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What do you do when you love God, believe He's good, but don't like what He's allowed to happen in your life? In this episode of Loud About Loss, I'm having an honest conversation about faith, grief, disappointment, and the questions we’re often afraid to ask God. As a mother who lost her daughter, I share why I don't believe being a Christian means pretending we're okay with everything that happens, how biblical lament gives us permission to bring our anger and pain to God, and why you can trust Him without understanding His plan. If you've ever thought, “I love God, but I don't like what has happened to my life,” this conversation is for you. You don't have to sanitize your grief, have all the answers, or choose between honesty and faith. Watch this episode on YouTube too: https://youtu.be/biklZMpCyao ✨Order my New Devotional I AM NEAR ⁠Grab your copy here: 👉 https://www.amazon.com/Am-Near-Grief-Devotional-Mothers/dp/B0GW23VC4N/⁠ ✨ My book JOY DOES RETURN is available on Amazon! If this episode spoke to you, this book was written for you. ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Grab your copy here:👉 https://www.amazon.com/dp/B0GHMBVJWM⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ Read the first chapter of Joy Does Return- A try before you cry kinda thing. ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Read it HERE!⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ 💛 Let’s stay connected. If this episode spoke to you, please follow the show and leave a review—it helps other grieving moms find us. And don’t forget to join the community newsletter at ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠loudaboutloss.com ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠for weekly encouragement, and updates on Becky's book.  #LossMom #ChildLoss #ChristianGrief #GriefSupport #BiblicalEncouragement #LoudAboutLoss

My new devotional for bereaved mothers, I Am Near, is available for pre-order now — publishing August 4th. The story of how this book happened is so unmistakably God that I had to share it. A woman from Penguin Random House saw one of my YouTube videos about Gracie. They had an idea for a devotional for bereaved mothers — and they were looking for the right author. They chose me. I had less than three months to write 52 entries. I did it. For the first time, I felt like the chosen expert in grief. I'd never felt like an expert in anything. This book is for the mom who can't feel God right now — but hasn't stopped showing up. ✨Pre-Order my New Devotional I AM NEAR Grab your copy here: 👉 https://www.amazon.com/Am-Near-Grief-Devotional-Mothers/dp/B0GW23VC4N/ ✨ My book JOY DOES RETURN is available on Amazon! If this episode spoke to you, this book was written for you. ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Grab your copy here:👉 https://www.amazon.com/dp/B0GHMBVJWM⁠⁠⁠⁠ Read the first chapter of Joy Does Return- A try before you cry kinda thing. ⁠⁠⁠⁠Read it HERE!⁠⁠⁠⁠ 💛 Let’s stay connected. If this episode spoke to you, please follow the show and leave a review—it helps other grieving moms find us. And don’t forget to join the community newsletter at ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠loudaboutloss.com ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠for weekly encouragement, and updates on Becky's book.  #LossMom #ChildLoss #ChristianGrief #GriefSupport #BiblicalEncouragement #LoudAboutLoss

"Fake it till you make it" works great — unless you're grieving. Then it just makes things worse. 💛If you've ever been told to smile through it, push through it, or just pretend to be okay... this one's for you. ✨ My book JOY DOES RETURN is officially available on Amazon! If this episode spoke to you, this book was written for you. ⁠⁠⁠⁠Grab your copy here:👉 https://www.amazon.com/dp/B0GHMBVJWM⁠⁠⁠ Read the first chapter of Joy Does Return- A try before you cry kinda thing. ⁠⁠⁠Read it HERE!⁠⁠⁠ More of a visual person? You can watch this episode on our YouTube Channel ⁠⁠⁠RIGHT HERE!⁠⁠⁠ 💛 Let’s stay connected. If this episode spoke to you, please follow the show and leave a review—it helps other grieving moms find us. And don’t forget to join the community newsletter at ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠loudaboutloss.com ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠for weekly encouragement, and updates on Becky's book.  #LossMom #ChildLoss #ChristianGrief #GriefSupport #BiblicalEncouragement #LoudAboutLoss

