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What happens when the gun fires… but you wake up anyway? In this episode of The Roller Coaster Podcast, I sit down with Nick Rossborough, a former professional fighter who lost his identity, his marriage, and nearly his life. One night, alone on a mountain with a pistol in his hand, Nick made a decision he believed would end the pain. But something happened that shouldn’t be possible. And moments later, a small voice from inside his house changed everything. Nick takes us inside the darkest night of his life, the divorce, the identity collapse, the silent suffering so many men hide, and the long road back through trauma healing, breathwork, purpose, and learning to love himself again. This isn’t just a survival story. It’s a wake-up call. If you’ve ever felt lost, numb, or ready to give up, this conversation is for you. Subscribe, share this with someone who needs it, and leave a comment below. You’re not alone. Key Moments: 0:00 I Put the Gun to My Head 3:07 Divorce, Heartbreak, and the Breaking Point 6:30 “Dad, I Made You Cookies” 9:00 When Losing My Identity Destroyed Me 12:25 Why Men Bottle Pain Until They Explode 15:28 Reading the Bible in a Week While Falling Apart 19:08 Vowing Never to Hit Rock Bottom Again 21:52 Loving Someone When You Can’t Love Yourself 23:55 Breathwork Visions That Changed Everything 27:32 The Oxygen Mask Rule That Rewired My Life 30:46 Here’s How I Escaped Trauma 33:13 The Real Reason Men Reach the Edge 35:35 How Do You Find a Reason to Stay Alive? 38:18 Meeting the Version of Myself I Abandoned 41:07 The Bullet That Killed the Old Me 43:25 Becoming a Man Who Needs No Validation 45:50 Facing Fear Through Plant Medicine 49:48 Why Human Connection Saves Lives 52:06 Love, Empathy, and Healing Without Medication

What do you do when your worst fear comes true… and no one even knows the truth? In this episode of The Roller Coaster Podcast, I sit down with Adriana Sansam, a mother whose life changed forever when her husband died alone in a hotel room from an accidental overdose. One moment he was on a work trip. The next, she was racing for answers, convinced something was wrong before anyone confirmed it. Adriana opens up about loving a recovering addict, hiding his addiction from everyone, and the devastating phone call that left her raising three young children alone. But this isn’t just a story about addiction and grief. It’s about breaking the stigma, telling the truth, and turning shame into purpose. If you’ve been touched by addiction, mental health struggles, loss, or single parenting, this conversation will stay with you. Listen now. Share this with someone who needs it. And subscribe for more stories that change lives. Key Moments: 0:00 “I Knew Something Was Wrong” 3:12 Married to a Recovering Addict 6:05 The Phone Call That Confirmed My Fear 9:02 “He’s Dead”, Hearing the Words 12:10 Who He Was Beyond the Addiction 15:08 Understanding the Mind of an Addict 18:04 Explaining His Death to Our 5-Year-Old 21:06 When Shame Turned Into Silence 24:18 The Message That Changed Everything 27:30 Why I Finally Told the Truth 30:12 Did He Have a Reason to Keep Going? 33:40 When the Past Blocks the Future 36:10 “I Don’t Need More, I Need You” 39:05 Speaking to Him After His Death 42:18 A Message to Fathers Battling Addiction 45:30 Watching My Son Look for His Dad Guest Info: IG: adrianasansam (https://www.instagram.com/adrianasansam/)

