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Melissa McGovern, The Sober New Yorker, looked fine on the outside. Then her bloodwork came back: liver enzymes in the 200–300s, near-diabetic blood sugar, and a doctor telling her to change or start medication. “I would love to tell him that I’m drinking too much… and I couldn’t even say that to him.” In this episode of The Willpower Podcast, Melissa shares the story she’s never sugarcoated: watching her best friend, T Scott, die from alcohol use disorder while she quietly wondered if she could still drink while caring for him. Then she gave herself 90 days, and her life changed. She’s been alcohol-free since August 2023, and today she coaches women who are quietly negotiating with the bottle every night. IN THIS EPISODE The doctor’s email that changed everything, and what her labs looked like 11 weeks laterGray area drinking: “She’s a party girl. I’d never think she has a problem.”Why she could never keep vodka in the houseLosing T Scott to cirrhosis, and “just don’t give up on me”Why you don’t have to wait for rock bottom (or a transplant) to quitThe fear of change vs. the fear of staying stuckHer first sober retreat, her first online meeting, and finding communityLeading alcohol-free retreats in New York CityFinding purpose at 51: coaching Gen X womenHer rule for early sobriety: treat it like a newborn babyCHAPTERS 00:00 Finding the Strength to Change00:50 Introduction to Melissa's Journey01:48 The Turning Point: A Doctor's Warning06:11 The Struggle with Alcohol and Identity11:02 The Shift to Vodka: A Dangerous Path16:08 The Impact of Loss: T Scott's Story22:37 Finding the Strength to Change25:39 The Fear of Change vs. Staying Stuck26:31 Facing Change and Fear29:23 The Journey to Sobriety32:40 Building Community and Connection34:57 Embracing Recovery and Finding Purpose39:28 Navigating Social Aspects of SobrietyIF YOU’RE STRUGGLING👇 US: SAMHSA National Helpline, 1-800-662-4357 (free, confidential, 24/7) Call or text 988 if you’re in crisis or struggling with your mental health Outside the US: findahelpline.com If you drink heavily every day, please don’t stop suddenly without medical help. Withdrawal can be dangerous. SUPPORT THE SHOW ☕💛 The Willpower Podcast is independent, made with a mic, a lot of heart and a whole lot of gratitude. If an episode ever helped you feel a little less alone, you can buy me a coffee to help keep these conversations going. Every single one means the world to me. https://buymeacoffee.com/thewillpowerpodcast CONNECT Melissa: instagram.com/thesobernewyorker| thesobernewyorker.com The Willpower Podcast: instagram.com/thewillpowerpodcast Subscribe for new episodes every Friday. This podcast shares personal experiences and isn’t medical advice. Please talk to your own doctor about your health. #GrayAreaDrinking #Sobriety #AlcoholFree

Scarlett Larkley’s alcohol-related liver failure led to sepsis, dialysis and a liver transplant in 2025. This is her honest story of recovery, shame and sobriety. “Everyone was kind of like preparing for my death.” In this episode of The Willpower Podcast, I sit down with Scarlett Larkley, a mom of two and liver transplant recipient, to talk about the parts of a transplant story that rarely get told: how daily drinking took over, how fast it fell apart, and what the first year afterward is really like. I’m a liver and kidney transplant recipient myself, so this one hit close to home. IN THIS EPISODE When alcohol stopped being fun and became a daily routineDay drinking during COVID, and what was going on in her life at the timeThe day her eyes turned yellow (May 3, 2025) and her hospital stay (May 22 to July 1, 2025)Kidney failure, dialysis, hepatic encephalopathy, ascites and paracentesisGoing septic, and the moment doctors told her family to preparePEth tests, getting listed, and a transplant in June 2025Waking up after transplant and relearning to walk and talkYear one: a feeding tube, anti-rejection medications and nauseaThe shame, telling friends, and her partner getting soberWhat it’s been like for her kidsDreams about drinking, and “Why do I deserve this?”CHAPTERS 00:00 They Were Preparing for My Death | Meet Scarlett Larkley 05:52 Yellow Eyes, Dialysis & Going Septic 17:11 Waking Up After the Liver Transplant 22:46 When Her Partner Quit Drinking & Learning to Walk Again 28:09 Year One After a Liver Transplant: Feeding Tube & Meds 35:55 Her Kids, Sobriety & the Shame 44:55 “Why Do I Deserve This?” Donor Guilt & Purpose I edit and produce everything myself; so if you found value in this please consider supporting Donate here 👈 🙏 IF YOU’RE STRUGGLING US: SAMHSA National Helpline, 1-800-662-4357 (free, 24/7)Call or text 988 if you’re in crisisOutside the US: findahelpline.comDon’t stop heavy drinking suddenly without medical help. Withdrawal can be dangerous.BECOME AN ORGAN DONOR It takes one checkbox: registerme.org CONNECT Scarlett: instagram.com/scarlettlarkley The Willpower Podcast: instagram.com/thewillpowerpodcast Subscribe for new episodes: [https://youtube.com/@thewillpowerpodcast] This podcast shares personal experiences and isn’t medical advice. Please talk to your own care team about your health. #LiverTransplant #AlcoholRecovery #Sobriety

