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Hey Listeners, This episode marks the beginning of a very different season. In Season 1, you heard me, raw and unraveling, in the thick of it. But Season 2? We're zooming out. Years have passed for Ashley—and what you're about to hear isn’t someone cracking wide open in real-time... it’s someone flipping back through the chapters, trying to make sense of a story she was too busy surviving to process. You’ll literally hear us flipping pages—yes, actual pages—as Ashley tries to recall the timeline of how it all went down. It’s a little chaotic, sometimes blurry, but that’s the point. Trauma doesn’t always leave behind a neat trail. And when your life becomes a series of pivots you never planned for? Sometimes you need a notebook just to remember how you got here. Ashley opens up about the shame she felt in her first major relationship—the kind of shame no one prepares you for. The kind that makes you doubt yourself. That makes you feel like something’s off, but you stay anyway. Because life is happening fast. And motherhood doesn’t come with a pause button for healing. This is the start of Ashley’s story. And while she might not fully realize how much pain still lingers... you will. We’re not rushing through it. We’re honoring it. One page at a time. Thanks for being here. —Amanda Arnier, Your Host The Dichotomy Diaries    💉Season 2 is proudly sponsored by Vita Bella💚 On The Dichotomy Diaries, we talk a lot about surviving—and how true healing doesn’t just happen in your heart... it happens on a cellular level. That’s where Vita Bella comes in. NAD+ alone can improve cognitive function, energy, metabolism, and even emotional regulation. If you’ve been running on fumes emotionally or physically, this might be your body’s way of saying: it's time. Use code DD50 for $50 off your Performance Membership every month, for life. Explore NAD+ Therapy Your next chapter starts with your cells. 🧬 Follow Vita Bella: Instagram | TikTok | Facebook | YouTube   📸Give Ashley a Follow💋 Ashley Klemm doesn’t just take photos—she helps women reclaim their confidence, their sensuality, and their stories. Through boudoir photography, she creates a safe, empowering space for survivors, mothers, and everyday women to feel beautiful in their own skin—sometimes for the first time. Ready to see what healing looks like through her lens? Follow Ashley Klemm Boudoirs: Website | Instagram | Facebook | TikTok   💻Connect with The Dichotomy Diaries🎙️ Music by Ashley England Sound Production: Amanda L. Arnier Support & Stream More: Patreon – Ad-Free + Full Episodes Merch Storefront YouTube | Website Support the Show via PayPal Follow us on: Instagram | TikTok | Facebook

Dear Diary & Listeners, There’s something unsettling about the way stories are told. Victims speak about their experiences. Predators speak about their victims. When someone endures pain, betrayal, and manipulation, they share their story in an effort to heal, to be understood, to reclaim their truth. But the ones who inflicted that pain? They spend their time making sure you only hear their version of events. They rewrite history. They call their victims crazy, difficult, unstable—anything to discredit the person who knows exactly what they’ve done. That’s why this episode is so important. Before you hear what happened to Ashley, you need to know who she is. The woman behind the story. Her background, her voice, her perspective—because understanding her as a human being is everything. Once the truth unfolds, you’ll see why the people who try the hardest to silence victims are the ones with the most to hide. Welcome to The Eye of the Storm... Forever Speaking the Truth, Amanda Arnier, MLS   Connect with Ashley below: Boudoir Photography Website Send Nudes Podcast Boudoir Photography Facebook Boudoir Photography Instagram Boudoir Photography TikTok   WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR STORYS TO SHARE!  If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is ready to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me.  Pitch Your Story Here Email: [email protected] Music: Ashley England Guest: Ashley Klemm Sound Production: Amanda L. Arnier Patreon: Exclusive Video Episodes & More! Merch: The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Storefront YouTube: The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com Insta: @TheDichotomyDiariesPodcast TikTok: @TheDichotomyDiaries Facebook: The Dichotomy Diaries   UluNjX82dPeNdTc9TEP5

