Advertise on podcast: recovered-ish with chloe cox

Episode Description Audio only this week — my phone broke, so no video version. Our first real mini-sode. This one came out of a conversation with my Quasi-Recovery Exit alumni group about why rest is so uncomfortable for so many of us in recovery. If you feel like you have to earn your rest the same way you once felt you had to earn your food — that's not a coincidence. I get into where that wiring comes from, what pushing past your limit is actually costing you, and the challenge I want to give you this week. In This Episode: Four days without a phone and what it woke me up toWhy rest feels unsafe when you've had an eating disorderThe transactional logic of earning rest — and why it mirrors earning foodEffort and ease, and why it was never meant to be one or the otherWhat pushing past your limit actually takes from you, even when it doesn't feel like itWhy challenging rest works the same way as challenging a fear foodWhy we're hardwired for joy, and what it means that we treat it as optionalWhat I'm making peace with going into maternity leaveYour challenge this week: do the enjoyable thing before you feel like you deserve itTimestamps: 0:00 Why this one is audio only  2:30 What four days without a phone did for me  3:30 Where this topic came from  4:30 Why rest is so hard in recovery  5:30 Earning rest the way you earned food  7:00 Effort and ease  8:30 Why rest makes effort feel better  9:30 The episode I didn't record last week  11:00 What pushing past your limit costs you  13:00 How to actually practice resting  14:30 Why joy isn't optional  15:30 Making peace with maternity leave  17:00 Your challenge this week Resources + Connect with Me: The Quasi-Recovery Exit — next cohort early 2027: https://recover-with-chloe.moxieapp.com/public/quasi-recovery-exit-applicationRecovery Skills Training: https://www.recoverwithchloe.com/recovery-skills-trainingInstagram: @recoverwithchloeLeave a 5-star review on Spotify or Apple PodcastsSubscribe on YouTubeKeywords/Tags: rest in eating disorder recovery, earning rest, productivity and eating disorders, perfectionism recovery, slowing down, hustle culture recovery, recovered-ish podcast, chloe cox, ED recovery podcast Resources + Connect with Me: Instagram: @recoverwithchloeRecovery Skills Training: https://www.recoverwithchloe.com/recovery-skills-trainingLeave a 5-star review on Spotify or Apple PodcastsSubscribe on YouTube! Start therapy with me!

Episode Description I've been putting this episode off for months, honestly because I've been scared to record it. I'm about to have a daughter, and ending the cycle of eating disorders in my family is one of the most important things to me. In this one I'm sharing where my head is at — what I used to think I had to be for her, what I actually believe now, and the specific things I've decided about how I'll talk about bodies and food in our house. It's a shorter one. She could arrive any day! In This Episode: Why this feels different with a daughter, even though I want the same for my sonParenting a child with dietary restrictions when you have an eating disorder historyHow my eating disorder knowledge unexpectedly helps me keep my son safeWhy I no longer think I need to be perfectly recovered to raise a kid who isWhat I'll say instead on hard body image daysWhy I'm careful with positive body comments too — and what "you're so tiny" did to meHow I want to handle it when she's critical of her own bodyWhy "fat" is a descriptor in our house, not an insultWhat I've learned watching my sister parent her kidsThe blind spots I know I'm walking in withTimestamps: 0:00 Intro + 37 weeks and honoring my limits  1:30 Why I've been afraid to record this  2:30 My son, his condition, and food restrictions  3:30 When eating disorder knowledge becomes useful  6:00 Why this hits differently with a daughter  8:30 Identity outside the body as the real goal  10:30 Why I don't have to be perfectly recovered  13:30 What I'll say on hard body image days  15:30 Why I won't pretend I love my body all the time  17:30 Compliments, identity, and what I reflect back to her  19:00 The "you're so tiny" problem  20:30 Fat as a descriptor  22:30 What I've learned from my sister  25:00 Beginner's mind and the blind spots I know I have Resources + Connect with Me: Recovery Skills Training: https://www.recoverwithchloe.com/recovery-skills-trainingInstagram: @recoverwithchloe — baby and maternity leave updates hereLeave a 5-star review on Spotify or Apple PodcastsSubscribe on YouTubeKeywords/Tags: raising a daughter eating disorder, breaking the cycle, parenting after an eating disorder, body image and kids, intuitive eating kids, girl mom eating disorder, recovered-ish podcast, chloe cox, ED recovery podcast Resources + Connect with Me: Instagram: @recoverwithchloeRecovery Skills Training: https://www.recoverwithchloe.com/recovery-skills-trainingLeave a 5-star review on Spotify or Apple PodcastsSubscribe on YouTube! Start therapy with me!