She drank a liter of vodka a day. Her MELD score hit 40. And she still thought she'd never be able to quit. Welcome to Season 3 🎙️ of The Willpower Podcast. I've been away since June, and this is the conversation I wanted to come back with. Tia is 44, from Albuquerque, and nearly three years out from her liver transplant. She found out her liver was failing by accident, when an urgent care visit for a sore elbow turned up iron levels so high doctors sent her to an oncologist. She's honest about the "duh" that came with the diagnosis: not surprised, and completely surprised, both at once. In this episode we talk about: - Growing up in an alcoholic family, and why drinking never felt like a choice - Weekly fluid drains, the yellow bile, and the moment she couldn't roll over in bed - Watching her aunt choose to drink until the end while Tia fought to keep her own life - Two transplant calls that fell through, including one on Christmas Day - Coding on the table, a missed bile duct, and a second surgery - Fourteen days in a coma, and waking up to a decorated room and a birthday she'd missed - Her donor, Chad, and the letters we both keep writing to families who may never write back - How she and her husband rebuilt a marriage after the bottle And because this is what The Willpower Podcast is for, I shared a part of my own story I've never told on camera, from the night I had a 4% chance of surviving. A near-death experience story I've never told publicly before until today. If you've ever felt like there was no way back, or you're carrying shame about how you got sick, I hope this feels like a conversation with someone who gets it. Tia said it better than I could: "we're not evil people, we're just people, and we deserve to be saved as much as anyone." 💚 To every organ donor and donor family: thank you. If you're not registered, you can sign up in a couple of minutes at registerme.org.💚 If you or someone you love is struggling with alcohol, the free, confidential SAMHSA National Helpline is 1-800-662-4357 (24/7). This episode is personal storytelling, not medical advice. Please talk to your care team about your own health. If this moved you, a like, a share, and a subscribe help this message reach someone who needs it. I edit and produce the podcast myself, so donations are so appreciated. Thank you from the bottom of my heart. Donate here 👈 🙏 CHAPTERS 00:00 Raised in It02:59 Under the Table05:52 Iron at 30,00008:52 She Already Knew11:55 MELD 4014:50 Her Aunt Chose the Other Ending18:08 A Liter a Day20:00 The Marriage After the Bottle24:25 She Hid It at Work26:48 The Shower Prayer37:46 The Calls That Fell Through39:52 She Coded, Then They Missed the Duct43:21 The Bracelet47:58 Fourteen Days in the Dark51:41 The Laugh That Brought Him Back57:15 We Are Not Evil People#livertransplant #alcoholism #organdonation #alcoholicliverdisease #sobriety

Most of us don’t really understand what it’s like to love someone deep in addiction...until we’re living it. In this earnest and valuable conversation, Anita Ondine Smith opens up about being married to former NBA player Randy Livingston while he battled gambling addiction for over two decades. She shares the confusion, the shame, the moments she felt completely lost, and how she learned that love alone wasn’t enough. Anita talks honestly about: - The early signs she missed - Why she hired a private investigator - What “boundaries” actually mean (and why most people get them wrong) - The turning point that finally got Randy real help - Why compassion worked better than control If you’re the one struggling with addiction, or you’re the partner, family member, or friend trying to support someone — this episode is for you. Resources mentioned: - Anita’s book: ASSIST: How to Help a Loved One with a Gambling Problem Without Losing Yourself - National Gambling Helpline: 1-800-RESET Connect with Anita: - Instagram: @anitaosmith - LinkedIn: Anita Ondine Smith If this helped you, please share it with someone who needs to hear it.