What happens when the thing that defines you is taken away in a single moment? On this episode of The Roller Coaster Podcast, I sit down with Mahi Crabbe, a former full-time musician who nearly lost his life in a brutal rock-crawling accident that crushed his hand and shattered his identity as an artist on November 3, 2018. In a matter of seconds, Mahi went from touring and playing sold-out shows to lying in an ambulance, convinced his career was over. The injury didn’t just threaten his ability to play guitar, it forced him to confront deeper questions about purpose, faith, manhood, and how to provide for the family he always dreamed of building. We talk about the night everything changed, the fear of starting over, the anger he carried toward God, and how losing his “guitar hand” ultimately led him to build an entirely new life as a business owner and father. If you’ve ever had your plans ripped away, your identity shaken, or your faith tested, this conversation will hit home. Watch this episode to see how losing everything became the beginning of something bigger. Key Moments: 0:00 The Day I Lost My Hand 3:02 My Hand Was Hanging By Skin 6:05 Life Flashing Before My Eyes 9:10 “That’s His Guitar Hand” 12:36 Waking Up, My Identity Was Gone 15:32 I Couldn’t Be A Musician Anymore 18:39 From Hospital Bed To Truck Driver 21:30 Growing Up Without A Father 24:23 Becoming The Man I Never Had 26:50 The Night That Changed My Faith 29:40 From Leaving Church To Returning 33:03 Why God Took My Hand 35:41 My Family Came Back To Church 37:55 From Homeless To Business Owner 40:14 Why Hawaii Heals The Soul 42:49 My Message To Every Man Watching Guest Info: IG: @mahilive (https://www.instagram.com/mahilive/)

What happens when faith meets unimaginable loss and the miracle doesn’t come the way you prayed for it? In this deeply raw episode of The Roller Coaster Podcast, I sit down with Shayna Weston, a woman whose life was shattered by a relentless sequence of grief that few could survive. In the span of a single year, Shayna walked beside her brother as he fought terminal cancer, held onto hope for a miracle, whispered goodbye as he took his final breath, then returned home only to lose her beloved dog… and shortly after, face her father’s devastating stage four pancreatic cancer diagnosis. This conversation isn’t about tidy answers or surface-level faith. It’s about the brutal reality of grief, the anger we feel toward God, the moments we bargain, break, and beg and the quiet, unexpected ways healing and redemption can still emerge. Shayna opens up about caregiving, anticipatory grief, losing multiple loved ones, wrestling with faith, forgiveness, and what it truly means to surrender when control is gone. It’s honest, heartbreaking, and somehow still filled with hope. Watch this episode to understand grief on a deeper level and if you’ve ever lost someone, questioned your faith, or felt crushed by loss, this conversation will remind you that you’re not alone. Key Moments: 0:00 The Call That Changed Everything 3:14 “You Have One Week Left” 6:07 When Hope And Reality Collided 9:21 The Moment I Knew He Was Dying 12:08 Singing Through Terminal Cancer 15:02 Doctors Said It Was Impossible 18:36 The Treatment That Shouldn’t Have Worked 21:48 When I Began Fighting God 24:31 “I’m Scared To Die” 27:26 Choosing Faith Over Fear 30:19 The Breath That Never Came Back 33:08 Watching My Brother Take His Last Breath 36:11 Grief Hits In Slow Motion 39:04 The Silence That Broke Our Family 42:12 Losing My Dog Right After Losing Him 45:03 When Grief Turned Into Anger 48:29 The Diagnosis That Came Next 51:42 Stage Four Pancreatic Cancer 54:56 “I Don’t Want To Fight Anymore” 58:08 Learning To Let Go Guest Info: IG: @shay_weston_ (https://www.instagram.com/shay_weston_/)

What happens when suicide keeps showing up in your life… before you’re even old enough to understand it? In this episode of The Rollercoaster Podcast, I sit down with Stanley Stark, a man whose life has been shaped by loss, silence, and hard truths most men never say out loud. From losing a close friend as a teenager to the devastating phone call that his own father had taken his life, Stanley opens up about how unprocessed grief, broken family dynamics, and emotional isolation quietly pushed him toward recklessness, anger, and self-destruction. But this conversation isn’t just about tragedy. It’s about what happens when a man finally stops running. We talk openly about men’s mental health, suicide prevention, integrity, faith, and why so many men suffer in silence until it feels unbearable. Stanley shares the lessons grief taught him, the power of forgiveness, and how community and honesty can save lives. If you’ve lost someone to suicide, struggled with your mental health, or wondered how to be a better man in a broken world, watch this episode to be reminded that you’re not alone and it’s never too late to choose a different path. Key Moments: 0:00 I Buried a Friend Yesterday… 3:30 The Note His Friend Left Behind 6:25 Holding a Gun at 15 and Asking “Why” 8:55 The Session That Shut Him Down 12:18 The Lie That Killed His Hope 15:01 A Broken Father-Son Bond 17:48 Trying to Start Over… One Last Time 21:17 The Call That Changed Everything 24:22 The Details No One Warned Him About 28:24 The Suicide Statistics Men Ignore 31:02 Why His Pain Became His Purpose 35:10 The Silent Addiction Destroying Men 39:13 Why Being Approachable Can Save a Life 41:35 “Suicide Doesn’t End Pain... It Passes It On” 45:12 The One Truth Every Man Needs to Hear Today