Y'all.... Sometimes podcasting—especially when you're unpacking the darkest chapters of people’s lives—can really take a toll on you. Season 2 of The Dichotomy Diaries is locked and loaded, but let me be honest… prerecording everything, batching edits, and stepping away from the mic weekly? It messed me up more than I expected. I thought I was being efficient. But in reality? It made it easier to disconnect. To avoid. To put it off. So here’s my reset: Okay Hear Me Out is my way back to weekly mic time. Unfiltered, unscheduled, and a little unhinged. Think Joe Rogan meets Theo Von—but with Midwest Feminine Energy and a lot more unpopular opinions (and maybe a little more sass). Let’s talk. Weekly. Again. ----more---- Ashley Klemm is a boudoir photographer, mother, and survivor who empowers women to feel their best in their own skin—both through her lens and her story. She’s known for capturing raw confidence and speaking her truth without a filter. Ashley joins Amanda Arnier for the debut of Okay, Hear Me Out—talking toxic thought patterns, not-so-hot takes, and a whole lot of opposing viewpoints on modern dating, relationships, and everything in between. ----more---- Give Ashley a Follow Ashley Klemm Boudoirs Website Ashley Klemm Boudoirs Instagram Ashley Klemm Boudoirs Facebook Ashley Klemm Boudoirs TikTok

Dear Diary & Listeners,    There are a few moments that leave me truly speechless. There are fewer moments that leave me in an aftermath of tears.    Tonight, you get to experience one of those with me.    Welcome back to The Amanda Show I guess...   ...but like   Be f*****g nice to each other. For real.    xoxo, Amanda

Dear Diary & Listeners, In this riveting Premiere Trailer for Season 2 of The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast, I will introduce you to Ashley Klemm—a woman whose story of love and betrayal is as intense as the storm rollin' in this season. Ashley bares it all as she guides us through the highs of romance, the heartbreak of loss, and the devastation of manipulation, culminating in the harsh realities of a lengthy family court battle. Brace yourselves for a raw and eye-opening journey that sets the tone for a season marked by turbulent truths and fierce resilience. Forever Sharing Our Truths, Amanda & Ashley   Connect with Ashley below: Boudoir Photography Website Send Nudes Podcast Boudoir Photography Facebook Boudoir Photography Instagram Boudoir Photography TikTok   WANT TO SHARE YOUR STORY ON THE DICHOTOMY DIARIES? If you have experienced anything similar and are willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me.  Submit Your Story   Email: [email protected] Music & Sound Production: Amanda Arnier Graphic Design: Ashley Klemm & Amanda Arnier Patreon: The Dichotomy Diaries Merch: The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Storefront YouTube: Video Recordings of Episodes! Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com Insta: @TheDichotomyDiariesPodcast TikTok: @TheDichotomyDiaries Facebook: The Dichotomy Diaries

Dear Diary & Listeners, There is nothing more difficult than losing a loved one.  The pain one experiences when they can no longer hug, kiss, smell, confide in, and share life with a loved one is unlike any other.  Imagine experiencing this pain abruptly. There's just one difference, your loved one isn't dead. They ran away, entirely aware of the pain they knew this would cause you.  How does one manage the stages of grief and the confusion intertwined in such a malicious act- at the hands of someone they trusted?  It's fucking hard, but it is possible. I am proof.  This inaugural episode of The Dichotomy Diaries is called The Sin City Serpent. You will relive with me; meeting the Mormon/Latter Day Saint (LDS) man I married. We will dive into the spiraling, dark world where his career choice lived. You will experience the love-bombing, narcissistic tendencies, and financial abuse and manipulation first hand. Together we will dissect how deep trauma bonds are formed. And how trauma responses can look different for everyone.  You may find yourself, like me- asking these questions... Why does she offer love to those who treat her so poorly? Why does she exhaust herself for the sake of others' comfort? Why does she anchor her "home" in another person rather than within herself? These questions and more will be answered throughout Season One.  If you're looking for "The Tea", you have come to the right place. Every episode released will get you closer and closer to the center of what just might be, the cruelest love scam of all time. Stay tuned for surprise BONUS episodes featuring special guests and the highly anticipated upcoming episodes featuring the NINE WOMEN who DICK got to first; and how all of this was unknown, until now. If you're looking for an amazing story on True Crime, Narcissistic Abuse, Emotional Abuse, Financial Abuse, Manipulation, Sex Work, and Spiritual Abuse. You're in the right place. Brace yourself, this is just beginning.   With Truth, Courage, and Pain, Amanda Arnier, MLS   WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY!  If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me.  Season Two Story Pitch Call Email: [email protected] Music & Sound Production: Ashley England Patreon: The Dichotomy Diaries Merch: The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Storefront YouTube: Video Recordings of Episodes! Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com Insta: @TheDichotomyDiariesPodcast TikTok: @TheDichotomyDiaries Facebook: The Dichotomy Diaries

