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What if your creative block isn’t actually a creativity problem? In this bonus episode of Proper Madness, I’m talking about self-abandonment, people-pleasing, creativity, relationships, business, and what happens when you build your life around getting an outcome instead of choosing yourself. I share a conversation with one of my students who was struggling with a creative block, and how we traced it back to something much deeper: forcing an outcome, seeking approval, and not giving himself the space and capacity to actually create. That realization made me look at my own creative blocks, my business, my community, my relationships, and even the people I’ve attracted into my life. Because sometimes the thing you’re struggling with is a mirror. Your creative block might be reflecting burnout. Your relationships might be reflecting self-abandonment. Your business might be reflecting what you think other people want from you. And sometimes the way forward isn’t to try harder. It’s to stop abandoning yourself. https://www.mymyndspace.com/becometheart

I’ve spent a lot of my life wondering why the same patterns kept showing up in my relationships, my creativity, my mental health, and the way I expressed myself. Eventually, I realized they weren't as separate as I thought. In this episode of Proper Madness, I talk about self-abandonment, emotionally unavailable relationships, childhood wounds, emotional triggers, addiction, creativity, and the stories we carry in our bodies. Sometimes the patterns in our relationships, our creativity, and our lives are showing us something about the relationship we have with ourselves. So the question I'm sitting with is: What story are you still living from that you haven't fully told the truth about yet? Grab your tea, coffee, whatever you're drinking, and come sit with me. Welcome to Proper Madness.

This one came out of nowhere on a Sunday morning. Unedited. No plan. Just something I needed to say. I've been thinking a lot lately about how much the people we surround ourselves with — our friends, our partners, the people we're dating, the people we share energy with — directly impact our creativity, our confidence, and our ability to show up as ourselves. I get into why love bombing isn't malicious, it's just someone who doesn't know how to fill their own cup. What it actually feels like when someone is pulling at your energy field. Why I stopped giving people more chances than my gut was giving them. The conversation I had with my dad on his birthday that confirmed everything I'd been feeling about the kind of partner I actually need. And why if you have a purpose bigger than yourself, you cannot afford to keep surrounding yourself with people who are abandoning their own. This is the Sunday Sabi Show — unhinged, unedited, and exactly what I needed to get off my chest.

Everyone online is telling you the old you has to die. New identity. New era. Kill off who you were. Become someone else. In this episode I'm calling that out — because I think it's one of the most dangerous things being taught right now, and I think a lot of people in the spiritual and self development space are using it as a way to keep you dependent on them instead of yourself. The truth is your shadow self, the parts of you that you've been told are too much, too messy, too dark, too complicated — those aren't things to kill off. They're the parts of you that got you here. They're your deepest allies. And the moment you start integrating them instead of suppressing them is the moment you actually step into who you are.

This one gets personal. Really personal. In this solo episode I'm getting into something nobody talks about honestly — the direct link between pleasure, desire, sensuality and your ability to express yourself, create freely and take up space in the world. I share my own story with this. Growing up in a strict, culturally conditioned household where freedom was always conditional. My first love at 16 and the moment I learned that being seen and desired meant someone would eventually leave. The relationships that followed — the emotionally unavailable ones, the abusive ones, the codependent ones — and what every single one of them was actually mirroring back to me about where I was abandoning myself. My two and a half years of celibacy by choice, and the intentional decision I made to break it because I finally found someone safe enough to do so with. And then I connect all of it to creativity. Because your creative power lives in your sacral. And when you're shaming yourself out of desire, out of pleasure, out of connection — you're shaming yourself out of your art too.

Jealousy is one of those emotions we've been conditioned to treat like a character flaw. Avoid it, suppress it, spiritually bypass it -and definitely don't admit you feel it. But what if jealousy is actually the most honest thing your nervous system has ever said to you? In this solo episode I'm getting into why jealousy and envy are not emotions to run from — they're shadow emotions that are showing you exactly where you've been neglecting yourself, abandoning your creativity, and not showing up in the way you know you could be. I share two very real, very personal examples of jealousy hitting me recently — one at the gym and one with a creator I deeply admire — and how both of them pointed straight back to where I was letting myself down, not where they were doing better than me.

In this episode discuss the difference between being seen and being perceived, and why I've spent most of my life quietly making myself invisible even when I desperately wanted to take up space. I talk about growing up with body insecurities, learning disabilities, social anxiety, and neurodivergence - and how all of that stacked up into a subconscious decision I made about myself before I even knew I was making it. We're stepping into the spotlight whether we're ready or not.

In this episode, I sit down in person with Kelly, founder of Luna Love in Whittier, California, a spiritual shop specializing in candles, oils, ritual tools, crystals, and classes — for one of the most grounded and honest conversations I've had about quantum leaping and timeline jumping. Because we're not here to sell you the idea that manifesting your next level is all flow and ease. It's not. It's your body getting sick. It's your knee giving out. It's people around you suddenly acting weird. It's panic attacks the day after you sign the contract. It's everything in your subconscious trying to drag you back to who you were. We get into what quantum leaping actually looks like in real life — the resistance, the calibration period, why things sometimes seem to go backwards right after you leap, how to tell the difference between fear and intuition, why you don't have to have your subconscious fully healed before you jump, and what resilience actually means when you're building something from your gifts. We also talk about the energetics of being seen online, why your social media is a mirror of your frequency, and how to step into visibility in a way your nervous system can actually hold. Find Kelly: Instagram & TikTok: @luna_love Website: lunamlove.com In person: 1512 Whittier Blvd, Whittier CA 90602 Find Sabi: Instagram | TikTok | YouTube: @_sabidhillon

I'm back. New space, new walls, and honestly a lot to yap about. In this solo episode I'm having the conversation I've been sitting with for a while. I moved, I turned another year older, I became a published photographer, and somewhere in the middle of all of that expansion - my creativity went completely quiet. And I had to figure out why. This episode is about what happens to your identity when your environment shifts. I spent years building my creativity, my business, my whole aesthetic out of chaos, pain, and dark beauty. And then I finally landed somewhere safe - and my nervous system didn't know what to do with it. Neither did my art. If you've ever gone through a big transition and felt yourself go quiet right when things were finally starting to work - this one's for you. Subscribe, leave a review, and share this with someone who's in the middle of becoming.