The five stages of grief weren't designed to be a checklist — and they were never biblical. In this episode, I'm breaking down why the "stages" model actually hurts grieving moms, what the Psalms really say about grief, and why you are not failing just because your grief isn't linear. I’m looking for 10 women who have lost a child and are willing to share a little about what life feels like right now. I created a short, honest form—no calls, no pressure. Just a space to tell the truth about your experience. I read every response personally, and it truly helps more than you know. ⁠👉 https://docs.google.com/forms/d/e/1FAIpQLSdg1hf-EctZrxarurXbbWqqL1KMCQElb1lZt0dHPSpUVZ8I_g/viewform?usp=header⁠ ✨ My book JOY DOES RETURN is officially available on Amazon! If this episode spoke to you, this book was written for you. ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Grab your copy here:👉 https://www.amazon.com/dp/B0GHMBVJWM⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ Read the first chapter of Joy Does Return- A try before you cry kinda thing. ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Read it HERE!⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ More of a visual person? You can watch more episodes on our YouTube Channel ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠RIGHT HERE!⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ 💛 Let’s stay connected. If this episode spoke to you, please follow the show and leave a review—it helps other grieving moms find us. And don’t forget to join the community newsletter at ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠loudaboutloss.com ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠for weekly encouragement, and updates on Becky's book.  #LossMom #ChildLoss #ChristianGrief #GriefSupport #BiblicalEncouragement #LoudAboutLoss

If you've lost a child, you've collected them — the well-meaning "at leasts" that people say when they don't know what else to do. "At least she's not in pain." "At least you got time with her." "At least you still have your faith." They mean well. That's what makes it so hard. In this video I'm breaking down why we say "at least," why it quietly wounds the grieving heart, and what God actually says instead — because it's not what most of us expect. I’m looking for 10 women who have lost a child and are willing to share a little about what life feels like right now. I created a short, honest form—no calls, no pressure. Just a space to tell the truth about your experience. I read every response personally, and it truly helps more than you know. ⁠👉 https://docs.google.com/forms/d/e/1FAIpQLSdg1hf-EctZrxarurXbbWqqL1KMCQElb1lZt0dHPSpUVZ8I_g/viewform?usp=header⁠ ✨ My book JOY DOES RETURN is officially available on Amazon! If this episode spoke to you, this book was written for you. ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Grab your copy here:👉 https://www.amazon.com/dp/B0GHMBVJWM⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ Read the first chapter of Joy Does Return- A try before you cry kinda thing. ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Read it HERE!⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ More of a visual person? You can watch more episodes on our YouTube Channel ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠RIGHT HERE!⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ 💛 Let’s stay connected. If this episode spoke to you, please follow the show and leave a review—it helps other grieving moms find us. And don’t forget to join the community newsletter at ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠loudaboutloss.com ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠for weekly encouragement, and updates on Becky's book.  #LossMom #ChildLoss #ChristianGrief #GriefSupport #BiblicalEncouragement #LoudAboutLoss

This one's for the mama who braces herself every May. The one who smiles when someone says "Happy Mother's Day" even though something inside her sinks a little. In this episode, Becky gets honest about what Mother's Day actually feels like after child loss, why you ARE still a mother (the Bible says so), and why some years the holiest thing you can do is close your bedroom door and eat food you didn't cook. Biblical. Real. And yes, there's a bed story. I’m looking for 10 women who have lost a child and are willing to share a little about what life feels like right now. I created a short, honest form—no calls, no pressure. Just a space to tell the truth about your experience. I read every response personally, and it truly helps more than you know. 👉 https://docs.google.com/forms/d/e/1FAIpQLSdg1hf-EctZrxarurXbbWqqL1KMCQElb1lZt0dHPSpUVZ8I_g/viewform?usp=header ✨ My book JOY DOES RETURN is officially available on Amazon! If this episode spoke to you, this book was written for you. ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Grab your copy here:👉 https://www.amazon.com/dp/B0GHMBVJWM⁠⁠⁠⁠ Read the first chapter of Joy Does Return- A try before you cry kinda thing. ⁠⁠⁠⁠Read it HERE!⁠⁠⁠⁠ More of a visual person? You can watch more episodes on our YouTube Channel ⁠⁠⁠⁠RIGHT HERE!⁠⁠⁠⁠ 💛 Let’s stay connected. If this episode spoke to you, please follow the show and leave a review—it helps other grieving moms find us. And don’t forget to join the community newsletter at ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠loudaboutloss.com ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠for weekly encouragement, and updates on Becky's book.  #LossMom #ChildLoss #ChristianGrief #GriefSupport #BiblicalEncouragement #LoudAboutLoss

Are you actually grieving — or are you just surviving it? Most moms who've lost a child don't realize they've been avoiding their grief. It doesn't look dramatic. It looks like busyness. Numbness. Anger. Managing everyone else. In this video, I share 7 signs that you might be walking around your grief instead of through it — and what to do about it. ✨ My book JOY DOES RETURN is officially available on Amazon! If this episode spoke to you, this book was written for you. ⁠⁠⁠⁠Grab your copy here:👉 https://www.amazon.com/dp/B0GHMBVJWM⁠⁠⁠ Read the first chapter of Joy Does Return- A try before you cry kinda thing. ⁠⁠⁠Read it HERE!⁠⁠⁠ More of a visual person? You can watch more episodes on our YouTube Channel ⁠⁠⁠RIGHT HERE!⁠⁠⁠ 💛 Let’s stay connected. If this episode spoke to you, please follow the show and leave a review—it helps other grieving moms find us. And don’t forget to join the community newsletter at ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠loudaboutloss.com ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠for weekly encouragement, and updates on Becky's book.  #LossMom #ChildLoss #ChristianGrief #GriefSupport #BiblicalEncouragement #LoudAboutLoss