Dear Diary & Listeners, I had a profound realization this week.  It's easy to view all that has happened as a loss. A devastating, painful loss.  Recounting my relentless effort and hope left me with this overwhelming feeling of emptiness.  How could I have given and given with absolutely nothing in return? Why did he never feel or notice how hard I was trying to love him? Was I actually loving him? And then it clicked. Sometimes, the way we learn the true meaning of Unconditional Love- is by experiencing the pain of its absence. This wasn't one big L. My Try, My Consistency, My Persistence...it was all unconditional, always.  This week you will start to see Dick's true colors start to emerge. Lies wrapped in manipulation presenting themself as love are sprinkled all over this episode. You'll meet a few Sugar Daddies, Our Bishop, and find yourself front row to the epic way Dick proposed...   Forever Speaking My Truth, Amanda Arnier, MLS   WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY!  If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me.  Season Two Story Pitch Call Email: [email protected] Music & Sound Production: Ashley England Patreon: The Dichotomy Diaries Merch: The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Storefront YouTube: Video Recordings of Episodes! Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com Insta: @TheDichotomyDiariesPodcast TikTok: @TheDichotomyDiaries Facebook: The Dichotomy Diaries

Dear Diary & Listeners, Today's solar eclipse reminds us of the beauty that can be found in life's uncertainties, prompting a brief ONE WEEK hiatus for The Dichotomy Diaries. (I KNOWWWWWWW) I'm grappling with personal challenges, including family matters and financial stress to the MAX. I feel guilty for deviating from our schedule, trust me. However, quality remains paramount as we anticipate new global listeners via a very exciting opportunity. During this brief break, I'll address these challenges and return with content that exceeds expectations. On a brighter note, our first interviewee, Joanna, will be introduced via social media before her episode goes live with Part One on April 16th and Part Two on April 23rd. Your patience and support are appreciated as we navigate life's curveballs. Thank you for understanding. Forever Speaking My Truth, Amanda Arnier, MLS VIDEO RECORDINGS OF EPISODES ARE HERE! WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY!  If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me.  Season Two Story Pitch Call Email: [email protected] Music: Ashley England Guest: SOLO Sound Production: Amanda L. Arnier Patreon: The Dichotomy Diaries Merch: The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Storefront YouTube: Video Recordings of Episodes! Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com Insta: @TheDichotomyDiariesPodcast TikTok: @TheDichotomyDiaries Facebook: The Dichotomy Diaries

Dear Diary & Listeners, You know how some people say, "God will never give you more than you can handle"? After recording this episode, I found myself thinking about that phrase a lot. The process of outlining my relationship with Dick for this podcast has been filled with sorrow, but it has also brought understanding. There were so many painful moments I experienced during this time that had been subconsciously tucked away in a file cabinet in my mind. Unpacking those file cabinets feels like I am experiencing them again, for the first time, right along with you. I probably have some of the same questions you all are having: Why didn't I just let him leave for good? How many times does Dick have to tell me he doesn't want to be with me before I actually believe him? But the biggest question of them all is... Why didn't leaving him ever cross my mind? So, I did a little soul searching, and what I realized was heart-wrenching. I subliminally laid everything I had at his feet: my money, my family, my love, my support, and my future. I continued to trust him even when he gave me every reason not to. I was scared not to trust. I was scared to lose the ONE thing I had left... Him. God would never give me more than I can handle, right? This week, you'll learn more about my proposal, wedding planning, and events leading up to the big day. We will uncover yet another Sugar Daddy, dissect the gambling more, and experience the worst abandonment up until this point in the story. You'll also begin to understand his explanation behind leaving, followed by our plan to fix the core problem. Forever Speaking My Truth, Amanda Arnier, MLS   WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY!  If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me.  Season Two Story Pitch Call Email: [email protected] Music & Sound Production: Ashley England Patreon: The Dichotomy Diaries YouTube: Video Recordings of Episodes! Merch: The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Storefront Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com Insta: @TheDichotomyDiariesPodcast TikTok: @TheDichotomyDiaries Facebook: The Dichotomy Diaries