What do you do when the person you love becomes the person you fear most? In today’s episode, I sit down with Lyndsey Hackford, a woman whose story left me shaken, heartbroken, and in absolute awe of her strength. For 18 years, Lyndsey lived inside an abusive marriage that slowly stole her voice, her identity, and nearly her life. What started as subtle manipulation spiraled into control, isolation, physical violence, and moments where she genuinely didn’t know if she would survive the night. Her children witnessed things no child ever should. And yet, Lyndsey found a way out. In this conversation, Lyndsey walks us through the moments that changed everything: the fear, the near-death experiences, the police intervention, the escape, the trial, and the long, painful road to rebuilding her life. If you’ve lived through trauma, domestic abuse, emotional manipulation, or you’re trying to support someone who has, her story will stay with you. Watch this episode to hear Lyndsey’s message of hope, courage, and reclaiming your life, no matter how dark things have been. Key Moments: 0:00 “I Hit the Wall So I Wouldn’t Hit Mom” 3:00 The “Support” That Was Actually Control 6:02 How Her Religion Was Used Against Her 9:19 The Moment She Realised Her Worth Was Gone 12:00 The Day He Admitted He Wanted to Hit Her 14:44 The Shame and Threats That Kept Her Silent 17:39 A Year of Sleep Deprivation and Surveillance 20:10 “Just Let Me Leave”… and the Violent Response 23:06 “Look at That Face, How Could I Love That?” 26:00 The Escape Attempt That Finally Worked 29:31 The Jury Trial And Her Kids Taking the Stand 32:53 Why Abusers All Share the Same Patterns 33:23 Her Message to Women Still Living in Fear Guest Info: IG: @lyndseyh6723 Facebook: @lyndsey.jackson.125

What do you do when the pain gets so loud that you don’t want to be here anymore? What happens in the moment when life almost ends… and something pulls you back? In this powerful episode of The Rollercoaster Podcast, I sit down with Wes Wright, who opens up about the day he attempted to take his own life and the split-second moment that changed everything. Wes walks us through the fear, exhaustion, and silent suffering that led him there, the near-death experience that followed, and the long road back toward faith, accountability, and purpose. This conversation goes far beyond a suicide attempt. We talk about men’s mental health, depression, identity, faith, redemption, and the lies that convince people they are alone or beyond repair. Wes shares the hard lessons he learned about responsibility, healing, and why pain doesn’t mean your story is over. If you’ve ever felt broken, lost your sense of purpose, or questioned whether life can get better, this conversation will meet you right where you are. Watch this episode to hear Wes Wright’s story and be reminded that hope is still possible. Key Moments: 0:00 The Day He Planned To End His Life 2:45 Sitting Alone With A Gun And No Hope 6:10 Dialling 911 Not Knowing If He’d Survive 9:10 “God Still Gave Me A Choice” 13:40 The Lie That Almost Destroyed Him 16:20 The Ten-Minute Danger Window 20:40 “I Wanted One Last Goodbye” 23:10 Doctors Say Can’t Explain This 27:30 The Therapist Who Changed Him 31:10 “My Son Died… Then I Tried To” 34:20 Why Suicide Doesn’t End Pain 37:05 The Three Lies That Trap You 40:10 A Message To Anyone Struggling Guest Info: IG: @wesfunbro Tiktok: @wesfunbro

