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Malka grew up as one of twelve children in a Hasidic family in Borough Park, in a childhood she describes as largely happy and loving. But even as a young girl, she was deeply bothered by the gender roles surrounding her and by teachings that placed Jews at the center of the world while diminishing the lives of outsiders. As she entered her teenage years, those tensions became harder to ignore. At 15, lying in bed and imagining what her life might have looked like in a different family, she had a simple realization: it was her life, and she could leave. From there, she began deliberately pushing boundaries, first by rolling up her sleeves, then through secret books, an illicit library card, internet access, jeans, and increasingly open rebellion. Malka eventually left the Hasidic world before marriage, attended community college, and built a life that took an especially unexpected turn when she joined the U.S. Army Reserve. She now balances military service with civilian work as an EMT, including working back in Borough Park from the perspective of an outsider. She reflects on the remarkable support her family ultimately gave her, the lifelong process of deconstructing Hasidic assumptions, and the importance of finding other people who have left closed religious communities. The conversation also examines darker systemic issues, including mesirah, Beis Din, social coercion, and the ways closed communities can use schools, jobs, housing, and family relationships to enforce conformity. Malka closes by describing her departure not as a tragedy or failure, but as one of the most important decisions she ever made. Timestamps 00:01:50 - Growing up Hasidic in Borough Park00:02:26 - Misogyny, gender roles, and wanting to be a boy00:09:25 - Jewish exceptionalism and the tsunami story00:15:00 - Discovering that the sexism was also in the doctrine00:17:21 - The realization at 15: "It's my life. I can just leave"00:21:05 - Rolling up her sleeves and beginning to rebel00:22:32 - Secret books, the library, the internet, and finding ex-Hasidic stories00:35:00 - Trying to join the military and her family's unexpected turnaround00:45:44 - Building an adult life outside Hasidism and ongoing deconstruction00:54:47 - Mesirah, Beis Din, and coercion inside closed communities

Yoily is still visibly and socially embedded in the Hasidic community - but internally, he no longer believes. In this episode, he describes what it means to live between those two realities: raising children in a world he increasingly questions, concealing his beliefs from almost everyone around him, and weighing the enormous personal and family consequences of ever leaving. He traces his doubts from childhood questions and communal conflict to discovering the internet, other former believers, and the possibility that there were people like him who were neither broken nor alone. The conversation explores the educational and financial pressures Yoily says shaped his life, his determination to pursue higher education despite resistance from family and community figures, and the strain of trying to build a different future while remaining present for his children. He and Shalom discuss conformity, public image, the difficulty of questioning authority, and why leaving can become dramatically more complicated after marriage and children. Yoily ultimately speaks directly to people inside the community who may already be questioning, sharing the warning he wishes he could have heard earlier. Timestamps 00:00:24 - Living secretly without belief while remaining inside the Hasidic community 00:04:17 - Yoely’s childhood, isolation from secular education, and growing up without basic computer skills 00:10:22 - Marriage, communal conflict, and the doubts that began unraveling his faith 00:16:24 - The internet gathering, discovering outside information, and realizing other people had left 00:20:41 - Finding Footsteps and confronting how difficult either staying or leaving could be 00:25:30 - Telling his wife he had lost his faith and establishing a “don’t ask, don’t tell” arrangement 00:32:55 - Pursuing higher education despite pressure from his father, mentors, and community 00:50:06 - The emotional cost of staying for his children while questioning the rules they are being taught 01:10:01 - Could he ever actually leave? Yoely discusses age, family, grandchildren, and feeling permanently trapped 01:26:05 - Yoely’s final message to people who are questioning before marriage I kept the notes descriptive rather than making claims in Yoely’s voice sound like independently verified facts.