What does it mean to live as an infinite being inside a finite human experience — and how do you stop fighting that paradox? This week on Proper Madness, I'm joined by Nino Palacio: behavioral coach, breathwork guide, mystic, poet, and retreat facilitator. Nino's work lives at the intersection of psychology, philosophy, and spiritual practice, and this conversation goes places I didn't expect. We talk about discovering autism later in life, losing his best friend to psychosis, and why that loss made him question everything about traditional psychology. We get into psychedelics as a tool that bypasses the logical mind, the danger of intellectualizing your own healing, and shame alchemy - using content creation as a genuine spiritual initiatory process. And we end up in a full conversation about the villain era, what your shadow self is actually asking for, and why expressing your truth online might be one of the most liberating things you can do. This one is for the overthinkers, the mystics, the healers, and anyone who's been living a little too small. Find Niño: @eldivinenino

In this episode, Sabi sits down with Ranela- marriage and family therapist, life coach, actress, and host of The Life Edit podcast - for a deeply honest conversation about what it actually takes to rebuild yourself from the ground up. Ranela shares her journey from a life heavily rooted in religion to a full identity deconstruction at 27. They go deep on codependency, attachment patterns, what it means to live between cultures as South Asian women in the West, and why the loneliest and most necessary journey is the one you have to take with yourself. This one's for anyone who's ever felt like they were climbing the right ladder only to realize it's leaning on the wrong house. Find Ranela: Instagram: @lifewithranela Podcast: The Life Edit with Ranela

In this episode, I sit down with psychic, spiritual content creator, and all-around iconic human Kayleigh Alexa for an unfiltered conversation about what it actually means to be a spiritual woman navigating dating, self-trust, and showing up online without losing your soul in the process. We chat about the the spiritual closet, what it means to hide your gifts because you're afraid of rejection, and why that same wound shows up in your relationships, your dating patterns, and even your content. Kayleigh shares her experience of being gaslit by a partner who literally knew she was psychic and intentionally made her doubt herself, and how that became the catalyst for owning her gifts fully. This episode goes deep on soul mirrors, why you attract people who reflect your unhealed wounds, energetic sovereignty in relationships, what it means to create content FROM yourself instead of FOR the algorithm, and why your intuition has never actually been wrong.

In a world obsessed with trends, algorithms, and constant output, what happens when we slow down instead? In this episode of Proper Madness, I sit down with wildlife photographer and conservationist David to explore the deeper relationship between presence, creativity, and authenticity  both online and in life. Through stories from wildlife photography, travel, and personal evolution, this conversation becomes a reminder that art isn’t made by chasing attention- it’s made by paying attention. If you’re a creative, entrepreneur, or human feeling overwhelmed by content culture, this episode is an invitation to slow down, reconnect, and remember why you started. David is a naturalist, occasional writer, and a passionate wildlife photographer and videographer. Currently living off the west coast of Scotland, he's worked in wild life conservation for over a decade, and the experiences and moments he's had along the way have been unforgettable.  @davidswildlife on IG and @davids.wildlife on Tik Tok

In this episode, I sit down with Sean Kennedy, musician, creator, and one of those people who can say the quiet thing out loud. We talk about what happens when life forces an identity shift… and how creativity can become the thing that brings you back. We go into curiosity as the root of real creativity, why so many people are trapped in performance (online and in life), and the difference between obsession and devotion. We also talk about facing yourself the mirror moment, accountability, quitting alcohol, discernment, and what it means to protect your gift when you’re going through it. This episode is for anyone who feels the pull to live more honestly. Sean Colin Kennedy is a Scottish recording artist based in Nashville. Creating a blend of rock, pop with a nostalgic pull. Sean also in the acting world as well as an advocate and speaker of mental health and the spiritual journey.  Follow Sean @seankennedy77 on all platforms.

In this episode, I sit down with Ruby for a deep, honest conversation about intuition - not as something mystical or abstract, but as something deeply embodied. We talk about what intuition actually feels like in the body, why so many of us were taught to numb it, and how learning to feel again can change everything. From Akashic Records and breathwork to lineage wounds, sensuality, shame, and surrender - this conversation is about coming back home to yourself. Intuition isn’t loud.  It’s subtle. It’s physical.  It’s a language of feeling. If you’ve ever felt disconnected from your body, your emotions, or your inner knowing - this episode is for you. Ruby is the Founder and Boss Witch at The Shift – a company with a mission to help close the wellness gap by joyfully reclaiming our magic. She uses the Akashic Records, tarot, and energy healing to guide people home to their truth, infinite power, and deep magic. Rather than fortune-telling your future, her approach as an Intuitive Guide is rooted in self-empowerment to remind you that you create your own. Ruby is a resident intuitive reader at Anima Mundi Apothecary and Mystic Journey Bookstore. She's also a wellness practitioner at The Preserve (formerly Second Home Hollywood) and has worked with celebrities, non-profits, and companies such as Skims, Shiseido, and Neuehouse.  IG: @TheShift.Is Web: www.theshift.is --