer doesn’t look anything like you hoped? In this episode of the Purpose Beyond Motherhood Podcast, Nicole and Holly sit down with Stephanie Daniels for an honest conversation about infertility, fibroids, hysterectomy, grief, and surrender. For years, Stephanie held onto the dream of carrying a child while also believing God could heal her body. As her fibroids worsened and a hysterectomy became necessary, she found herself facing a decision that meant grieving a future she had pictured for most of her life. Stephanie shares what it looked like to finally release the outcome she had been trying so hard to hold onto and trust God with a story she would not have chosen for herself. Together, we talk about the pressure to make something happen, the grief that comes when life changes course, why community mattered before and after Stephanie’s surgery, and what she discovered about God in the middle of suffering. This isn’t a story tied up with the ending Stephanie originally prayed for. It’s a conversation about discovering that grief and hope can exist together, that surrender doesn’t erase what you’ve lost, and that Jesus can meet you in a place you never wanted to be. In this episode: • Infertility and Stephanie’s years of living with fibroids • Making the difficult decision to have a hysterectomy • Letting go of the pressure to control the outcome • Grieving the loss of carrying a biological child • How community supported Stephanie through surgery and loss • Holding grief and hope at the same time • Trusting God when healing looks different than expected • Finding peace and hope after surrender Resources Mentioned: Resurrection Year by Sheridan Voysey Refined Women’s Night October 16, 2026 In person in Frisco, Texas + online Learn more about Twelve 12 Ministries and find support at twelve12ministries.org. Support + community Twice-a-month virtual support group  Twelve 12 Ministries Website Shop Instagram + Facebook: @twelve12ministries Email: [email protected]

Have you ever wondered if God forgot about you? Maybe you've prayed the prayers, trusted Him with your story, and waited longer than you ever thought you would. In this solo episode of the Purpose Beyond Motherhood Podcast, Nicole shares a personal reflection on God's timing, faithfulness, and what it means to trust Him when the answer hasn't come yet. After a recent milestone for Twelve 12 Ministries reminded her of God's perfect timing, Nicole opens up about waiting, disappointment, purpose beyond motherhood, and the tension of believing God for a miracle while also trusting Him if the answer looks different than expected. In this episode, you'll hear encouragement around: • God's delay is not His denial • Trusting God's character when life doesn't make sense • The difference between God's promises and our expectations • Finding purpose beyond motherhood and beyond your circumstances • Why community matters when you're tired of waiting • Scriptures that bring hope in seasons of uncertainty Whether you're waiting for a baby, healing, restoration, direction, or simply your next step, this episode is a reminder that God sees you, loves you, and is still at work in your story. Scriptures Mentioned: Habakkuk 2:3 2 Peter 3:9 Isaiah 60:22 Galatians 6:9 Ecclesiastes 3:11 Resources: Twelve 12 Ministries Website Purpose Beyond Motherhood Podcast YouVersion Bible App Reading Plans Connect with Twelve 12 Ministries: Instagram: @twelve12ministries Facebook: @twelve12ministries Email: [email protected] Support + community Twice-a-month virtual support group  Twelve 12 Ministries Website Shop Instagram + Facebook: @twelve12ministries Email: [email protected]

Sometimes after miscarriage, it can feel like you and your husband are grieving in completely different ways. You may be carrying the physical loss, the emotions, and the questions every single day… while he seems quiet, distant, or focused on everything else that needs to get done. But what if he is grieving too, just differently? In this episode of the Purpose Beyond Motherhood Podcast, Nicole sits down with author Eric Schumacher for an honest conversation about miscarriage, marriage, and the grief fathers often carry silently. We talk about:  Why men and women often grieve differently after pregnancy loss  How to create space for honest conversations in marriage  What husbands may be feeling but struggling to say out loud  Practical ways couples can support each other through grief  How faith, lament, and the hope of Christ meet us in loss Eric also shares biblical encouragement for couples walking through miscarriage and reminds grieving parents that their baby mattered, their grief matters, and they do not have to carry it alone. This conversation is gentle, honest, and deeply validating for both mothers and fathers navigating loss. Connect with Eric + Resources Mentioned Eric’s website: https://emschumacher.com/ Dad’s Hurt Too: A Father’s Memoir of Miscarriage Ours: Biblical Comfort for Men Grieving Miscarriage Worthy: Celebrating the Value of Women Support + community Twice-a-month virtual support group  Twelve 12 Ministries Website Shop Instagram + Facebook: @twelve12ministries Email: [email protected]