Shayna Sragovicz grew up in a family that became Orthodox when they were seven, moving from a largely secular Jewish childhood into Chabad schooling and eventually Modern Orthodoxy. In this episode, Shayna traces the contradictions they began noticing in seminary and college, how COVID disrupted the religious structures that had sustained their life, and how small acts of questioning eventually became a much broader process of deconstruction. That process expanded beyond religion into gender, sexuality, career, family, spirituality, and community. Now a life coach working with people rebuilding their lives after religion, Shayna discusses self-trust, the difference between deconstruction and reconstruction, therapy versus coaching, and the challenge of figuring out what you actually want once the old rules are gone. Resources Shayna's coaching website: https://kacoachingmethod.com Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/shayna.kacoaching/ Email: [email protected] Books: Childfree by Choice - Dr. Amy Blackstone The Origins of You - Vienna Pharaon, LMFT The Power of Ritual - Casper ter Kuile Timestamps 00:00 — Growing up as the child of baalei teshuva05:40 — Entering public school and experiencing life outside the Orthodox bubble11:18 — Why Shayna calls “Modern Orthodoxy” an oxymoron16:01 — Seminary, women learning Gemara, and the beginnings of doubt21:48 — COVID breaks apart the structures sustaining religious life30:13 — Why leaving religion requires self-forgiveness and patience32:37 — Queerness, gender, and deconstructing expectations beyond religion45:03 — Rethinking career, children, and the life Shayna was “supposed” to build48:56 — Becoming a coach: inner critics, intuition, therapy, and reconstruction1:00:23 — Absolute truths, spirituality, community, belonging, and what comes next

Daniel grew up deeply embedded in the religious Zionist world, raised in Efrat and moving through religious schools, yeshiva, a pre-military academy, and service as a tank commander. Yet from childhood, he remembers noticing cracks in the systems around him - from his early fear of breaking Shabbat to questions about theology, authority, conformity, and the pressure to maintain an acceptable external identity. What followed was not one dramatic break, but a decades-long process of questioning Judaism, Zionism, family expectations, relationships, and ultimately the identity he had constructed to survive within them. In this conversation, Daniel and Shalom explore the psychological and spiritual dimensions of deconstruction: fear and control, violated boundaries, institutional power, military disillusionment, marriage and radical honesty, and Daniel’s unexpected relationship with Christ outside conventional Christianity. Daniel also reflects on Zionism as part of a wider system of separation and conflict, his relationship with his children and family, and the practices that helped him rebuild his life. The episode ultimately circles back to a central theme: moving from externally imposed identity toward an unmediated relationship with truth, spirituality, and the self. Timestamps: 00:00 — Introduction and Daniel’s story01:01 — Growing up in Efrat and religious Zionism07:52 — Breaking Shabbat and the first cracks in belief11:47 — Teenage years, yeshiva, and questioning religious authority18:10 — Sexual abuse, institutional silence, and trauma23:20 — Deconstructing systems of fear and control25:23 — Boundaries and creating “infinite layers of masks”30:13 — Mechinah, family expectations, and checking the boxes39:49 — Military service and walking away from officer training44:50 — Marriage, education, and continuing to live behind a religious identity48:23 — Taking off the masks and beginning to tell the truth50:33 — Leaving religion, Zionism, and confronting the “sacred cows”53:51 — COVID and the internal collapse of Daniel’s Zionism1:10:12 — Christ, dogma, and personal spiritual liberation1:16:32 — Family, his daughters, and “relationship Tai Chi”1:20:26 — Zionism, imperialism, religion, and the larger system1:26:29 — Psychedelics, the Tao, and the Gospel1:27:18 — Radical honesty as a practice1:35:40 — Gatekeepers, sacred texts, and institutional control

What does it mean to build a spiritual life grounded in the body rather than in fear? Sara joins Shalom to explore her journey through an Orthodox upbringing, marriage and divorce, trauma recovery, and an evolving relationship with Jewish practice. Together, they examine how communities shaped by anxiety can disconnect people from their own needs, instincts, and inner knowing. Sara shares how therapy, IFS, movement, art, nature, and emotionally safe relationships helped her reconnect with herself. The conversation explores communal silence around addiction and struggling marriages, the difficulty of being seen outside familiar religious categories, sexuality as life force, and the possibility of creating rituals that make room for movement, connection, honesty, and joy. Rather than exchanging belief for disbelief, Sara describes an ongoing process of listening to her body, trusting her experience, and developing a spirituality capable of holding complexity. About Sara Sara Katzoff is a Somatic IFS and Craniosacral Therapist and Breathwork Facilitator based in Jerusalem. If something from this conversation touched you, she would love to hear from you. Instagram: @simplehealingsWebsite: simple-healings.com Timestamps 00:00 — Embodied spirituality and using the body as a compass06:13 — Distinguishing religious devotion from anxiety and fear16:49 — Seeking guidance during a struggling marriage21:59 — Isolation, addiction, and unmet emotional needs26:39 — The vulnerability of speaking honestly and being misseen32:02 — Releasing rules through small acts of self-trust36:09 — Sexuality, intimacy, and reconnecting with one’s life force40:16 — Reclaiming spiritual teachings from systems shaped by trauma54:14 — Reimagining ritual through nature, movement, fire, and song1:02:18 — Safe witnesses, creativity, and learning to trust yourself