Episode Description Almost twelve years into recovery, and a lot of what I once held as non-negotiable has shifted. Some of it through my own healing, some of it through years of sitting across from clients. In this episode I'm walking through six things I used to believe about eating disorder recovery and now think differently about: exercise, being "recovered," harm reduction, intuitive eating, recovery content, and keeping it all private. Some of these might surprise you. You might disagree with some of them. That's okay. You're allowed to change your mind too. In This Episode: Why I no longer think exercise has to be 100% off the table for everyone, and the nuance that mattersYoga, embodiment, and reconnecting with your bodyWhy "recovered" as a finish line bred perfectionism and hopelessness for meWhy I believe in harm reduction, even though some clinicians don'tWhy intuitive eating is a great goal and a hard place to startWhat I've come to believe about recovery content, including my ownWhy I stopped keeping my eating disorder privateA season 2 preview, plus what maternity leave will look like for the showTimestamps: 0:00 Intro + season 2 guest ideas  1:30 Maternity leave and cocooning  3:30 Today's topic: what I've changed my mind on  6:00 #1: Exercise in recovery  12:45 #2: "Recovered" as a destination  17:45 #3: Harm reduction  21:30 #4: Intuitive eating  25:45 #5: Recovery content and influencers  30:15 #6: Keeping my eating disorder private  35:30 Closing thoughts Resources: Intuitive Eating by Evelyn Tribole & Elyse Resch: https://www.intuitiveeating.org/Recovery Skills Training: https://www.recoverwithchloe.com/recovery-skills-trainingInstagram: @recoverwithchloeLeave a 5-star review on Spotify or Apple PodcastsSubscribe on YouTubeKeywords/Tags: eating disorder recovery, exercise in recovery, harm reduction eating disorders, intuitive eating recovery, recovery influencers, recovered vs recovered-ish, ED therapist, recovered-ish podcast, chloe cox Resources + Connect with Me: Instagram: @recoverwithchloeRecovery Skills Training: https://www.recoverwithchloe.com/recovery-skills-trainingLeave a 5-star review on Spotify or Apple PodcastsSubscribe on YouTube! Start therapy with me!

Episode Description We talk about eating disorders in labs and vitals and weight. But when I look back at mine, the physical stuff was never the thing that woke me up. What actually got me was everything else it took — the dinners I sat through without being there, the party I ran away from, the year in New York where I never once let myself have a bagel, the photo of my nana and my sisters that I'm not in. In this episode I walk through those moments honestly. And then I tell you what each one looks like now, twelve years later. Because I got all of it back. In This Episode: Why we measure eating disorders by the wrong thingsMy sister's 21st birthday and the cup of minestrone soupWhy that night was about depression more than foodThe opening night party I ran from in the middle ofThe dinner my dad made — and the moment I still think aboutA year in New York and a list of restaurants I never walked intoThe ice cream photo I'm not in, and why it matters more nowWhat every one of those moments looks like todayWhy the real cost isn't physical — and what that means for how you decide to recoverTimestamps: 0:00 Intro + the free class and RST launch  3:00 Why this episode — the post that hit a nerve  4:30 Why we focus on the physical and miss the rest  8:00 My sister's 21st birthday  14:00 What that same restaurant looks like now  16:00 Opening night — the party I ran from  22:00 Weddings, events, and where I am with that now  25:00 The dinner my dad made  31:00 Sunday family dinners now  32:00 New York, bagels, and the list I never used  36:00 Going back and doing it differently  38:00 Hawaii, my nana, and the picture I'm not in  42:00 Why I say yes to photos now  43:00 What the eating disorder is taking from you right now Resources + Connect with Me: Recovery Skills Training — doors open, lifetime access: https://www.recoverwithchloe.com/recovery-skills-trainingInstagram: @recoverwithchloeLeave a 5-star review on Spotify or Apple PodcastsSubscribe on YouTubeKeywords/Tags: what eating disorders cost you, eating disorder recovery, life after eating disorder, missing out eating disorder, recovery motivation, eating disorder and family, recovered-ish podcast, chloe cox, ED recovery podcast Resources + Connect with Me: Instagram: @recoverwithchloeRecovery Skills Training: https://www.recoverwithchloe.com/recovery-skills-trainingLeave a 5-star review on Spotify or Apple PodcastsSubscribe on YouTube! Start therapy with me!