Mother’s Day can feel complicated when you’re walking through infertility or loss. You want to show up.  You want to celebrate others.  But there’s also a part of your heart that feels heavy, tender… maybe even exhausted. In this episode, we’re having an honest conversation about what this day can bring up—and how to walk through it with grace, honesty, and support. We talk about:  what it looks like to protect your peace without guilt  how to set boundaries (with people, social media, and expectations)  simple ways to prepare for the day so it doesn’t catch you off guard  how to respond to questions you may not feel ready to answer  navigating church on Mother’s Day and what to do when it feels hard Most of all, this is a reminder that you are not forgotten in this story. You are seen. You are loved. And you don’t have to carry this day alone. If Mother’s Day has felt heavy before, or you’re unsure how to walk into it this year, this conversation is for you. Support + community Twice-a-month virtual support group  Twelve 12 Ministries Website Shop Instagram + Facebook: @twelve12ministries Email: [email protected]

If infertility is part of your story, or part of the story of someone you love, this episode is for you. In this conversation, we share practical ways to support a spouse or friend through infertility, talk about using declarations to stay anchored in God’s truth, and offer gentle next steps for finding support and community along the way. This episode of the Purpose Beyond Motherhood Podcast is a reminder that encouragement matters, support matters, and no one should have to walk this road alone. In this episode, we discuss:  3 ways to support your spouse or friend through infertility  using declarations to stand firm on God’s Word  how to get connected to support and community Support + community Twice-a-month virtual support group  Twelve 12 Ministries Website Shop  Instagram + Facebook: @twelve12ministries Email: [email protected] Support + community Twice-a-month virtual support group  Twelve 12 Ministries Website Shop Instagram + Facebook: @twelve12ministries Email: [email protected]

What does it look like to invite God into the disappointment of infertility? In this episode of Purpose Beyond Motherhood, Nicole and Holly talk about the grief, unanswered prayers, and heavy emotions that can come with infertility and hard seasons. They share an honest and encouraging conversation about staying close to God, trusting His character, and making space for Him in practical ways even when faith feels hard. This episode is a reminder that you do not have to clean yourself up before coming to the Lord. You can bring Him the disappointment, the questions, the waiting, and the ache of what has not gone the way you hoped. In this episode, we talk about: • inviting God into disappointment and infertility • trusting God’s character in hard seasons • staying connected to Him through prayer, worship, and time in the Word • Romans 8:11 and the reminder that His power is still at work in us • practical ways to be with the Lord in the middle of grief and waiting Scripture mentioned Romans 8:11 Books + resources mentioned The Worship Initiative  More Than You’ve Been Told by Hosanna Wong Support + community Twice-a-month virtual support group:  Twelve 12 Ministries Website: Shop:  Instagram + Facebook: @twelve12ministries Email: [email protected] Support + community Twice-a-month virtual support group  Twelve 12 Ministries Website Shop Instagram + Facebook: @twelve12ministries Email: [email protected]

Have infertility or loss ever made you feel like you’re carrying more than you can hold? In this episode of Purpose Beyond Motherhood from Twelve 12 Ministries, we’re sitting down with Heather LaVigne for a real conversation about infertility, miscarriage, endometriosis, and the slow work of healing when your heart is tired. Heather shares her long road through unexplained infertility, IVF, secondary infertility, and multiple losses. She also talks about the moment she realized endometriosis had been impacting her body for years, and what it looked like to keep showing up to God when she honestly felt like she couldn’t anymore. We talk about lament, the words you’re scared to say out loud, and the kind of community that helps you breathe again. If you need an episode that makes space for grief while still pointing you back to Jesus, press play. Book + resources mentioned Barren (Heather LaVigne) Dark Clouds, Deep Mercy Support + community Twice-a-month virtual support group:  Twelve 12 Ministries Website Shop  Instagram + Facebook: @twelve12ministries  Email: [email protected] Support + community Twice-a-month virtual support group  Twelve 12 Ministries Website Shop Instagram + Facebook: @twelve12ministries Email: [email protected]