In this bonus episode, Shalom sits down again with his brother Mike for a wide-ranging conversation about Zionism, Hasbara, and the psychological mechanisms that can make political narratives difficult to question. Rather than systematically fact-checking every talking point, they focus on the patterns underneath them: tribal essentialism, denial, exceptionalism, whataboutism, double standards, and the tendency to assume good intentions from one’s own group while interpreting an opposing group very differently. Shalom and Mike explore arguments around antisemitism, Jewish safety, Palestinian identity, expansionism, the idea of “a land without a people,” and the claim that the IDF is “the most moral army in the world.” Drawing on their own experience of having been raised within a strongly Zionist worldview, they examine how ideology can be maintained through motivated reasoning, selective evidence, and assumptions about who is capable of doing harm. Graphics from the show Logical fallacy flowchart: https://freidomfighter.com/wp-content/uploads/2026/08/logic.jpeg Settlers of Canaan board game: https://freidomfighter.com/wp-content/uploads/2026/08/settlers.jpeg Timestamps 00:00 — Why another conversation about Zionism? 07:55 — “Jews need a homeland”: antisemitism and Jewish exceptionalism 11:31 — What happens when ethics make exceptions? 14:47 — “What about the Jews displaced from Arab countries?” 15:19 — “There are 34 Arab countries and only one Jewish state” 17:35 — Could Jewish self-determination have taken a different form? 19:01 — Expansionism, security, and the appeal of the ethnostate 22:02 — If Israel is expansionist, why did it make peace with Egypt and Jordan? 25:23 — Has Israel actually made Jews safer? 32:04 — The antisemitism feedback loop 35:55 — Conflating Israel, Zionism, and Judaism 39:43 — Tribal essentialism: judging “us” and “them” by different standards 43:40 — Denial, bad apples, and protecting the larger narrative 46:19 — “What about Yemen?” Whataboutism and disproportionate attention to Israel 53:51 — “A land without a people” and the erasure of Palestinian identity 1:00:10 — Is the problem Netanyahu, individual bad actors, or something more systemic? 1:05:45 — The relationship between Israeli military leadership and political leadership 1:09:45 — Group identity, collective power, and the psychology of victimhood 1:16:43 — “The most moral army in the world” 1:21:34 — Closing thoughts In this episode

Suri Robinson grew up in an Orthodox Jewish community in Baltimore, where she learned to suppress her needs, protect her family’s image, and strive for religious perfection. After seminary, she married at 20, moved to Lakewood, raised five children, became a therapist, and helped build a Bais Yaakov school focused on children’s emotional wellbeing. From inside the community’s institutions, however, she witnessed rigid expectations, concealed abuse, political pressure, discrimination, and what she describes as “toxic selflessness”—a culture in which saying no was treated as selfish or religiously unacceptable. Following her mother’s death and years of relentless responsibility, Suri experienced severe burnout, depression, complex PTSD, and suicidal despair. Residential treatment gave her the distance to recognize patterns of religious abuse, coercion, shame, and control. She gradually left her marriage, institutional role, and religious observance, while facing claims that she had “snapped” or become mentally unstable. Today, through After the Burn, she speaks about religious trauma, nervous-system healing, mental health stigma, authentic connection, and rebuilding a meaningful life after losing the world she once knew. Follow Suri: https://www.instagram.com/aftertheburnco/ Chapters 00:00 – Meet Suri 00:38 – Growing Up Orthodox in Baltimore 02:42 – The Burden of Being the “Perfect” Child 04:08 – Secret Dreams of a Different Life 05:48 – Fasting, Prayer, and Religious Performance 06:58 – Escaping into Books and Imaginary Worlds 08:38 – The Shame of a Small Rebellion 10:36 – Seminary, Spiritual Certainty, and Body Shame 13:28 – How Seminary Creates Belonging and Commitment 16:56 – Entering the Orthodox Marriage System 19:45 – Marriage, Lakewood, and Patriarchal Expectations 25:28 – Kollel Life, Motherhood, and Relentless Productivity 29:10 – Toxic Selflessness and the Inability to Say No 32:33 – Becoming a Therapist Inside the Religious System 34:59 – Building an Emotionally Supportive Bais Yaakov School 39:27 – Harassment, School Politics, and the Collapse of Boundaries 44:56 – Challenging Stereotypes About People Who Leave 46:39 – Grief, Burnout, and the Beginning of Collapse 48:47 – Depression, Suicidal Dread, and Nervous-System Breakdown 51:24 – Entering Residential Mental Health Treatment 54:20 – What Religious Abuse Looks Like 57:37 – Being Labelled Crazy After Stepping Away 01:04:04 – Rabbinical Bullying, Threats, and Control 01:07:10 – Rebuilding Belief, Identity, and Daily Life 01:13:46 – How Group Therapy Broke the Cycle of Shame 01:18:28 – After the Burn: Suri’s Work and Message 01:23:13 – Systemic Harm, Moral Injury, and Final Reflections