Episode Description Almost twelve years into recovery and body image is still hard for me sometimes. Pregnancy has made it harder. In this episode I'm getting honest about where I actually am with it — and why "just be grateful for your body" has never been the thing that helps. I walk through a session of my own EMDR therapy, tracing my body image back to a memory from when I was about seven, and what came up that finally shifted something. Spoiler: it wasn't self-love. It was anger — pointed at the right thing. In This Episode: Why body image is often the last piece to shift in recoveryWhat body dysmorphia actually feels like from the inside — and why "uncomfortable" doesn't cover itWhy "be grateful for what your body can do" falls flat, and who it leaves outHolding gratitude and distress at the same timeWhat EMDR is and why I got trained in it for eating disorder workThe memory I traced my body image back to — and what came up when I processed itWhy anger turned out to be the most useful emotion in this workWhy your body is the least interesting thing about you (and why I won't soften that)What to do if you can't connect to your own worth yetTimestamps: 0:00 Intro + the September 15th class 2:30 Today's topic — body image 4:00 Why body image is the last piece to go 6:00 What body dysmorphia actually feels like 9:00 Why "just be grateful" falls flat 13:00 Holding gratitude and distress at once 15:00 Where I'm at with body image right now 16:00 What EMDR is and why I use it 19:00 My own session — tracing it back to age seven 22:00 What came up when I processed it 27:00 Anger as the thing that actually moved the needle 24:00 Your body is the least interesting thing about you 29:00 Looking back at the kid you were 31:00 The recipe — anger plus authentic connection to worth 33:00 Closing thoughts Resources + Connect with Me: 🎓 FREE class September 15th — register and get the workbook right away: https://recover-with-chloe.myflodesk.com/masterclassInstagram: @recoverwithchloeLeave a 5-star review on Spotify or Apple PodcastsSubscribe on YouTubeKeywords/Tags: body image eating disorder recovery, EMDR eating disorders, body dysmorphia, body neutrality, body image anger, what helps body image, recovered-ish podcast, chloe cox, ED recovery podcast, eating disorder therapist Resources + Connect with Me: Instagram: @recoverwithchloeRecovery Skills Training: https://www.recoverwithchloe.com/recovery-skills-trainingLeave a 5-star review on Spotify or Apple PodcastsSubscribe on YouTube! Start therapy with me!