There are moments in life that split everything into “before” and “after.” And for Ben Longshore, it began with one sentence from his father: “Take care of your mom and sister.” Hours later, he learned there was no pulse. In this raw and deeply human conversation, I sit down with my cousin Ben, someone I’ve known my entire life, as he opens up about the night his dad unexpectedly passed away, the weight of being 16 when everything changed, and the choice to step into a role he never asked for. His story doesn’t end there. Seven years later, another tragedy struck our family, forcing him to face grief all over again and ask the questions no one wants to ask: Why now? How do you keep going? Where is God in all this? This episode is about loss, faith, resilience, family, and the quiet strength you don’t know you have until life demands it. If you’ve walked through grief, felt responsible for others, or wondered how to rebuild after tragedy, this conversation will stay with you. Watch this episode to hear Ben’s powerful journey and be reminded that even in the heaviest moments, hope still has a voice. Key Moments: 0:00 The Last Words His Dad Ever Said 3:00 The Day That Changed His Life Forever 7:04 The Moment He Knew Something Was Wrong 12:18 The Night Before Everything Went Wrong 17:10 The Prayer That Shifted the Room 21:45 Telling His Sister Their Dad Was Gone 25:40 How the Community Showed Up Overnight 30:12 The Spiritual Perspective That Saved Him 35:40 The Father-Son Moments He Still Misses 39:54 Dreams, Football, and a Life Rewritten 43:02 Why Showing Up Matters More Than Words 49:35 The 30-Hour Drive They'll Never Forget 51:20 Seven Years Later, Another Tragedy Hits 55:24 “Nick Is in the Hospital”: Reliving Old Trauma 59:58 The ATV Accident That Changed Everything 1:03:49 Praying for a Miracle That Didn’t Come 1:07:22 Helping His Sister-in-Law Survive the Impossible 1:12:28 The Organ Donor Story No One Expected 1:17:08 How That Meeting Changed Their Family Forever 1:23:56 How He Leads His Family Differently Now 1:28:40 Why “Stepping Up” Matters More Than Ever Guest Info: IG: @‌ben.longshore

What happens when your childhood is spent dodging bombs instead of playing outside? What does survival do to the human spirit and how do you rebuild when everything familiar disappears overnight? In this episode, I sit down with Dr. Guitta Harb, who escaped war in Lebanon as a young girl and was forced to grow up before she ever had the chance to be a child. From hiding in dark underground shelters to leaving her home at 2 am on a secret ship with no promise of return, her story is raw, vulnerable, and deeply human. We dive into the identity struggles that come with being caught between two cultures, the trauma stored in the body, and the moment she realised fear didn’t have to dictate her future. She shares how survival turned into purpose, graduating dental school at 21, becoming a mother, and building a life rooted in gratitude and resilience. This conversation explores war trauma, anxiety, identity, mental health, survival mode, fear, resilience, the immigrant story, and finding your why. Watch this episode to feel hope again proof that pain can become purpose, and your past doesn’t have to define your future. Key Moments: 0:00 Robbed of a Childhood 2:12 Life in a Warzone: Fear Every Single Day 5:45 “Pack Your Bags. We’re Leaving Tonight.” 8:10 The Secret Ship That Changed Everything 12:12 Lost Between Two Worlds 17:30 Learning English… Without Knowing a Word 22:38 How She Learned to Belong in America 25:09 “I Refuse to Be a Victim” 30:44 The Anxiety That Never Fully Left 33:26 Parenting After Trauma 36:12 What Chaos Does to the Nervous System 40:55 Turning Pain Into Purpose 45:40 Why So Many Suffer Alone 48:12 The Power of Finding Your Why 52:33 Why Young People Give Up Too Soon 55:17 How to Survive When Life Breaks You 59:55 Raising Strong Kids in a Fragile World 1:04:10 How She Found Healing Slowly 1:08:20 Why She Still Believes in Hope Guest Info: IG: @‌therealocdentist Website: https://drguittaharb.com/