Most people think beating addiction comes down to having more willpower. Chris Hill says that’s one of the biggest mistakes you can make. In this episode, we break down why willpower eventually runs out, what’s actually happening in the brain when cravings return, and how rewiring your mind (instead of white-knuckling) creates real, lasting freedom. Chris is the founder of Beat My Addictions and author of Get Your Life Back. He’s also completed extreme endurance challenges — swimming the English Channel and running over 950 miles across the UK. He’s not just talking theory. We talk about: - Why the survival mechanism in your brain works against you in addiction - The “separation model” — how to separate your conscious self from the system running in the background - His personal rock bottom moment and how he finally broke the cycle - The difference between white-knuckling recovery vs actually rewiring your brain - Why counting days can sometimes work against you If you’ve ever felt like you keep failing even though you want to change, this episode will give you a completely different way of looking at it. Chris’s Book: Get Your Life Back – The Road to Freedom from Addiction (Available on Amazon) Free 7-Day Beat Addiction Plan: https://robhillfoundation.org Connect with Chris: - Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/beatmyaddictions - Website: https://www.beatmyaddictions.com If this episode helped you, please like, subscribe, and share it with someone who needs to hear it. Take care of yourself. #AddictionRecovery #Willpower #MentalHealth #RewireYourBrain #RecoveryPodcast #TheWillpowerPodcast

In this raw and honest conversation, author David Deane Haskell joins me to talk about what happens after you survive rock bottom. We dive into trauma, inner child work, shame attacks, codependency, and why recovery isn’t a straight line or a highlight reel. David shares how he learned to stop performing healing and started doing the real, messy work — including a powerful technique for connecting with your inner child that many people find life-changing. This episode is for anyone who’s tired of toxic positivity and wants to hear what recovery actually looks like when you stop trying to make it look inspiring. David’s Book – Wounded Angels - Kindle: https://mybook.to/woundedangels - Paperback: https://mybook.to/woundedangelspaperback - Website: https://daviddeanehaskell.com If you’re struggling right now: You are not alone. - National Suicide & Crisis Lifeline (US): Call or text 988 - Crisis Text Line: Text HOME to 741741 - International Association for Suicide Prevention: https://www.iasp.info/suicidalthoughts/ - SAMHSA National Helpline: 1-800-662-HELP (4357) → https://www.samhsa.gov/find-help/national-helpline - Alcoholics Anonymous: https://www.aa.org/ - Al-Anon (for families & loved ones): https://al-anon.org/ Connect with Will: - Sober Mentoring (limited spots): https://calendly.com/thewillpowerpodcast/30min - Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/thewillpowerpodcast - TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@willgordonsober - Buy Me a Coffee (supports the show): https://buymeacoffee.com/thewillpowerpodcast Thank you for being here. If this episode helped you, please like, subscribe, and share it with someone who needs to hear it. Take care of yourself. #Recovery #InnerChildWork #MentalHealth #AddictionRecovery #WoundedAngels #DavidDeaneHaskell #TheWillpowerPodcast

In this episode, I sit down with Evan Jarschauer, a licensed psychotherapist and one of the most experienced interventionists in the country. Evan has led interventions for families from all walks of life — including one that aired on Keeping Up with the Kardashians. We talk about what actually happens during a real intervention, the emotional weight of the job, and some of the heaviest cases he’s ever faced (including working with families where a parent is dying). Evan also opens up about his own childhood trauma and how it shaped the way he works with families today. Topics we cover: - What really happens behind the scenes of a family intervention - The emotional toll of working with families in crisis - Why denial is so powerful (and the most common things people say) - The difference between people who stay sober long-term vs. those who don’t - What it’s like when a dying parent wants to see their child get help before they pass If you love someone who’s struggling with addiction or mental health, this episode offers a rare look into how families can actually get help. Timestamps: 00:00 – Intro 01:45 – Evan’s personal story & childhood trauma 06:41 – Doing Kim Kardashian’s intervention 11:27 – What actually happens during a real intervention 14:12 – The hardest cases (including dying parents) 18:16 – Common things people in deep denial say 21:16 – Why the substance is usually a symptom, not the root 23:32 – What actually determines long-term recovery 27:11 – What families should do first when someone is struggling 31:52 – What keeps Evan doing this work Evan’s Website: behavioralhelp.com If this episode helped you, please like, subscribe, and share it with someone who needs to hear it. #Intervention #AddictionRecovery #FamilyIntervention #MentalHealth --- My Links: - Sober Mentoring: https://calendly.com/thewillpowerpodcast/30min - Instagram: @thewillpowerpodcast - TikTok: @willgordonsober