Episode Description Part three — the final installment of the listener Q&A before I head out on maternity leave. This one covers the long game of recovery: whether it's possible after decades, whether you'll always live with it in some capacity, relapse guilt, missing the control the eating disorder gave you, the physical side effects nobody warns you about, and how you actually know when you're recovered. In This Episode: Is recovery possible after decades of an eating disorder?Why hope matters more than almost anything else — and how to find it when you have noneThe access and privilege barriers nobody names honestlyWill you always live with an eating disorder in some capacity? My honest, slightly controversial take"I relapsed and part of me likes it" — why that's more common than you thinkWhat to do when you still want the control the rules gave youAmenorrhea — getting your cycle back and why it takes longer than you expectWhy you can't sleep in early recoveryWhen did I feel recovered? Gradual or a switch?Breaking the perfectionist mindset in recoveryBuilding self-esteem when you don't feel deserving of careHow I handle public conversations about eating disorders and bodiesAnd a fun one — baby name hintsTimestamps: 0:00 Intro + maternity leave countdown 2:30 The long game — recovery over years and decades 3:30 Is recovery possible after decades? 5:00 Access, privilege, and the barriers nobody names 7:00 Why hope is the biggest factor 9:30 Will you always live with it in some capacity? 14:00 "I relapsed and part of me likes it" 16:00 When you still want the control the rules gave you 19:00 Amenorrhea and getting your cycle back 22:00 Why you can't sleep in early recovery 25:00 When did I feel recovered? 27:00 Perfectionism in recovery 29:30 Building self-esteem when you don't feel deserving 32:00 Public conversations about eating disorders and bodies 35:00 Baby name hints 37:00 Closing thoughts Resources + Connect with Me: 🎓 FREE masterclass — September 15th. Register now and get the workbook immediately: https://recover-with-chloe.myflodesk.com/masterclassInstagram: @recoverwithchloeLeave a 5-star review on Spotify or Apple PodcastsSubscribe on YouTubeKeywords/Tags: recovery after decades, relapse guilt, eating disorder control, amenorrhea recovery, perfectionism in recovery, when do you feel recovered, ED recovery Q&A, recovered-ish podcast, chloe cox, ED recovery podcast Resources + Connect with Me: Instagram: @recoverwithchloeRecovery Skills Training: https://www.recoverwithchloe.com/recovery-skills-trainingLeave a 5-star review on Spotify or Apple PodcastsSubscribe on YouTube! Start therapy with me!

Episode Description Part two of the listener Q&A. You sent in your questions and I'm answering them honestly. This one covers body image and worth, food guilt, figuring out whether a decision is coming from you or the eating disorder, navigating friends who say triggering things, opening up to people you've hidden this from, and what to do if a treatment team isn't accessible to you. In This Episode: How to actually detach your worth from your body — and why de-centering works better than arguing with yourselfWhat to do when your body recovers faster than your mindGetting comfortable not knowing your weightCoping with guilt after eating something you've labeled "unhealthy"How to tell if a decision is yours or the eating disorder's — a values exerciseWhy you don't have to fight the ED voice when you're exhaustedHow I realized my eating habits were actually an eating disorderThe eating disorder as your "new boyfriend" — how that dynamic worksWhat to do when friends say triggering things around foodHow and why to open up to people you've hidden this fromMaking the most of residential treatmentTop tips for recovering when a treatment team isn't accessibleDo you need a formal diagnosis?Timestamps: 0:00 Intro + Quasi-Recovery Exit update 3:00 Q&A part two begins — body image theme 3:30 Detaching your value from your body 7:00 When your body recovers faster than your mind 11:00 Getting comfortable not knowing your weight 13:00 Food guilt and the "unhealthy" label 16:00 The ED voice — who's actually making the decisions? 17:00 The values exercise 20:00 What to do when you're too exhausted to fight the voice 22:00 How I realized it was actually an eating disorder 24:00 The eating disorder as your new boyfriend 28:00 When friends say triggering things around food 32:00 Family and friends who get mad at your behaviors 35:00 Opening up after years of hiding it 38:00 Making the most of residential treatment 42:00 Recovering without a treatment team 45:00 First therapy session — what do you even say? 46:00 Asking your dietician for food tracking 48:00 Do you need a formal diagnosis? Resources Mentioned: The Eight Keys to RecoveryEating in the Light of the MoonLife Without EdIntuitive EatingANAD — free online support groupsRecovery Record appResources + Connect with Me: Recovery Skills Training: https://recoverwithchloe.thrivecart.com/recovery-skills-training/Instagram: @recoverwithchloeLeave a 5-star review on Spotify or Apple PodcastsSubscribe on YouTubeKeywords/Tags: food guilt eating disorder, triggering friends recovery, recovering without treatment, ED recovery Q&A, body image worth, eating disorder voice, residential treatment, recovered-ish podcast, chloe cox, ED recovery podcast Resources + Connect with Me: Instagram: @recoverwithchloeRecovery Skills Training: https://www.recoverwithchloe.com/recovery-skills-trainingLeave a 5-star review on Spotify or Apple PodcastsSubscribe on YouTube! Start therapy with me!