What happens when the moment that should have destroyed you… becomes the moment God uses to save your life? This episode with Ruslan KD is one of the most intense, emotional, and faith-shifting conversations I’ve ever had. Today, I sit down with Ruslan KD, creator, pastor, rapper, and one of the fastest-growing Christian voices online, to unpack a story that begins in a war-torn country, where a single detail from his childhood literally saved his family from being killed. From fleeing ethnic cleansing in Azerbaijan, surviving abuse, and falling into drugs, crime, and violence in San Diego, Ruslan opens up about the battles that shaped him. We talk about fatherlessness, trauma, identity, masculinity, addiction, and the moment God stepped in and completely rerouted his life. His transformation from chaos to calling is a raw reminder that redemption is real and that God’s ways, even when they feel restrictive, are actually pathways to freedom. If you’ve wrestled with identity, faith, or the pain of your past, this conversation will breathe hope into you. Watch this episode to hear a story you’ll never forget. Key Moments: 0:00 The Moment That Saved My Life 1:42 Growing Up Armenian in a War Zone 4:52 The One Detail That Meant Life or Death 7:48 My Family Fell Apart Overnight 10:38 How I Slid Into Crime at 11 13:22 Gangster Rap Became My Role Model 15:52 Running From a Kid With a Knife 18:40 We Had to Move or I Wasn’t Going to Make It 21:41 Wrestling With Faith, Trauma, and Identity 24:45 Why I Finally Surrendered Everything 27:28 Breaking Old Habits and Building New Ones 30:09 Why God’s Boundaries Lead to Freedom 33:14 The Danger of Letting Your Job Define You 36:12 The Only Identity That Actually Holds 39:16 My Imposter Syndrome While Writing This Book 42:40 How to Pursue Success Without Losing Yourself 46:01 Why Most People Misunderstand Calling 49:02 The Problem With Hustle Culture 52:18 What I Wish I Knew at 16 55:47 Advice for Kids Growing Up Without a Dad 59:01 Why God’s Ways Aren’t “Restrictions” 1:02:22 How to Build an Identity That Lasts 1:04:14 The Power of Community When You’re Lost 1:07:54 The Simple Advice That Saved My Life Guest Info: IG: @‌ruslankd YouTube: @‌RuslanKD

What happens when the man you love becomes the one you fear? This is Jennifer DeTracy’s powerful story of surviving abuse, reclaiming her identity, and finding peace through forgiveness. In this raw and emotional interview, Jennifer shares how her “Cinderella” love story turned into years of manipulation, control, and violence. From bruises she tried to hide to the night she finally escaped, she opens up about the pain, confusion, and courage it took to leave. But her story doesn’t end there. Jennifer reveals how faith, forgiveness, and personal growth helped her rebuild her life and become a voice for women finding strength after abuse. Today, she’s living proof that even after the darkest chapters, redemption is possible. Watch this episode to hear Jennifer’s powerful message of healing, courage, and second chances and be reminded that it’s never too late to start again. Key Moments: 0:00 The Signs I Missed Before the Abuse Began 2:34 How a “Perfect” Man Slowly Became My Abuser 5:12 The Subtle Red Flags No One Talks About 7:46 The Moment I Realised I Wasn’t Safe Anymore 13:45 How Manipulation Made Me Doubt Reality 17:19 The Night I Finally Fought Back 21:47 Why I Chose to Forgive the Man Who Hurt Me 25:32 How I Reclaimed My Mind and My Power 29:10 The Call That Changed Everything 33:45 How to Recognise an Abuser Early 36:25 Forgiveness Doesn’t Mean Forgetting 40:30 The Secret to Long-Term Success 44:00 Building a Life of Freedom, Not Fear 48:58 The Product That Changed Everything 52:10 The Truth About Starting Over 56:08 The Power of Sharing Your Story Guest Info: IG: @jenniferdetracy