Infertility has a way of quietly reshaping how you see yourself. In this episode of Purpose Beyond Motherhood, we sit down with counselor and ministry leader Monica Bates for a gentle, honest conversation about identity, emotional health, and finding your footing again with God while you’re still waiting. We talk about what it looks like to name what you’re actually feeling without rushing to fix it, how grief and stress can dysregulate both your body and your faith, and why Scripture calls you God’s masterpiece even when your life doesn’t feel whole. This episode is for the woman who feels disconnected from herself.  For the one who loves God but feels emotionally worn down.  For the one who needs permission to slow down and tell the truth. You don’t have to pretend here.  You are still deeply seen.  And you are still God’s ongoing work of art. Connect with Monica: The Honey Rock Collective https://www.honeyrockcollective.com Email: [email protected] More Support from Twelve 12 Ministries If you’re looking for additional support, resources, or ways to connect: Visit the Twelve 12 Ministries website: https://www.twelve12ministries.org/ Give and donate to Twelve 12: https://www.twelve12ministries.org/give Follow Twelve 12 on Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/twelve12ministries Check out Purpose Beyond Motherhood podcast on TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@pbm_podcast Shop the Twelve 12 Ministries shop: https://twelve12ministries.shop/ Support + community Twice-a-month virtual support group  Twelve 12 Ministries Website Shop Instagram + Facebook: @twelve12ministries Email: [email protected]

Grief after pregnancy loss can feel isolating, confusing, and deeply personal. And so often, women are left wondering where to turn, what to say, or how to keep going. In this episode of the Purpose Beyond Motherhood Podcast, we sit down with Rachel Dickey, a labor and delivery nurse, mom, and author, to talk honestly about navigating pregnancy loss and learning how to live alongside grief. Rachel shares her own story of loss, how it reshaped her understanding of motherhood, and why advocacy in healthcare matters so deeply for grieving parents. We talk about honoring children who are no longer here, the different ways men and women grieve, and how faith and Scripture can become anchors when answers feel out of reach. This conversation is for the woman who has experienced pregnancy loss and is still trying to find her footing.  For the one who needs permission to grieve honestly.  For the one who needs to know she’s not alone. If that’s you, this episode was made with you in mind. Connect with Rachel Rachel’s heart for grieving mothers extends beyond this conversation. You can learn more about her work and her book using the links below. Grab her book on Amazon  Visit her website  More Support from Twelve 12 Ministries If you’re looking for additional support, resources, or ways to connect: Visit the Twelve 12 Ministries website: https://www.instagram.com/twelve12ministries Give and donate to Twelve 12: https://secure.twelve12ministries.org/forms/twelve-12-ministries Follow Twelve 12 on Instagram: https://www.twelve12ministries.org/ Check out Purpose Beyond Motherhood podcast on TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@pbm_podcast Shop the Twelve 12 Ministries shop: https://twelve12ministries.shop/ Support + community Twice-a-month virtual support group  Twelve 12 Ministries Website Shop Instagram + Facebook: @twelve12ministries Email: [email protected]

Nicole sits down with Dalton and Jenni McGaha for an honest conversation about miscarriages, IVF, adoption, and what it looks like to trust God when the waiting feels endless. They share both the wife and husband perspective—what helped, what hurt, and how they stayed connected when hope felt thin. You’ll hear about:  • Navigating miscarriage and unanswered questions  • Finding a doctor who listens and prays with you  • The emotional and practical side of IVF  • How infertility impacts marriage and communication  • Their adoption story and God’s timing  • Real encouragement for couples still waiting Jenni speaks directly to the woman who feels out of hope, and Dalton closes with a heartfelt prayer over listeners. If you’re walking through infertility, loss, or considering IVF or adoption, we pray this meets you with compassion and courage. Visit the Twelve 12 Ministries website: https://www.instagram.com/twelve12ministries Give and donate to Twelve 12: https://secure.twelve12ministries.org/forms/twelve-12-ministries Follow Twelve 12 on Instagram: https://www.twelve12ministries.org/ Check out Purpose Beyond Motherhood podcast on TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@pbm_podcast Shop the Twelve 12 Ministries shop: https://twelve12ministries.shop/ Support + community Twice-a-month virtual support group  Twelve 12 Ministries Website Shop Instagram + Facebook: @twelve12ministries Email: [email protected]