In this episode of Beyond Belief: Tales of Religious Exodus, host Shalom interviews Chantal, an Episcopal priest from North Carolina who grew up with both traditional church life and expansive spirituality, felt a clear call to priesthood, and was ordained at 24. While serving in an affluent parish, she experienced sexual harassment by a senior rector and, after reporting it with email evidence, faced a traumatizing canonical process that shamed her, led to PTSD, and involved repeated psychological evaluations she felt were aimed at institutional self-protection. She later planted a multicultural, bilingual church in a lower-income neighborhood and became a coaching consultant, then publicly shared her story at a women’s clergy conference, prompting many others to disclose harm. Chantal discusses her book, Following Jesus Beyond Church Walls, her expanded spirituality, calls for “future church” without harm or hierarchy, and her Water and Light network supporting healing cohorts and advocacy. Website: https://www.chantalmckinney.com Chapters00:00 Welcome to Beyond Belief01:23 Chantal’s Spiritual Upbringing02:03 Called to the Priesthood03:35 Harassment and Threats05:30 Seeking Justice and Betrayal06:04 Systemic Cover-Up and PTSD10:11 Building a Scrappy Church Plant11:52 Speaking Out and Others Come Forward15:16 What Episcopalians Believe16:52 Faith Beyond the Denomination20:08 Church Leadership Response and Silence24:28 Life After Payroll and New Communities26:47 Patriarchy and Empire29:03 Church Noise and Silence30:41 Women Leaders and Power33:02 Book and Healing Trauma38:04 Divine Feminine and Scripture41:04 God and Suffering42:30 Vision for Future Church45:11 Episcopal Values and Inclusion46:00 Water and Light Network47:05 Closing Thanks and Outro

Gabi shares his experience growing up in New York’s Bukharian Jewish community, becoming deeply committed to Orthodox Judaism, and eventually building a life outside religious observance. He discusses racism within Jewish institutions, the intellectual rewards of yeshiva study, purity culture, the Orthodox dating system, mental health, psychedelics, spirituality, and his evolving relationship with God. Rather than presenting religion as wholly harmful or wholly beneficial, Gabi reflects on the teachers, practices, and communities that gave him purpose while examining the pressures and unmet needs that eventually made religious life unsustainable. Connect with Gabi YouTube - https://youtube.com/@gabikoyenovSpotify - https://open.spotify.com/show/2SoydqNskaV9wOra0Yh6Z3?ssssid1891df9a822414cInstagram - https://www.instagram.com/journey_with_gabi/Therapy Site - https://themenstherapystudio.com/ Chapters 00:00 — Coming Out as Nonreligious 08:14 — Growing Up Bukharian Jewish 17:47 — Racism in the Yeshiva World 25:47 — Rabbis, Meaning, and Purpose 30:11 — Purity Culture and Romantic Obsession 39:10 — Leaving Yeshiva and Losing a Dream 48:00 — Dating and the Beginning of Deconstruction 53:44 — Ayahuasca and a New Spiritual Worldview 01:07:41 — Racism and Rejection in Shidduchim 01:20:07 — Family Conflict, Trauma, and Life Beyond Religion