Dear Diary & Listeners, In this exciting Bonus Episode of The Dichotomy Diaries, I interview the beautiful, bad ass, Vanessa Reiser, a Licensed Clinical Social Worker from The Big Apple who's got a BOOK coming out soon! (Pre-Order Link Below!) We talk about SO many juicy topics including the connection between narcissistic abuse and cults, the behavior and mindset of narcissists and psychopaths, and dissect the experience of victims down piece by piece. We touch on the confusing role most family members take in (not) warning others about the narcissist in their life. Join us as we break down the challenges of conveying the complexity of narcissistic abuse in a concise manner others. A topic that I've really struggled with lately... This episode also explores trauma bonding and addiction in narcissistic relationships. Vanessa and I talk about the repetitive cycle of love bombing, devaluing, and discarding, which creates a trauma bond and intense addiction to the makeup session. Vanessa emphasizes the need for support and understanding for those trying to extricate themselves from these relationships, comparing it to drug addiction. Not to mention the post-separation abuse that can occur, which more often than not, includes attempts to destroy the victim's life. I had SO MUCH FUN chatting in up with Vanessa and learning all the things from her not only about my relationship with Dick, but about important topics and congruencies I wasn't even aware of. Forever Speaking My Truth, Amanda Be sure to check below for Vanessa's website, how to find her on Social Media, and Pre-Order her new book: Narcissistic Abuse: A Therapist's Guide to Identifying, Escaping, and Healing from Toxic and Manipulative People.    @vanessareiserlcsw-narcissi5380  Website: https://www.tellatherapist.net Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/vanessareiserlcsw TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@vanessareiser BOOK PRE ORDER: https://www.amazon.com/dp/0306833174   WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY!  If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me.  Season Two Story Pitch Call Email: [email protected] Music: Ashley England Guest: Vanessa Reiser, LCSW Sound Production: Amanda L. Arnier Patreon: The Dichotomy Diaries Merch: The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Storefront YouTube: Video Recordings of Episodes! Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com Insta: @TheDichotomyDiariesPodcast TikTok: @TheDichotomyDiaries Facebook: The Dichotomy Diaries

Dear Diary & Listeners, I cried recording part of this episode.  And it got me thinking... Why did THIS episode make me cry? What is it about my wedding that sparks the tears?   You’d think that reliving the abandonments, the emotional abuse, and all the other subpar efforts confused as love would make me sad...   I know the answer.   This episode didn’t make me cry because I was reflecting on that moment of my wedding ceremony. Tears started flowing in the studio because right then; I felt as if I may never get to experience such a meaningful moment again. I felt hijacked. Such important meaningful moments, all hijacked by a human incapable of love and compassion.   The thing is...it’s all bullshit. We don’t just get ONE shot at happiness. We get as many as we give ourself. So this is me publicly throwing away the self-limiting doubts. I finally feel happy again. I know who Amanda Lynette Arnier is.  I love that bad ass, resilient bitch.  Someone will love me.  Far better than I could ever imagine before.   In this episode you will join me for my beautiful wedding in Sedona, AZ. You will also spend an evening in the emergency room. Followed by a road trip to Colorado, Dick’s self-proclaimed LEAST FAVORITE state. Be sure to share, like, and review. Your feedback and support mean everything.   Forever Speaking My Truth, Amanda Arnier, MLS   WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY!  If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me.  Season Two Story Pitch Call Email: [email protected] Music: Ashley England Sound Production: Amanda L. Arnier & Ashley England Patreon: The Dichotomy Diaries YouTube: Video Recordings of Episodes! Merch: The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Storefront Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com Insta: @TheDichotomyDiariesPodcast TikTok: @TheDichotomyDiaries Facebook: The Dichotomy Diaries