What do you do when your whole world disappears overnight? When a single phone call changes everything you thought you knew about life, faith, and purpose? In this powerful episode, I sit down with Nathan DeTracy, a former IFBB Pro bodybuilder whose life was forever altered when he lost both parents in a tragic car accident at just 23 years old, only days before 9/11. What followed was a decade-long battle with grief, addiction, and identity, hidden behind a flawless exterior of success and discipline. Nathan shares how he went from broken and lost, drowning in pain and denial, to rebuilding his life through faith, purpose, and service. He opens up about how bodybuilding became both his escape and his armor, and how hitting rock bottom forced him to finally face the truth beneath the muscle. Together, we explore the power of surrender, redemption, and finding meaning in unimaginable loss. Today, Nathan channels that journey into helping others transform their health and mindset through Make Wellness, a company redefining how we approach fitness, peptides, and true well-being. If you’ve ever faced grief, addiction, or identity loss and wondered if healing is even possible, watch this episode. It might just change how you see pain, purpose, and the fight to rise again. Key Moments: 0:00 The Phone Call That Shattered My Life 5:40 When Reality Finally Hit 8:37 Escaping the Pain Through Addiction 13:04 Losing Everything and Finding God 15:20 How Bodybuilding Became My Survival 20:32 The Miracles That Changed My Atheist Heart 23:10 The Woman Who Saved Me 27:18 Rock Bottom & Bankruptcy 32:15 Losing $100K a Month Overnight 35:05 The 5 Pillars of Real Health 39:04 Why Supplements Don’t Work 44:02 The Truth About Ozempic & GLP-1s 49:20 Nature’s Alternative to Injectables 54:50 How to Join the Movement Guest Info: IG: @‌nathandetracy LinkedIn: Nate DeTracy

What if your best friend pulled the trigger right in front of you and you couldn’t stop it? This isn’t a movie scene. It’s the moment that changed everything for Carlos Vasquez. In this raw and unforgettable episode, I sit down with Peter Meyerhoff and Carlos Vasquez, two men who once ran California’s most dangerous prison yards as shot callers. What begins as a story of broken homes and lost fathers spirals into gang life, violence, and survival inside maximum-security prisons. Carlos recounts the moment his best friend played Russian roulette and died before his eyes, a trauma that sent him down a path of armed robberies, betrayal, and decades behind bars. Inside, Carlos became a leader in a world ruled by fear and strategy, not strength. Peter opens up about his own time in the system, where loyalty was an illusion and every friendship could turn deadly. Together, they reveal what prison life really demands and how both men found redemption through truth, forgiveness, and faith after years of darkness. Watch this episode to witness one of the most gripping redemption stories ever told and to see how even in the darkest places, purpose can be reborn. Key Moments: 0:00 The Russian Roulette That Changed Everything 1:25 Entering Maximum Security Prison at 19 5:16 Running Away at 13 and Finding the Streets 8:15 The Deadly Game That Ended Everything 13:31 The Lie of Loyalty in the Streets 17:23 The Setup That Sent Me to Prison 20:35 Realising Loyalty Doesn’t Exist Here 23:27 How Violence Became My Identity 27:45 Why I Was Scared to Become a Father 31:22 Ten Years of Violence to Earn Respect 34:13 Becoming a Monster to Live 39:48 I Stopped Thinking About Freedom 43:47 Trust No One Behind Bars 46:54 Inside the Prison Drug Trade 50:21 When Guards Become Gangsters 53:00 The System That Fuels Violence 56:02 Prison Hustle vs Corporate Life 1:01:09 When Ego Finally Breaks 1:05:50 Rebuilding Purpose From the Ashes 1:10:20 How Pain Turned Into My Mission 1:15:25 Why Forgiveness Sets You Free 1:18:09 The Prison Lessons That Apply to Life 1:21:03 When Power Becomes Poison 1:24:14 The Turning Point That Saved Me 1:27:00 Relearning What Loyalty Really Means 1:33:45 How to Rebuild a Life After Prison 1:36:27 Peter’s First Days of Freedom 1:39:05 The Shock of Returning to the Real World 1:44:28 What Prison Taught About Humanity 1:47:11 Why Most Men Never Truly Heal 1:52:27 From Violence to Vulnerability Guests Info: IG: @peter_meyerhoff Website: https://petermeyerhoff.com/ IG: @‌carlosvasquezofficial Website: https://carlosvasquezofficial.com/