On Beyond Belief, Ilana describes growing up in a strongly Zionist Jewish environment shaped by her Israeli father, her conservative rabbi stepfather, and Zionist youth programming. She learned to equate Judaism with support for Israel. After her stepfather’s death, college courses presenting “dueling narratives” about Israel and Palestine began shifting her perspective. Israel’s bombardment and blockade of Gaza further challenged her views, eventually leading her to criticize Zionism publicly in 2014 and experience significant social fallout. Ilana stopped attending synagogue, found community among anti-Zionist Jews online, and began working closely with Gaza journalist Wafa Al-Udaineh, editing her English-language reports. This relationship deepened Ilana’s connection to Gaza and Palestinian life. After October 7, Ilana intensified her activism. When Wafa was killed in 2024, Ilana experienced severe grief and sought psychiatric care. She discusses the difficulty of separating Judaism from Zionism, her ongoing deconstruction of religious beliefs and practices, the importance of centering Palestinian voices, and her decision to learn Arabic. She also reflects on religion, ritual, belonging, family, and life after faith. Chapters 00:00 — Meet Ilana and the Premise01:21 — Family Roots and Israel Ties02:42 — Militarism and Early Doubts04:32 — Rabbi Stepfather After 9/1107:10 — Zionist Youth-Group Indoctrination11:22 — First Cracks and Questions12:18 — Loss of Faith After His Death13:25 — College and Dueling Narratives19:44 — Gaza and Moral Awakening20:58 — Kurdish Jewish Heritage and Zionism28:26 — Speaking Out Online in 201431:04 — Leaving Synagogue for Good32:14 — Working With Journalists in Gaza34:33 — October 7 and Direct Action39:04 — Wafa’s Death and a New Purpose40:30 — How She Is Doing Now42:38 — Raising a Child Post-Zionism43:15 — Religion Without Trauma44:11 — Growing Up Zionist45:59 — Belonging Nowhere48:29 — Learning Arabic53:26 — Grassroots Jewish Spaces55:08 — Institutional Power56:36 — The End of Judaism58:51 — Family Supremacism01:03:41 — Stop Debating Zionists01:05:46 — Palestine-Centered Practice01:09:52 — Life After Religion01:15:07 — Closing Thanks

In this episode of Beyond Belief, Shalom interviews Zalman, who was born and raised in Vilnius, Lithuania, where his parents opened a Chabad center and Jewish school as "shluchim" aimed at bringing secular Jews closer to Orthodox practice. Zalman describes growing up as the only Orthodox family, lacking kosher resources, having limited socializing outside the home, and later switching from a local coed school to full-day online Jewish studies; at 13 he was sent abroad to yeshivas and completed studies through 21, including rabbinical ordination. He explains Chabad kiruv as emphasizing warmth and “one more mitzvah,” contrasts it with Aish tactics, and discusses Chabad’s messianic divisions around the Rebbe. After finishing the system, he began dropping rituals due to their inconvenience and perceived pointlessness, stopped tefillin, rapidly abandoned kashrut and Shabbat, deconstructed miracle stories and Torah claims, and became an agnostic atheist. He hid his change for two years while gradually altering his appearance, later told his parents partly to avoid the dating/shlichus track, and reports they remain loving though avoid discussing specifics; he is the only non-religious sibling. Zalman notes ongoing cultural catch-up, shared patterns across ex-religious experiences, and advises leaving slowly, finding community, and not needing exhaustive reasons to exit. Chapters00:00 Series Introduction00:18 Meet Zalman Chabad Shlichus01:39 How Shlichus Assignments Work05:06 Growing Up Orthodox in Lithuania08:56 Schooling and Online Yeshiva12:35 Teen Years Yeshiva Abroad14:13 Languages and Chabad Outreach15:29 Kiruv Tactics and Manipulation20:08 Chabad vs Other Orthodox Sects22:42 Messianism Inside Chabad24:06 Leaving Observance After Semicha32:04 Dropping Rituals and Belief34:38 No Kids Dating Pressure Coming Out37:57 Hiding It and Family Reactions43:42 Leaving Is Similar46:32 Horseshoe Effect Parallels48:24 Guilt And Deconstruction50:52 Catching Up Outside54:13 Chabad Study Schedule56:29 Talmud Logic Breaks58:28 Textual Proof Debates01:00:26 Rebbe Pressure Culture01:04:46 Hardline Texts Exposed01:07:13 Military Metaphors01:09:01 Advice For Leavers01:12:55 Kiruv Regrets And Offset01:16:12 Parody Versus Coercion01:19:31 Healthy Fear Of Influence01:20:43 Closing Thanks