Matt Farnsworth had 11 years of sobriety… then everything fell apart. In this raw and powerful conversation, Matt shares how a toxic relationship, a relapse, and a horrific car accident that left him dead for 3 minutes completely changed his life. He opens up about white-knuckling sobriety, codependency, Hollywood darkness, and the moment he finally cried out to God on a bathroom floor. This is one of the most honest and emotional recovery stories we’ve ever had on The Willpower Podcast. Timestamps: 00:00 - The Night Everything Changed 03:45 - 11 Years Sober & The Relapse 08:20 - The Car Crash That Killed Him for 3 Minutes 15:10 - Crying Out to God on the Bathroom Floor 22:40 - The Hollywood Darkness No One Talks About 31:15 - Rock Bottom as a Launch Pad 38:50 - How God Removed His Anxiety Overnight 44:10 - Life After Recovery & Finding Real Peace If you’re struggling with addiction, relapse, or feeling like you’ve hit rock bottom — this episode is for you. If you’re struggling right now, please know that help is always there. You don’t have to do this alone. Call or text 988 for the Suicide & Crisis Lifeline — 24/7, free, and confidential. Or reach out to SAMHSA’s National Helpline at 1-800-662-HELP (4357). 👉 Subscribe for more raw recovery stories every week. Follow Matt Farnsworth: Website: mattfarnsworth.net Book: The Comeback Blueprint (on Amazon) App: Armor Up (Gospel Warrior) #Sobriety #Recovery #RockBottom #Faith #Addiction The Willpower Podcast is all about real stories, real struggles, and real hope. Have a story? Think sharing would help? [email protected]

This episode is raw, emotional, and deeply personal. Nathan Cheatwood is a liver transplant survivor who went through end-stage liver failure from alcohol addiction in 2023. He received his new liver after only 10 days on the transplant list and turned his entire journey into the world’s first AI-assisted autobiographical short film called “Second Chances: Rebirth.” In this conversation we talk about: - The slow descent into daily drinking - The lies we tell ourselves while our bodies are shutting down - Getting the call for a new liver - Waking up after surgery in excruciating pain - The mental battle of staying sober after transplant - The powerful “light bulb moment” that changed everything - Finding purpose and helping others If you’re struggling with alcohol, liver disease, or waiting for a transplant — this one is for you. If you’re struggling right now, please know that help is always there. You don’t have to do this alone. Call or text 988 for the Suicide & Crisis Lifeline — 24/7, free, and confidential. Or reach out to SAMHSA’s National Helpline at 1-800-662-HELP (4357). Timestamps: 00:00 Intro & Why This Episode Matters 01:59 Nathan’s Story Begins 04:12 The Mental Grip of Alcohol 07:12 The Lies We Tell Ourselves 10:19 The Turning Point – Going to the Hospital 12:57 Getting the Call for a New Liver 15:06 Waking Up After Surgery 17:43 The Hardest Part – Physical & Emotional 21:01 The Light Bulb Moment 25:06 Life After Transplant & Staying Sober 29:00 The Biggest Gift This Second Chance Gave Him 31:15 Message of Hope to Anyone Struggling Nathan’s Film: Second Chances: Rebirth → Watch here: https://www.youtube.com/@2ndchancesfilm Follow Nathan: Instagram: @2ndchancesfilm If this episode helped you, please like, subscribe, and share it with someone who needs to hear it. #LiverTransplant #TransplantSurvivor #AlcoholRecovery #RockBottom #SecondChance #AddictionRecovery #WillpowerPodcast 📅 My Calendly for 1-on-1 sober mentoring: link in bio 👈 Thank you for supporting my mission to lessen the suffering of other ❤️‍🩹🤘-will