Episode Description This is a replay of one of the most-listened-to episodes of recovered-ish. I'm taking the week off to prep for maternity leave, so no new episode this week — but this one is worth revisiting, especially if you're new here. One of the most common questions I get — from clients, from Instagram, from people deep in the trenches of recovery — is this: does the eating disorder voice ever actually go away? In this episode, I get honest about my own experience with the ED voice: what it sounded like at its worst, how it shifted through different stages of recovery, and where it lives now (spoiler: it's a lot more like an intrusive thought about tap dancing in a grocery store than a voice running my life). This isn't a tidy yes-or-no answer, because recovery isn't tidy. But it is a real one — and one I don't think the internet talks about honestly enough. In This Episode: What the eating disorder voice actually is — and why it feels like a separate voice in your headEgo syntonic vs. ego dystonic thinking, and why that shift matters in recoveryMy personal experience with the ED voice from its loudest point to where it lives nowWhy the voice often gets louder when you start recoveringThe beach ball analogy — why trying to "shut up" the ED voice backfiresWhat actually moves the needle: building your own voice, not silencing theirsWhy "if I can't fully recover, why even try?" is one of the most dangerous traps in recoveryPractical tools for when the voice feels all-consumingTimestamps: 0:44 Intro & life update  3:22 Episode topic intro: the eating disorder voice question  7:19 What is the "eating disorder voice"?  10:56 Who asks this & why  13:39 My personal experience: the voice at its worst  14:38 Do I still have disordered thoughts? My honest answer  20:42 How I got to where I am today  28:06 The beach ball metaphor: giving the voice less space  32:24 My answer: yes and no  36:54 Practical tips if the voice is all-consuming  40:03 Outro Practical Tools Mentioned: Name it: label thoughts as "eating disorder thoughts" without immediately fighting themHear it, don't obey it: acknowledge the ED voice and give yourself permission to have a different opinionIdentify the feeling underneath: fear, panic, sadness — and ask what you need that isn't a behaviorThe "noise" technique: when all else fails, say it out loud — noise, noise, noiseResources + Connect with Me: Recovery Skills Training: https://recoverwithchloe.thrivecart.com/recovery-skills-training/Instagram: @recoverwithchloeLeave a 5-star review on Spotify or Apple PodcastsSubscribe on YouTubeKeywords/Tags: eating disorder voice, does the ED voice go away, eating disorder recovery, quasi-recovery, ED voice recovery, recovered-ish podcast, chloe cox, ED recovery podcast, eating disorder therapist, recovery tools, ego syntonic, ego dystonic Resources + Connect with Me: Instagram: @recoverwithchloeRecovery Skills Training: https://www.recoverwithchloe.com/recovery-skills-trainingLeave a 5-star review on Spotify or Apple PodcastsSubscribe on YouTube! Start therapy with me!

Episode Description You sent in your questions and I'm answering them — honestly.  This is part one of a two-part listener Q&A covering some of the most common and most loaded questions I get about eating disorder recovery. We're getting into ambivalence, finding your why, the "not sick enough" myth, comparison, extreme hunger, lost hunger cues, and how to sit with the panic that comes from increasing intake. In This Episode: "I want to want recovery but I don't" — what to do with thatWhy you don't need a strong why to start recoveryWill it ever feel like the right time to choose recovery?Am I sick enough? Does hospitalization determine validity?Is this recovery or just restricting in better packaging?Comparison in eating disorders — why it's never a fair fightWhy it's not about the food but eating the food is still so hardHow to order at a restaurant when calories are on the menuDoes extreme hunger really exist — or is it an excuse to binge?What to do when you've lost your hunger cues entirelyHow to sit with the panic that comes from increasing intakeTimestamps: 0:00 Intro — YouTube subscriber goal 2:00 Today's episode — listener Q&A part one 3:00 Ambivalence — wanting to want recovery 6:00 The stages of change and where you might be 7:00 Finding your why — what if you don't have one? 10:00 Calculated risk — why you can't wait to feel ready 12:00 Will it ever feel like the right time? 13:00 How to actually commit to recovery 14:00 Am I sick enough? Does hospitalization determine validity? 17:00 High-functioning and still severely struggling 19:00 Is this recovery or restricting in better packaging? 21:00 Needing the disorder to feel special 23:00 Comparison in eating disorders 26:00 Why it's not about the food — but eating the food is still hard 28:00 Ordering at restaurants with calories on the menu 30:00 Does extreme hunger really exist? 36:00 Lost your hunger cues — the friend analogy 39:00 Sitting with panic after increasing intake 42:00 Closing thoughts — part two next week Resources + Connect with Me: Recovery Skills Training: https://recoverwithchloe.thrivecart.com/recovery-skills-training/ code: PODCAST for $57 offInstagram: @recoverwithchloeLeave a 5-star review on Spotify or Apple PodcastsSubscribe on YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/@recoverwithchloeKeywords/Tags: not sick enough eating disorder, extreme hunger recovery, finding your why in ED recovery, eating disorder Q&A, am I sick enough, comparison eating disorder, hunger cues eating disorder, recovered-ish podcast, chloe cox, ED recovery podcast Resources + Connect with Me: Instagram: @recoverwithchloeRecovery Skills Training: https://www.recoverwithchloe.com/recovery-skills-trainingLeave a 5-star review on Spotify or Apple PodcastsSubscribe on YouTube! Start therapy with me!

