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What gets passed down when we don’t take responsibility for what is ours? And what becomes possible when we do? What is actually yours to own—and what isn’t? When is something truly “in the past,” and when are we just hiding from it? What does real repair ask of us? In this conversation, Mushky traces a thread through Adam and Chava, Noah, Yosef and Moshe—through blame, shame, accountability, repair, and the ways one person’s choices can echo across generations. And from there, we follow the thread into the questions we live with in our own relationships: responsibility, forgiveness, old hurt, and what it means to move forward without pretending nothing happened. At the center of it all is a question that is always timely and forever relevant to living a life of honesty and truth: Ayeka? Where are you? And where are you now? 🔥 If this conversation speaks to you, GROUP is where we take this work further. Seven weeks of live coaching around truth, responsibility, accountability, relationship, polarity and the Self. Men: https://www.saadya.com/mens-group-coaching Women: https://www.saadya.com/womens-group-coaching

A friendship that’s been weighing on Saadya unexpectedly finds its way into the conversation. What begins as one story about finally speaking up turns into a much bigger conversation. Why do some relationships become stronger after an honest conversation, while others quietly fall apart? Why can someone genuinely care about you and still leave you feeling unseen? And why do so many of us ignore what our gut has been trying to tell us just to keep a relationship going? As Saadya reflects on a friendship that’s been weighing on him, he and Mushky find themselves revisiting their own marriage, the healing that changed the way they understand intimacy, and the surprising role conflict now plays in their relationship. If you’ve ever felt unseen by someone you love, swallowed your hurt to keep the peace, questioned a friendship that still meant the world to you, or sensed that something important was missing in your closest relationships, we think you’ll find yourself in this conversation.

Five years ago, Saadya had a 6.5 gram mushroom journey that changed the course of our lives. The ripple effects are still unfolding today. Over the years, we’ve shared many aspects of our healing journey—therapy, communication, attachment, intimacy, spirituality, masculinity, femininity, polarity, self-awareness, and the inner work that transformed our relationship. We’ve also spoken openly about psychedelics, plant medicine, healing, and consciousness. But if we’re going to tell the story of how we got here, then this part of the story deserves attention commensurate with the role it played. Not because psychedelics are the whole story. But because they were a critical part of the story. A critical ingredient in the healing and transformation of our marriage and our lives. In this conversation, we explore the role mushrooms, MDMA, and other psychedelic medicines played in our individual healing, our marriage, and our understanding of transformation itself. This is not an episode about convincing anyone to take psychedelics. It’s a conversation about healing. About consciousness. About marriage. About the tools available to us in this generation. And about what becomes possible when we’re willing to explore the full spectrum of support available for our growth and evolution. Together, we explore: • The mushroom journey that changed the course of our marriage • What years of inner work gave us—and what psychedelics offered that was different • The difference between insight and direct experience • Psychedelics, consciousness, and spirituality • The role these medicines played in our healing • The controversy around “shortcuts” • Why we often resist the very support that could help us most • The assumptions we carry about suffering, growth, and transformation • Why every generation may be given exactly the medicine it needs Whether psychedelics are part of your path or not, we hope this conversation expands your sense of what’s possible—not only in healing, but in marriage, consciousness, and becoming more fully yourself.

Mushky didn’t want Saadya to go to Israel. She had real fears. Real resistance. Real reasons. He listened deeply. …and still went. This episode opens into a raw conversation on masculine and feminine polarity in marriage: what happens when a woman doesn’t give her blessing, a man still chooses himself, and something unexpected begins to shift. We also touch on: • what can happen when feminine resistance is met with grounded masculine clarity • embodied masculine presence vs. “helping” • parenting with warmth, structure, and leadership • slowing down and shifting the energy of a home • ritual, nervous system regulation, and family life A real conversation on marriage, polarity, and what can change when a man fully chooses himself.

What happens in a marriage when you want to be comforted—but what you actually receive is something truer? This episode moves through the difference between being soothed and being seen. We get into what it feels like to open up and not get the response you were hoping for—and how that lands. There’s something here about being witnessed. What it means to be seen clearly, without being handled. Why that can land deeper than reassurance. And why it’s not always easy to receive. We also move into a more subtle shift: what happens when a woman stops managing herself and starts speaking from inside her own experience— the oofs, the ahs, the ouches— and what that does to the energy between two people. In presence. In polarity. In attraction. In this episode: wanting comfort—and not getting itbeing soothed vs being truly seenthe moment she drops into it—the oof, the ah, the ouchher embodiment—and what it does to himhis turn-on—and what it opens in herpresence instead of fixingwhere polarity and attraction actually come fromthe discomfort that comes with real growthwhat healing actually feels like from the insidewhy growth isn’t clean or linearhow years of inner work start to show up inside a relationship

A conversation about marriage, projection, pressure, perfectionism, nervous systems, and reacting to stories in our heads as if they’re reality. the version of your partner that lives in your mindinner criticism and fixer partsreacting before anything is actually saidlearning to come back to what’s true in front of you

What happens when we’re not in the same place at the same time? When one of us wants closeness and the other needs space? Can we hold both without pulling away or rushing to repair?