Family, that’s Shawn Livingston — four-time felon, heroin survivor, ultra-runner, and living proof that your lowest moment can become your greatest purpose Shawn Livingston went from high school basketball star to Air Force vet, heroin addict, 4-time felon, and prison time… until a mirror moment and a simple running group changed everything. He shares the raw truth about recovery bubbles, Scientology rehab madness, military painkiller hell, and how finding something that "lit a fire under his ass" rebuilt his body, mind, and purpose. If you're battling addiction, liver/kidney recovery, or just feel stuck in sobriety — this is your reminder: recovery is the foundation, not your whole life. Find what excites you to wake up every morning. Watch Shawn's documentary "100 Miles to Redemption" on Amazon: https://www.primevideo.com/detail/0Q92IH29KIQG1EJ3K381552TQR/ref=atv_dp_share_cu_r Follow Shawn: @iamredemption + his "I Am Redemption" podcast Drop in the comments: What's YOUR "fire under the ass" thing? Tag a friend who needs this. Timestamps below ↓ If my transplant journey and these stories help you, hit subscribe, like, and share — we're building real recovery impact together. Booking speaking? DM me. #Sobriety #Recovery #AddictionRecovery TIMESTAMPS: 0:00 – New Intro + Shawn’s Big Lesson 1:45 – Car Crash That Ended Basketball Dreams 4:30 – Oxy to Heroin Pipeline 8:10 – Scientology Rehab Madness (you won’t believe this) 12:00 – Military Injury & Painkillers 16:30 – Prison Wake-Up Call 21:00 – The Mirror Moment That Changed Everything 25:45 – How Running Lit the Fire 32:00 – Lance Armstrong Podcast + Documentary Story 38:00 – Vulnerability Pays Off 44:00 – Actionable Steps: Find Your Fire 52:00 – Final Wisdom + Where to Find Shawn And if you find value in the content we're creating. A coffee is a great way to support the channel. 🤝 https://buymeacoffee.com/thewillpowerpodcast

Hey everybody, welcome back to The Willpower Podcast. I was a Boston teacher sneaking bottles, blacking out, and waking up yellow-eyed in a hospital bed with doctors telling my wife I had two weeks left. Liver and kidneys gone. Two transplants later I’m sober, but I still remember the crushing shame that kept pulling me back every time I slipped. Today Chris Cummins (operations at Laguna Treatment Center, biggest detox/recovery hospital in Orange County) gets it from the other side. He’s seen thousands walk in defeated after relapse, carrying the same shame that almost ended me. Chris shares his own raw story — starting shots at 11, snorting methadone in PE, his fraternity rock-bottom “united front” intervention — and why relapse is the disease talking, NOT failure. We break down how shame kills progress, why family systems keep the cycle going, the “pink cloud” trap after detox, and the gratitude hack that kills shame before it kills your recovery. This one’s for anyone who’s relapsed and hates themselves for it… or watching someone they love spiral. Key moments: 00:00 — My shame story + Chris’s first words to relapsed patients 02:31 — Chris’s childhood: 8 shots before school at 11 12:51 — The “united front” rock bottom that saved us both 15:18 — Why shame is a self-fulfilling prophecy (review the tape like an Olympian) 19:47 — Family homeostasis — the #1 thing that makes relapse worse 25:48 — Daily gratitude tool that actually kills shame If this hits you or someone you love, drop a comment with your biggest takeaway — it helps more people than you know. Need 1:1 help breaking the shame cycle and staying sober? Book a mentoring call — link in bio. #Sobriety #RelapseRecovery #LiverFailure #BeatShame #WillpowerPodcast 📍Chapters:00:00 — Welcome: My Yellow-Eyed Rock Bottom & Why Shame Keeps Us Stuck 02:31 — Chris’s Story: First Shots at 11 & Building a Drinker Reputation 12:51 — The “United Front” Intervention That Changed Everything 15:18 — Relapse Isn’t Failure — Review the Tape Like an Olympian 19:47 — Family Disease: Why Homeostasis Makes Relapse Almost Impossible 22:11 — Chronic Relapse Programs & Value-Based Aftercare That Actually Works 25:48 — The Daily Gratitude Tool That Kills Shame Before It Kills Recovery 33:56 — Pink Cloud Warning & Why Most People Relapse After Discharge 🔥 8 Actionable Takeaways! First words to someone who relapsed: “I’m glad you’re alive.” No shame — just hope.Shame is a self-fulfilling prophecy. Review the “tape” like a pro athlete instead of beating yourself up.Relapse is the disease talking — not a personal failure. Those 999 sober days still count.Change your environment AND include family in treatment. Homeostasis will pull you right back otherwise.Families: Stop hyper-vigilant blame. Open communication + shared accountability = real recovery.Chronic relapsers: Get into specialized groups with people who get it. Longer stays = better outcomes.Aftercare hack: Demand value-based agreements and open conversations between facilities.Daily tool: Start small with gratitude (“I’m grateful for this coffee”). It crowds out shame. Thank you all for listening/watching. I truly appreciate each and every one of you!