Episode Description If you've been doing all the things — therapy, dietician, meal plan — and still feel like you're spinning your wheels, this episode is for you. In this episode I'm sharing a practical, honest list of things to try when eating disorder recovery feels stuck. These are the gaps I've seen in standard treatment models, the things that have made the biggest difference for my clients and for me, and the approaches that might breathe some new life into your recovery if you're hitting a wall. In This Episode: Why recovering towards something — not just away from the ED — changes everythingEMDR therapy and trauma — and why addressing the root might be the missing pieceWhen to consider changing or adding to your treatment teamGetting assessed for neurodivergence, OCPD, or OCD — and why it mattersThe "acting as if" technique — and why fake it till you make it actually worksAuditing the information faucets in your life — what's helping and what's feeding the disorderReducing decision fatigue around food — and why surrendering control is actually strengthTimestamps: 0:00 Intro — burnout, pregnancy fatigue, and why I almost quit  5:00 Today's topic — what to try when recovery feels stuck  7:00 Recover towards something — adding non-recovery goals  11:00 EMDR therapy and complex trauma in eating disorders  17:00 When to change or add to your treatment team  21:00 Coaching as an addition to therapy  23:00 Getting assessed — neurodivergence, OCPD, OCD  28:00 The "acting as if" technique  31:00 Auditing your information faucets  34:00 Reducing decision fatigue — surrendering control is strength  38:00 Closing thoughts + availability for EMDR and coaching Resources + Connect with Me: Recovery Skills Training: https://recoverwithchloe.thrivecart.com/recovery-skills-training/One-on-one coaching intensives — 2 spots left before maternity leave: https://recover-with-chloe.moxieapp.com/public/recover-with-chloe-coaching-applicationEMDR therapy in California — reach out: https://www.socalwellnessgroup.co/contactInstagram: @recoverwithchloeLeave a 5-star review on Spotify or Apple PodcastsSubscribe on YouTubeKeywords/Tags: stuck in eating disorder recovery, ED recovery plateau, EMDR eating disorders, eating disorder treatment options, neurodivergence and eating disorders, OCPD eating disorder, recovered-ish podcast, chloe cox, ED recovery podcast Resources + Connect with Me: Instagram: @recoverwithchloeRecovery Skills Training: https://www.recoverwithchloe.com/recovery-skills-trainingLeave a 5-star review on Spotify or Apple PodcastsSubscribe on YouTube! Start therapy with me!