Dear Diary & Listener's, I cannot tell you how excited I was to book this interview, with Dr. Nadine Macaluso. While most of you may not know her immediately by just mentioning her name- most of you probably know her story. Dr. Nadine Macaluso was married to Jordan Belfort, The Wolf of Wall Street. Her character, name changed, was played by the beautiful Margo Robbie in the Scorsese director box office hit! Join Dr. Nae and I as we discuss so many topics dear to both of our hearts. In this episode Dr. Nadine Macaluso, a licensed marriage and family therapist, shares her story of being married to Jordan Belfort, the Wolf of Wall Street, and how it led her to write a book and become an advocate for trauma bonding and pathological lovers. She discusses the challenges of having her life portrayed in a movie and the lack of control she had over the narrative. Dr. Macaluso emphasizes the importance of self-reflection and understanding one's own vulnerabilities in order to break free from toxic relationships. She also explores the concept of cognitive dissonance and the difficulty of leaving an abusive partner. The conversation explores the themes of healing from trauma bonds, finding one's voice, and navigating new relationships after abuse. Dr. Nae and I emphasize the importance of self-compassion and grace in the healing process. The conversation also touches on the challenges of co-parenting and the impact of trauma bonds on children. We both share their personal experiences and offer hope for post-traumatic growth and reinvention. Forever Speaking My Truth, Amanda   Be sure to check below for Dr. Nadine's website where you can order her book Run Like Hell and explore many of her free tools, like the Self Compassion Assessment we discussed in this episode. Give Dr. Nae a follow on her social media, all linked below as well! ‪@TheRealDrNadine‬ Website: https://drnae.com/about-dr-nadine-mac... Free Assessments by Dr. Nae: https://drnae.com/assessments/ Order Run Like Hell Book Here: https://drnae.com/run-like-hell-book/ Instagram:   / therealdrnadine   TikTok:   / drnaelmft   Twitter:   / therealdrnadine   Facebook:   / drnaelmft     WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY!  If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me.  Season Two Story Pitch Call Email: [email protected] Music & Sound Production: Ashley England Patreon: The Dichotomy Diaries Merch: The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Storefront YouTube: Video Recordings of Episodes! Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com Insta: @TheDichotomyDiariesPodcast TikTok: @TheDichotomyDiaries Facebook: The Dichotomy Diaries

NOTE: This episode's audio is less than desirable, but if you can make it through- I PROMISE Episode's 7 on are INCREDIBLE. I really taught myself all of the things. Please do not judge The Dichotomy Diaries based on this Episode's audio quality. Dear Diary & Listeners, When I tell you I have had the busiest three weeks of my life. I am nowhere close to joking.  You know, sitting back right now with my feet up on my desk and my hair up in a bun- I feel pretty damn accomplished.  I did some shit I didn't even think I was capable of... I just recorded, edited, and fully produced an entire podcast episode BY MY SELF! I put myself out there to create new relationships with actual human people. I gritted my teeth through the discomfort of social anxiety and what I uncovered on the other side is so fucking special.  (Not me basking in the new incredible friendships I have created) Now you're probably like "Wait, Amanda...You're so extroverted. How could you possibly have social anxiety...?" Let me let you in on a little secret.  When you are alienated from everyone you love and continue to self isolate through healing- you straight up lose those skills.  I'm also just going to be blatantly honest... The trauma I endured while with Dick, made me develop an anxious speech pattern where I LONG PAUSE almost every time I speak, when asked a question. I also swear to (Non-Mormon) God, that I developed a stutter.  This is what happens when you are so afraid of constantly saying the wrong thing. Walking on eggshells virtually every second of your life, does crazy shit to your brain. And when you have an immensely unique and complex brain, you need to socialize. Otherwise, you end up in a prison of your own thoughts. It wasn't very fun, but thankfully as you can hear- no more stutter and shorter pauses. WIN. During this episode we dive DEEP into the World of Financial Domination. You will meet Jamie, a client of 9 years and begin to understand the "why" behind this secret fetish lifestyle that so many live behind closed doors. Join me as my two oldest friends and I explore all things FinDom in Episode 5, Sergeant Steroids.   Forever Speaking My Truth, Amanda Arnier, MLS   WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY!  If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me.  Season Two Story Pitch Call Email: [email protected] Music: Ashley England Sound Production: Amanda L. Arnier Guests: Brittany Ryan & Jenny Jeske Patreon: The Dichotomy Diaries YouTube: Video Recordings of Episodes! Merch: The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Storefront Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com Insta: @TheDichotomyDiariesPodcast TikTok: @TheDichotomyDiaries Facebook: The Dichotomy Diaries