Your grief doesn't have an expiration date — but society kind of acts like it does. In this video, I'm breaking down why the world forgets your child, why it's not entirely their fault (but also kind of is), and — most importantly — two tangible practices to help you stay tethered to the truth of who your child was when everyone else has moved on. What you'll walk away with:  ✅ The Expiration Audit — 3 questions to reclaim your own grief timeline  ✅ The Memory Anchor Practice — a 3-part practice to keep your child's memory alive on the hard days ✨ My book JOY DOES RETURN is officially available on Amazon! If this episode spoke to you, this book was written for you. ⁠⁠⁠Grab your copy here:👉 https://www.amazon.com/dp/B0GHMBVJWM⁠⁠ Read the first chapter of Joy Does Return- A try before you cry kinda thing. ⁠⁠Read it HERE!⁠⁠ More of a visual person? You can watch this episode on our YouTube Channel ⁠⁠RIGHT HERE!⁠⁠ 💛 Let’s stay connected. If this episode spoke to you, please follow the show and leave a review—it helps other grieving moms find us. And don’t forget to join the community newsletter at ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠loudaboutloss.com ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠for weekly encouragement, and updates on Becky's book.  #LossMom #ChildLoss #ChristianGrief #GriefSupport #BiblicalEncouragement #LoudAboutLoss

After child loss, anger can feel just as overwhelming as grief — and sometimes even guiltier. We’re taught that “strong faith” looks quiet, polite, and accepting. But what happens when your heart is shattered and your prayers sound more like accusations than praise? In this episode, we’re talking about the “Angry Prayer.” We’re diving into the Psalms of Lament — the raw, unfiltered prayers that prove screaming at Heaven might actually be the most faithful thing you can do. You’ll learn: • Why anger at God doesn’t mean you lack faith • How the Bible gives permission for honest, messy grief • What Psalm 88 teaches us about prayers that end in darkness • A simple 4-step guide to writing your own lament • Why wrestling with God is a form of intimacy, not rebellion You can watch this episode on YouTube here: https://youtu.be/YPBhM13s96M ✨ My book JOY DOES RETURN is officially available on Amazon! If this episode spoke to you, this book was written for you. ⁠⁠Grab your copy here:👉 https://www.amazon.com/dp/B0GHMBVJWM⁠ Read the first chapter of Joy Does Return- A try before you cry kinda thing. ⁠Read it HERE!⁠ 💛 Let’s stay connected. If this episode spoke to you, please follow the show and leave a review—it helps other grieving moms find us. And don’t forget to join the community newsletter at ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠loudaboutloss.com ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠for weekly encouragement, and updates on Becky's book.

Everyone tells you God will comfort you. Nobody tells you He lets you cry first. In Jeremiah 31:15, Rachel is weeping for her children — and God doesn't rush her, rebuke her, or tell her to have more faith. He speaks tenderly after she grieves. That sequence is not an accident. It's permission. If you've felt pressure to "get to the peace" before you're ready, this one's for you. ✨ My book JOY DOES RETURN is officially available on Amazon! If this episode spoke to you, this book was written for you. ⁠⁠Grab your copy here:👉 https://www.amazon.com/dp/B0GHMBVJWM⁠ Read the first chapter of Joy Does Return- A try before you cry kinda thing. ⁠Read it HERE!⁠ More of a visual person? You can watch this episode on our YouTube Channel ⁠RIGHT HERE!⁠ 💛 Let’s stay connected. If this episode spoke to you, please follow the show and leave a review—it helps other grieving moms find us. And don’t forget to join the community newsletter at ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠loudaboutloss.com ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠for weekly encouragement, and updates on Becky's book.  #LossMom #ChildLoss #ChristianGrief #GriefSupport #BiblicalEncouragement #LoudAboutLoss

Every loss mama knows what Friday feels like. And we're all waiting for Sunday. But nobody talks about what happens in between — and that's where most of us actually live. This is for you if you're in the Saturday. Watch this episode on YouTube too: https://youtu.be/YcYF3XLF28o ✨ My book JOY DOES RETURN is officially available on Amazon! If this episode spoke to you, this book was written for you. ⁠⁠Grab your copy here:👉 https://www.amazon.com/dp/B0GHMBVJWM⁠ Read the first chapter of Joy Does Return- A try before you cry kinda thing. ⁠Read it HERE!⁠ 💛 Let’s stay connected. If this episode spoke to you, please follow the show and leave a review—it helps other grieving moms find us. And don’t forget to join the community newsletter at ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠loudaboutloss.com ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠for weekly encouragement, and updates on Becky's book.