This episode is part of Podcasthon 2026 — thousands of podcasts dropping special episodes to spotlight nonprofits and raise funds for addiction recovery. I’m honored to feature Hazelden Betty Ford because their work saves lives and it’s personal for me. Joseph Skrajewski (National Director of Business Development – Healthcare Solutions at Hazelden Betty Ford) joins me for a raw, honest conversation about what actually works when alcohol is destroying bodies and families. We cover: How alcohol wrecks the liver and relationshipsMedical detox for cirrhosis, encephalopathy, and organ damageThe groundbreaking Sesame Street partnership for kids in addicted familiesRebuilding trust after addictionReal hope stories and why you don’t have to hit rock bottomIf you’re in liver failure, watching someone you love spiral, or just stuck in the shame loop — this one’s for you. Hazelden Betty Ford Resources: https://www.hazeldenbettyford.org Timestamps: 00:00 Intro & Podcasthon 2026 01:00 Joseph’s background & recovery story 03:10 Sesame Street partnership for kids 04:08 Medical detox for liver damage 07:04 Reaching out before it’s too late 08:51 Real hope stories from families 11:07 Free resources & how to get help Like, subscribe, and share if this helped — every view supports Podcasthon’s mission. #Podcasthon2026 #HazeldenBettyFord #AddictionRecovery #LiverFailure #SoberParenting #SobrietyJourney #FamilyHealing

Hey family, it's Will Gordon on The Willpower Podcast. Two years ago yellow-eyed in a hospital bed, kidneys/liver gone from blackouts—docs said two weeks. Two transplants later, sober, but I still know the numb fog when life's grinding you down. Jon Gustin—@thetireddad to over 2 million followers—gets it from the dad side. First kid in 2016 hit like a mirror: childhood stuff undone, marriage holes, alcohol numbing everything since age 14 (alcohol poisoning in ninth grade). Quit 2023 after tolerance exploded—now 3+ years sober, co-hosts The Tired Dad & Tired Mom Podcast with wife Jessica (@the.tiredmom), and his book "The Tired Dad" drops May 5 (pre-order now at tireddad.com—100 reflections on showing up exhausted, legacy, vulnerability; extras include 5 bonus reflections + curated soundtrack). We go deep: Becoming a dad flipped everything: "Shit, figure life out"Generational cycles: Breaking military-style discipline, no emotional connectSobriety grind: Dry Jan fails, first-year hell, stacking winsBurnout like pre-relapse: Numb, isolated—family walks & kindness as resetShame/regret flip: "Past had to happen for present"Legacy: Kids feel love through actions, not just wordsDads on fumes, anyone in recovery parenting, fighting numbness—this hits different. Liver transplant or dad burnout, the fight is showing up anyway. Timestamps: 00:00 – My transplant hell & Jon's dad mirror 05:00 – Sobriety wake-up: Alcohol since 14, quit 2023 12:00 – Generational cycles: Breaking no-connect patterns 20:00 – Burnout tools: Walks, kindness, getting uncomfortable 30:00 – Book tease: 100 reflections on showing up 40:00 – Legacy: Kids feel what you do Drop your takeaway: What's one cycle you're breaking? Tag a dad grinding. 👇 National Helpline: 1-800-662-HELP (24/7 free) Follow Jon: IG/TikTok @thetireddad | Podcast: The Tired Dad & Tired Mom Pre-order book: tireddad.com (extras: soundtrack + bonus reflections) Subscribe for raw recovery stories. Much love, Will Gordon Two-time transplant survivor • Sober • Still fighting