In this episode we find ourselves moving through phones, distraction, anticipation, phobias, psychedelics, yoga, Shabbos, nervous systems, and the quiet moments of life we’re usually so quick to escape. What are we actually avoiding when we fill every empty space? What gets lost when we remove the in-between? Mushky shares the story of her long-standing fear of dogs and how that fear gradually softened over several years, primarily through experiences with psychedelics that changed how her body related to what once felt threatening. From there the conversation opens into a larger exploration of presence, pain, and the difference between trying to get rid of discomfort and learning how to be with it. More than anything, this episode explores a deeper possibility: that much of what we call healing may simply be learning how to stay with what is already here.

In this episode of Talk to Me, Baby we sit with what came up for us after an extended family vacation. Nothing dramatic happened. But slowing down created space—and in that space, familiar patterns showed themselves. We talk about meaning and purpose, about what it’s like to feel disconnected from yourself when routine falls away. We talk about money and scarcity, and how easily reflection can turn into self-criticism or shame—how one small regret can start to feel like a verdict on our judgment, our worth, or our right to take up space. We notice how the mind spirals, how perfectionism often disguises itself as honesty, and how quickly we can go to the worst places when we feel we’ve made a mistake. We explore the different ways masculine and feminine energies meet emptiness, slowness, and falling short. This isn’t a conversation about fixing anything. It’s about staying present with what arises—about learning to sit with imperfection without turning it into a story about failure. There’s no clean resolution here. Just the two of us noticing what came up, naming it together, and choosing not to look away.

In this episode, we sit down for an unscripted conversation about desire, fear, and what happens inside a marriage when one person asks for more—and the other isn’t sure they can give it. We talk honestly about how vulnerable it is to name a desire without knowing what will happen next, and how easily fear turns into self-blame, shame, or the urge to shut things down. We explore the tension between wanting to meet each other and honoring our own limits, and how hard it can be to sit with the possibility of disappointing someone you love. The conversation opens into a deeper reflection on asking itself—why it’s so difficult, how often we silence our desires before they’re ever spoken, and how simply naming what we want can shift a relationship even when nothing practical changes right away. We talk about embodiment, anxiety, surrender, and the invisible work that happens beneath the surface of growth. This episode doesn’t offer solutions or advice. It stays inside the lived experience of navigating intimacy in real time—imperfectly, honestly, and with care. It’s a conversation about marriage, but also about life: how desire moves, how fear protects, and what becomes possible when something real is finally allowed to be spoken out loud.

In this episode of Talk to Me, Baby, we talk about what it was actually like inside the early years of our marriage—late nights, emotional spirals, shutdown, exhaustion, and the endless effort to get each other to understand what was really happening between us. This conversation moves through shame, protection, escalation, and withdrawal. We talk about what it felt like on both sides: the desperation of trying to be seen, and the impotence of trying but feeling like nothing you do actually lands. We name the silent contracts we made to avoid setting off emotional landmines, and how that avoidance slowly cost each of us our self. As we keep talking, marriage itself comes into view—not as romance or compatibility, but as a portal. A place that exposes everything that’s hidden. A place where identities dissolve and we begin to meet who we actually are. Some of what we explore together: • The difference between being clear and trying to be understood • How shame shaped our reactions long before we could name it • Why calmness can feel like abandonment • How couples learn to tiptoe around pain instead of meeting it • The exhaustion of managing perception instead of telling the truth • Identity versus essence—and what marriage dismantles over time • Why what we tried to bury kept detonating anyway

In our debut episode of Talk to Me, Baby, we sit down on the couch in the Healing Cabin and talk—honestly and unscripted—about resistance. What begins as a conversation about the friction of recording a podcast opens into something deeper: how we tell the difference between resistance that’s a signal to stop and resistance that’s an invitation to grow. Together, we explore the tension between forcing and avoiding, effort and surrender, alignment and discomfort. We reflect on resistance as an inherent part of expansion—whether in relationship, spiritual life, creative work, or personal healing. Drawing on our lived experience, shared language, and embodied insight, we explore ideas like: Why resistance often shows up around the things that matter mostHow irritation, friction, and discomfort don’t necessarily mean something is wrongThe difference between forcing something and staying present with difficultyResistance as the “pullback” that allows forward motionGrowth not as a reward for enduring resistance, but as something that emerges through itFaith, prayer, and the question of when asking for relief may interrupt a deeper process Rather than offering answers or conclusions, this episode models the act of staying in the conversation—listening, questioning, and allowing insight to unfold in real time.