Do you feel like you lost your identity when you lost your child? You aren't the same person you were before, but you don't know who this new version is either. In this episode, I share 3 biblical steps to help you navigate identity after child loss and find peace in the 'new you.' In this episode, we discuss: Why it's okay to grieve the 'old you'How to find anchors in your Christian grief journeyPractical ways to rebuild your sense of self after lossWatch this episode on YouTube too: ✨ My book JOY DOES RETURN is officially available on Amazon! If this episode spoke to you, this book was written for you. ⁠Grab your copy here:👉 https://www.amazon.com/dp/B0GHMBVJWM Read the first chapter of Joy Does Return- A try before you cry kinda thing. Read it HERE! 💛 Let’s stay connected. If this episode spoke to you, please follow the show and leave a review—it helps other grieving moms find us. And don’t forget to join the community newsletter at ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠loudaboutloss.com ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠for weekly encouragement, and updates on Becky's book.

What happens when you stand in a room full of women and tell the truth about grief? In this episode, Becky shares reflections from a recent Christian women’s conference where she spoke about loss, faith, and the kind of joy that can still exist after unimaginable heartbreak. She tells the story of her daughter Gracie — who lived just 82 days — and what it was like to share that story live in front of a room filled with women carrying their own hidden griefs. Because loss doesn’t always come in the form of a casket. Sometimes it’s a diagnosis, a shattered dream, or the life you thought you would have. Together we explore: • Why biblical joy isn’t pretending everything is okay • The powerful moment when Mary Magdalene hears Jesus say her name • What surprised Becky most about the women who approached her after the talk • Three questions to help you find glimmers of joy even in deep grief If you’ve ever thought “this isn’t the life I prayed for,” this conversation is for you. Because joy doesn’t come from perfect circumstances. It comes from the presence of a God who meets us right in the middle of our mourning. ✨ My book JOY DOES RETURN is officially available on Amazon! If this episode spoke to you, this book was written for you. ⁠⁠Grab your copy here:👉 https://www.amazon.com/dp/B0GHMBVJWM⁠ Read the first chapter of Joy Does Return- A try before you cry kinda thing. ⁠Read it HERE!⁠ 💛 Let’s stay connected. If this episode spoke to you, please follow the show and leave a review—it helps other grieving moms find us. And don’t forget to join the community newsletter at ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠loudaboutloss.com ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠for weekly encouragement, and updates on Becky's book.

Finding out you are pregnant again after losing a child brings a unique kind of pain: the tension between joy and terror. If you feel like you're "holding your breath" waiting for the other shoe to drop, this video is for you. Today, we're talking honestly about pregnancy after loss and how to navigate the paralyzing fear that comes with a subsequent pregnancy. I’m sharing my personal "Fear Script"—a practical tool and prayer you can use when panic sets in—along with 3 biblical anchors to help you find peace. You don't have to choose between grief and gratitude; we'll learn how to hold both. ✨ My book JOY DOES RETURN is officially available on Amazon! If this episode spoke to you, this book was written for you. ⁠Grab your copy here:👉 https://www.amazon.com/dp/B0GHMBVJWM Read the first chapter of Joy Does Return- A try before you cry kinda thing. Read it HERE! More of a visual person? You can watch this episode on our YouTube Channel RIGHT HERE! 💛 Let’s stay connected. If this episode spoke to you, please follow the show and leave a review—it helps other grieving moms find us. And don’t forget to join the community newsletter at ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠loudaboutloss.com ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠for weekly encouragement, and updates on Becky's book.

That moment the ultrasound tech goes quiet... it’s every loss mom’s worst nightmare. If your heart rate matches the baby's every time you enter that dark room, this video is for you. Today we’re talking about "Scanxiety"—the specific terror of ultrasounds during pregnancy after loss. I’m sharing how to handle the "Poker Face" sonographer, why it’s okay to freak out, and 3 practical ways to advocate for yourself when you're scared to look at the screen. ✨ My book JOY DOES RETURN is officially available on Amazon! If this episode spoke to you, this book was written for you. ⁠Grab your copy here:👉 https://www.amazon.com/dp/B0GHMBVJWM Read the first chapter of Joy Does Return- A try before you cry kinda thing. Read it HERE! 💛 Let’s stay connected. If this episode spoke to you, please follow the show and leave a review—it helps other grieving moms find us. And don’t forget to join the community newsletter at ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠loudaboutloss.com ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠for weekly encouragement, and updates on Becky's book.