I know transplant hell—yellow eyes, sepsis scares, rejection fears, the mental limbo after waking up with someone else's organ keeping you alive. Two transplants later, sober and fighting, but I still remember the grind. Today's guest? Daniel Eadle, UK dad, husband, multi-genre drummer, and CEO of his heating business. Diagnosed at 19 with PSC (primary sclerosing cholangitis) and autoimmune hepatitis—a rare, no-fault liver killer—he shrugged it off for over a decade, built his life, started a family, and kept pushing. Then April 2025: full liver transplant, sepsis, infections, massive rejection bouts, six weeks in hospital, ATG nuking his immune system. But he prepped like a beast (gym, nutrition, Perspectum scans), leaned on wife/kids, and came back drumming, running his company, and advocating proactive care so others don't wait for crisis. We talk raw: Diagnosis at 19 with just a leaflet—Google spiral terror10 years grinding through flares, fatigue, yellow skin, varicose veins—still building business and familyNo-judgment compassion: Why he never judged "drinking" livers in hospital—everyone's fighting somethingTransplant call (three false alarms), high-risk surgery, mental crush no one preps you forPost-op rejection terror: "Didn't think I was coming out"Family fuel: Kids knowing everything, book "My Daddy Has Cirrhosis" to explain it allSecond-chance clarity: More active dad, less regrets on the table If you're facing chronic illness, waiting for transplant, supporting someone, or just need hope—this one's for you. Liver transplant's the same fight, alcohol or not. If you find value in what im doing. A coffee helps :) http://buymeacoffee.com/thewillpowerpodcast Timestamps 00:00 – My transplant parallels & intro to Daniel 03:00 – Diagnosis at 19: Leaflet drop & shrugging it off 08:45 – 10-year grind: Business, family, hidden fatigue 14:20 – Jaundice stares & no-judgment on "drinking" livers 19:50 – Proactive prep: Gym beast mode & Perspectum scans 25:10 – Transplant call, high-risk surgery, mental fear 31:00 – Sepsis, rejection, six weeks hospital hell 37:40 – Post-transplant limbo & new normal 42:00 – Advice: Ask questions, don't be scared—there's hope Drop your takeaway below: What's one thing you're fighting proactively today? Tag a warrior who needs this. National Helpline: 1-800-662-HELP (24/7 free support) Follow Daniel: IG @daniel.eadle | TikTok @dddrummer (drumming vibes) PSC Support UK: pscsupport.org.uk Perspectum (scans): perspectum.com Subscribe for more raw recovery stories. Hit like/share if this hit. Much love, Will Gordon Two-time transplant survivor • Sober • Still here for you

Three years sober after a liver transplant that almost killed me... but the brain fog, guilt, and that constant pull back to chaos? Still real as hell. In this raw convo with Dr. Tiff Thompson (PhD neuro, neurotherapy CEO, BCN/QEEG expert), we break down why shame and tough love backfire in addiction recovery, how your brain gets wired for cravings (low GABA profiles, dopaminergic burnout, default mode network traps), and how neurotherapy/neurostimulation can actually rewire the damage...no meds, no nonsense We talk post-transplant fog, integrating your "shadow" old self, grieving lost identity, and starting with radical self-honesty. If you're sober but still struggling, or watching a loved one spiral, this hits home. Timestamps: 0:00 - Cold Open: Moana's Monster – Acceptance Transforms Demons 1:00 - Intro & My Transplant/Family Fallout Hell 2:00 - Tiff's Journey: From Wind Farms to Neurotherapy Love 5:00 - Why Shame/Blame Creates Resistance (Moana Scene Deep Dive) 9:00 - Rock Bottom vs. Early Intervention with Curiosity 12:00 - Addiction Scratches the Itch It Created – Yin-Yang Loop 15:00 - Neurotherapy Explained: QEEG, Montages, Cutting Cravings/Withdrawal 20:00 - Brain Fog & Trauma Post-Transplant: Wear & Tear, 100% Recuperation Potential 25:00 - The "Torn Apart" Feeling: Old Chaotic Self vs. Higher Sober Self 30:00 - Low GABA Genetic Profile – Why 1 in 10 Are Wired for Alcohol/Anxiety 35:00 - Simple At-Home Start: See Yourself As You Are & Talk It Out 40:00 - Wrap-Up & Vulnerability = Connection Would love your support 💚 buymeacoffee.com/thewillpowerpodcast Links: School of Neurotherapy: https://www.schoolofneurotherapy.comNeurofield Neurotherapy Clinic: https://www.neurofieldneurotherapy.comTiff Thompson: Search "Tiff Thompson Neurofield" for more If this episode hits, like, subscribe, comment your biggest takeaway (what's still pulling you back?), and share with someone who needs it. National Helpline: 1-800-662-HELP (4357) – free, 24/7. #Sobriety #AddictionRecovery #Neurotherapy #BrainFog #LiverTransplantRecovery #MentalHealth #WillpowerPodcast