What do you do when the person you love most takes their own life, and your child’s world collapses with them? This episode is a raw and emotional journey through grief, survival, and the unrelenting strength of a mother who refused to give up. In this powerful conversation, I sit down with Tiffany Sumner, whose life changed forever on May 25th, 2020. That day, her former husband, battling depression, addiction, and undiagnosed bipolar disorder, ended his life, leaving behind two children, one of whom was later diagnosed with profound, non-verbal autism. Tiffany opens up about navigating the unimaginable: her son’s violent regressions, the pain of separation when he had to move into a group home, and the deep loneliness of motherhood in crisis. Yet through the heartbreak, Tiffany found purpose. She’s now a powerful voice for mental health awareness and autism advocacy, using her story to bring hope, healing, and visibility to families who often suffer in silence. This is not just a story of tragedy. It’s one of faith, resilience, and redemption. Watch this episode to witness how one mother turned unimaginable pain into purpose, and why her message of hope could save lives. Key Moments: 0:00 The Day That Changed Tiffany’s Life Forever 2:05 The Moment She Learned Her Former Husband Was Gone 6:00 The Hidden Pain Behind Male Suicide 8:22 Why So Many Signs Go Unnoticed 12:06 When Faith Becomes the Only Thing Left 14:37 Raising a Child With Profound, Non-Verbal Autism 18:04 Living Between Love, Fear & Survival 21:15 The Pain Siblings of Autistic Children Carry 23:05 Inside the Reality of Level-Three Autism Care 26:08 “I’ve Never Heard My Son Say I Love You” 28:42 The Truth About Living With Profound Autism 32:06 Why Tiffany Refuses to Stay Silent 34:45 The Viral Moment That Changed Everything 37:16 A Message for Every Mother Who’s Struggling Guest Info: IG: @tiffanysumner Website: https://hausofmedia.com/

In this episode of The Roller Coaster Podcast, I sit down with Peter Meyerhoff, a former high-ranking prison shot caller who once held power within one of the most feared groups behind bars, the Aryan Brotherhood. Peter gives a raw, unfiltered account of life inside the system, revealing the inner workings of prison hierarchy, the brutal politics of control, and how violence was used to maintain order. He recounts in detail the day he helped facilitate a murder inside the prison walls, describing the planning, the execution, and the psychological cost of being part of such extreme acts. As someone who lived and enforced the code of the yard, Peter offers rare insight into how loyalty, fear, and survival shaped every decision he made. This conversation exposes the dark reality of prison life most people never see, where every move is strategic, and every alliance can mean life or death. Watch this episode to hear a chilling inside look at the power, structure, and mindset of prison leadership from someone who lived it at the highest level. Key moments: 0:00 The Day Everything Went Too Far 2:00 Inside the Mind of a Prison Shot Caller 4:45 The Most Brutal Thing I Ever Witnessed 7:12 Why I Helped Plan a Prison Murder 9:40 Realising I’d Just Thrown My Life Away 12:55 Eleven Months in the Hole Changed Everything 15:30 How a Single Decision Destroyed My Future 18:45 The Moment My Childhood Ended 21:30 The Accusation That Ruined My Life 24:10 How Addiction Turned Me Into Someone I Hated 26:45 The Things I Did Just to Get One More Fix 29:40 Why I Got 12 Years for a Crime Others Got Probation 32:15 Facing God After Years of Hate 34:22 Overdosing on Fentanyl and Coming Back to Life 37:10 The Conversation That Made Me Believe in God 39:40 From Aryan Brotherhood to a Biracial Family 42:00 What I Want My Kids to Know About Their Dad 44:30 Learning to Forgive My Family and Myself 46:10 The Message Every Broken Person Needs to Hear Guest Info: IG: @peter_meyerhoff (https://www.instagram.com/peter_meyerhoff/?hl=en) Website: https://petermeyerhoff.com/