This episode of Beyond Belief introduces Noor, an ex–Shia Muslim from an Iraqi family who grew up mostly in New Jersey. Noor describes performing prayers out of fear of hell, questioning rituals (washing, direction of prayer, nail polish, menstruation restrictions, and catch-up prayers), and quietly disengaging by late middle school/early high school while fearing family repercussions like being sent “back” to Iraq. She notes lingering secrecy around pork, limited mosque exposure due to lack of Shia mosques, and a family dynamic where her mother avoids directly acknowledging her unbelief. Noor discusses marriage and raising children Christian with her Catholic-background husband, arguing Christianity is less destructive and that liberals inconsistently avoid criticizing Islam despite issues like apostasy laws, women’s and LGBTQ rights, child marriage, and arranged marriages, advising ex-Muslims to seek support and financial stability before coming out. Resources https://friendlyexmuslim.com/podcast/ https://exmuslims.org/ Chapters00:20 Meet Noor and Shia Sunni Basics03:12 Hadiths and Aisha Debate04:59 Growing Up in New Jersey06:33 Fear Based Faith and Prayer11:41 Questioning Ritual Rules15:37 Residual Taboos and Secrecy17:17 Family Dynamics and Silence19:26 Marriage and Raising Kids22:56 Liberal Blind Spots on Islam25:40 Rights Issues and Apostasy Laws28:51 Soft Bigotry and Polarization31:19 Ex Muslim Voices Undermined32:10 Fear of Islamophobia32:46 Living Under Blasphemy33:36 Low Expectations Explained35:27 Leaving Safely and Strategically37:29 Americanized Family Tensions38:19 Why Parents Get More Devout40:09 Moderate Islam Misunderstood44:33 Consistency Across Religions46:25 Why Devout People Leave48:30 Unreformable Scripture Critique

In this episode of Beyond Belief, Shalom interviews Mark about leaving fundamentalist religion, focusing on Mark’s cradle-Catholic upbringing and later shift into mental health work. Raised in a deeply involved Roman Catholic family, Mark experienced Vatican II’s transition era and a major culture clash after moving at age seven from Catholic Rhode Island to the Protestant Deep South during early-1970s integration. Introverted and identity-seeking, he dove deeper into Catholicism, became active in church music, and later entered seminary, including time in a Benedictine monastery. Studying church history and encountering discouragement to “learn too much,” plus tensions around authority, obedience, and institutional contradictions (including the Church’s long resistance to heliocentrism), widened “cracks” in belief. He left monastic life when pressured into an academic track, met his future wife, explored other denominations, and ultimately found meaning through psychotherapy and a 35-year career in mental health, emphasizing individual journeys over dogma. Links mentioned Into great Silence Chapters00:46 Cradle Catholic Roots01:44 Vatican II Era Upbringing03:46 Moving South Culture Shock06:39 Persecution Identity Psychology09:33 Deeply Involved Catholic Family11:46 Parents Faith and Priest Path14:54 Seminary and Monastic Deep Dive16:58 Dont Learn Too Much19:58 Authority Questions and Confirmation21:33 Orders History and Cracks25:33 Science Conflict Copernicus27:38 Belonging Uniqueness Fragmentation30:04 Caste Race and New Identity31:25 Human Behavior Beyond Religion33:49 Myths as Control34:28 Normalizing Individual Journeys35:17 Religion and Addiction Curve36:46 New Atheists and Truth Claims38:07 Why Religion Exists39:39 Orthodox Roles and Apologetics40:45 Monastery Vows and Doubts42:15 Carthusians and Community44:23 Celibacy Origins Explained45:57 Buddha and Self Inquiry47:26 Avoiding New Gurus48:07 Leaving the Monastery51:01 From Religion to Therapy53:28 Freedom Versus Certainty54:39 Advice for Leavers58:05 Therapy Reflection Not Conformity01:00:29 Host Meaning and Closure01:03:13 Final Thanks and Wrap