Dear Diary & Listeners,  I did an interview a while back with two LOVELY ladies by the name of Behk & LAH. If you haven't heard it yet, you're about to.  Enjoy! Amanda --------------------------------------------------- In this special collaboration episode, Behk & LAH of "Narcissists, Gaslighters, and Cheaters, Oh My!" sit down with Amanda Arnier, the insightful host of "The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast." Together, they explore emotional intricacies in relationships, focusing on the challenges of dealing with narcissists and toxic people.  Topics Discussed: Meet Amanda Arnier of the podcast, The Dichotomy Diaries Trust – is it earned or a gift? Why Amanda started “The Dichotomy Diaries” podcast The importance of sharing our stories The case of Dick The dual mothership theory by Dr. Vaknin  We’re Carl Jungians Attachments Amanda’s healing journey What's next for “The Dichotomy Diaries?” Amanda brings her unique perspective from "The Dichotomy Diaries," where she recounts her relationship with Dick and shares the experiences of other women who were also involved with him. This episode discusses the complexities of narcissists, strategies for navigating toxic dynamics, and the importance of sharing these stories for healing. Please tune in for an intimate and revealing dialogue that offers a deeper understanding of Amanda’s mission and the powerful stories she shares with her audience. Subscribe and listen to "Narcissists, Gaslighters, and Cheaters, Oh My!" and "The Dichotomy Diaries" on your favorite podcast platforms. Don't forget to rate, review, and share!    Book mentioned in this episode: The Road Less Traveled: A New Psychology of Love, Values, and Spiritual Growth by M. Scott Peck M.D.   Content Warning: This episode discusses various forms of toxic abuse, narcissistic abuse, and any topics that may disturb some listeners. Listener discretion is advised.  We are not doctors or therapists; you should not take our opinions as medical advice.   Hosts: Behk & LAH Follow us on Instagram + Facebook @ngcompod Production & Design: LAHarden Music: No Reason Why by Anchor Help us keep the show going on Patreon Narcissists, Gaslighters, Cheaters, Oh My! Podcast's Patreon The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast's Patreon   WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY!  If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me.  Season Two Story Pitch Call Email: [email protected] Music & Sound Production: Ashley England Patreon: The Dichotomy Diaries Merch: The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Storefront YouTube: Video Recordings of Episodes! Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com Insta: @TheDichotomyDiariesPodcast TikTok: @TheDichotomyDiaries Facebook: The Dichotomy Diaries

NOTE: This episode's audio is less than desirable, but if you can make it through- I PROMISE Episode's 7 on are INCREDIBLE. I really taught myself all of the things. Please do not judge The Dichotomy Diaries based on this Episode's audio quality. Dear Diary & Listeners, There's a theme this week.  We Teach People How To Treat Us. And while yes, what I taught Dick our entire relationship was that he could walk all over me... My lesson plan is a little different now.  Boundaries are difficult for so many reasons. The scariest part for me always was that I meant well with them, but they were always perceived as mean, cruel, or selfish.  We tend to fall into habits of letting people cross our boundaries to "keep the peace". But let's be honest, PEACE for who? Episode 6 comes with a TRIGGER WARNING. This episode contains discussions about suicide ideations. Listener discretion is advised. If you or someone you know is struggling with suicidal thoughts, please seek help immediately. National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-TALK (1-800-273-8255) or your local crisis hotline. This week you will sit with me some of the darkest times I've ever experienced. I'm not going to lie to you. This isn't something I share easily. I am embarrassed about it. However, just like everything else I am embarrassed of- I know it is something I have to get out of my soul. You will find that all of my fears and assumptions come true in this episode. My false sense of self-esteem comes shattering down. And just when you think the delulu can't get any worse...I sell all my belongings.    Someone asked me this week if I am open to love again...  I giggled. I am love. I don't know any other way to be.    And that is something I will never change about myself. We teach people how to treat us. So if we lead with love, chances are- we just might just end up finding that needle in the hay stack.    Forever Speaking My Truth, Amanda Arnier, MLS   WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY!  If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me.  Season Two Story Pitch Call Email: [email protected] Music: Ashley England Sound Production: Amanda L. Arnier Guest: Riley Imwie Patreon: The Dichotomy Diaries YouTube: Video Recordings of Episodes! Merch: The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Storefront Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com Insta: @TheDichotomyDiariesPodcast TikTok: @TheDichotomyDiaries Facebook: The Dichotomy Diaries s