In this episode of Beyond Belief, Shalom speaks with Flatbush Girl, an Orthodox Jewish advocate working for change from inside the community. Rather than telling a story of leaving religion, she describes why she remains connected to Orthodox Judaism while openly criticizing systems she sees as harmful, especially around women’s rights, marriage, divorce, mikvah, niddah, and communal power structures. The conversation explores the tension between allegiance and critique: how someone can love a community, believe in its spiritual framework, and still argue that “the whole thing needs a major app update.” Flatbush Girl reflects on growing up in Flatbush, the role of privilege in making the frum system work for some people, feminist readings of Torah and halakha, the agunah crisis, open relationships, and the deeply personal process of renegotiating one’s relationship with religion. Timestamps 00:32 Episode Setup and Context 02:18 Meet Flatbush Girl 03:41 What Being Frum Means 04:23 Growing Up in Flatbush 06:34 Privilege and Rebellion 09:02 Systems That Need Updating 10:52 Can Jewish Law Change 13:11 Feminist Lens on Torah 17:18 Literal Text Pushback 19:24 What Indoctrination Mean s22:18 Why Stay Orthodox 24:29 How Change Happens 27:07 Open Relationships and Halakha 31:15 Advice on Finding Your Path 33:35 Open Relationships and Religion Glossary Agunah — A “chained woman”; a woman unable to remarry because her husband refuses or is unable to give a Jewish divorce. Bais Yaakov — Orthodox Jewish girls’ school system. Bashert — Destined or meant to be. Beis Hamikdash — The ancient Temple in Jerusalem. Bnei Yisrael — The Children of Israel; the Jewish people. Ezras Nashim — Literally “women’s section”; here, the name of an all-female Orthodox emergency medical service. Flatbush — A Brooklyn neighborhood with a large Orthodox Jewish community. Frum — Religiously observant Orthodox Jewish. Frum Oilem / Olam — The frum world or Orthodox Jewish community. Get / Gett — Jewish divorce document given by the husband to the wife. Gittin — Jewish divorce documents/laws. Halakha — Jewish law. Has v’Shalom — “God forbid”; used to reject or recoil from something considered bad or improper. Hashem — Literally “the Name”; a common Orthodox way to refer to God. Hashgacha Pratis — Divine providence; the idea that events are personally guided by God. Kashrus — Jewish dietary laws; what is kosher. Ketubah / Ksuba — Jewish marriage contract. Kiddushin — Jewish betrothal/marriage laws. Kiruv — Orthodox Jewish outreach aimed at bringing less-observant Jews toward greater observance. Lakewood — A major American Haredi/yeshivish Orthodox community in New Jersey. Mephorshim / Meforshim — Classical Jewish commentators. Mikvah — Ritual bath used for religious purification, including in family purity laws. Minhag — Jewish custom. Mizbeach — Altar, especially the Temple altar. Neder — A vow. Nekuda — A vowel point or small textual mark in Hebrew. Netilat Yadayim — Ritual handwashing. Nida — Jewish laws around menstruation and marital intimacy. Passuk / Pasuk — A biblical verse. Pesach — Passover. Refuah kodem l’makah — “The cure comes before the wound”; the idea that a remedy exists before the problem appears. Seforim — Jewish religious books. Seforim shrank/shrank — Yiddish/English term for a bookcase or cabinet holding Jewish religious books. Shabbos — Sabbath; the Jewish day of rest from Friday evening to Saturday night. Shalom Bayis — Literally “peace in the home”; often means marital harmony. Shiva — Seven-day Jewish mourning period after the death of a close relative. Tehillim — Psalms, often recited as prayer. Torah — The foundational Jewish sacred text, especially the Five Books of Moses. Yeshiva — Orthodox Jewish religious school, often focused on Torah and Talmud study. Yeshivish — A more traditional Orthodox Jewish cultural/religious style, often associated with yeshiva communities. Yiddishkeit — Jewishness; Jewish religious and cultural life.

In this episode of Beyond Belief: Tales of Religious Exodus, Shalom speaks with Kevin Bolling about growing up Catholic, coming out as gay, and gradually leaving organized religion behind. Kevin reflects on the tension between identity and faith, the role of community in both staying and leaving religion, and how his experiences ultimately led him to lead the Secular Student Alliance. The conversation explores secular student communities, religious recruitment tactics on college campuses, the emotional realities of deconstruction, and how young people today are building community and activism outside traditional religious structures. Kevin also shares stories of students navigating family rejection, political activism, and the search for belonging after religion. Resources https://secularstudents.org/ Chapters 00:00 – Introduction & Kevin’s role at the Secular Student Alliance 02:00 – Growing up Catholic and learning to question religion 05:00 – Coming out as gay and leaving the Church 10:00 – Gradually disentangling from religious community 15:00 – What the Secular Student Alliance does for students 19:00 – Activism, church-state separation, and campus organizing 26:00 – Religious recruitment tactics on college campuses 33:00 – Are young people becoming more or less religious? 38:00 – Secular alternatives for community and service 44:00 – How to build community and avoid coercive groups