Episode Description Nobody talks about this part. But it's real, it's common, and it doesn't mean you're doing recovery wrong. In this episode I'm getting into what it actually means when you miss your eating disorder — why it happens, why it makes complete sense, and what to do with that feeling when it shows up. In This Episode: Why missing your eating disorder doesn't mean you want to go backWhat the eating disorder actually gave you — and why that's worth acknowledgingThe grief nobody warns you about in recoveryWhy recovery can feel worse than the disorder at certain stagesRomanticizing the sick body — why it happens and how to protect yourselfThe two-list journal exercise for holding a balanced perspectiveWhy grieving the eating disorder is actually a sign of recovery workingWhat you're actually missing — and how to find it elsewhereTimestamps: 0:00 Intro  2:00 Today's topic — missing your eating disorder  3:00 Why this feeling is so confusing and so common  5:00 What the eating disorder actually gave you  10:00 When recovery feels worse than the disorder  13:00 If you're in that space — keep going  15:00 How this is showing up for me in this pregnancy  18:00 Romanticizing the sick body  22:00 What you're actually missing  25:00 Practical steps  27:00 The two-list journal exercise  28:00 Letting yourself grieve it  31:00 Recovering towards something  33:00 Closing thoughts The Two-List Exercise: List 1: everything you miss about the eating disorder. List 2: everything it took from you. Try to make the second list longer. If you can't — bring it to therapy. Resources + Connect with Me: Recovery Skills Training + Summer Workshops — use code PODCAST57 for $57 off: https://recoverwithchloe.thrivecart.com/recovery-skills-training/Instagram: @recoverwithchloeLeave a 5-star review on Spotify or Apple PodcastsSubscribe on YouTubeKeywords/Tags: missing your eating disorder, ED recovery grief, eating disorder recovery emotions, romanticizing eating disorder, recovered-ish podcast, chloe cox, ED recovery podcast, grief in recovery Resources + Connect with Me: Instagram: @recoverwithchloeRecovery Skills Training: https://www.recoverwithchloe.com/recovery-skills-trainingLeave a 5-star review on Spotify or Apple PodcastsSubscribe on YouTube! Start therapy with me!

Episode Description This is the episode I've been asked for since the beginning of this podcast — and the one I never thought I'd actually record. Dating in eating disorder recovery is complicated in ways nobody really talks about. The body image stuff. The intimacy stuff. The validation-seeking that can look a lot like the disorder wearing a different mask. And eventually finding someone who makes you feel like a whole person. In this episode I'm sharing all of it — including things I've never told the internet before. In This Episode: Why the eating disorder became my "new boyfriend" after a breakupThe validation loop I fell into when I first started dating in recoveryWhat it felt like to show up in a recovered body — body checking, disconnection during intimacy, comparisonHow I finally flipped the script on datingHow I met my husband — including the text I sent trying to end it after date twoHow and when to tell someone about your eating disorder historyWhat to do when a partner's food behaviors are triggeringThe self-inquiry practice that helps when body image comes up in intimacyTimestamps: 0:00 Intro 4:00 Today's topic — dating and intimacy in ED recovery 5:00 My high school relationship and self-worth 8:00 The breakup that contributed to my ED escalating 10:00 What dating looked like when I was deep in my disorder 14:00 The validation loop of dating apps 17:00 How that loop mirrored the eating disorder 19:00 What it felt like to date in a recovered body 23:00 Realigning to values in dating 27:00 How I met my husband 29:00 Telling someone about your ED history 33:00 When a partner's food behaviors are triggering 36:00 What my husband did differently 41:00 Self-inquiry for body image in intimacy 44:00 Closing thoughts Resources + Connect with Me: Recovery Skills Training + Summer Workshops — use code PODCAST57 for $57 off: https://recoverwithchloe.thrivecart.com/recovery-skills-training/Instagram: @recoverwithchloeLeave a 5-star review on Spotify or Apple PodcastsSubscribe on YouTubeKeywords/Tags: dating in eating disorder recovery, intimacy and eating disorders, body image and dating, ED recovery relationships, telling a partner about eating disorder, recovered-ish podcast, chloe cox, ED recovery podcast Resources + Connect with Me: Instagram: @recoverwithchloeRecovery Skills Training: https://www.recoverwithchloe.com/recovery-skills-trainingLeave a 5-star review on Spotify or Apple PodcastsSubscribe on YouTube! Start therapy with me!

Episode Description This one was unplanned. My son was in the hospital, life threw a curveball, and I had twenty minutes between sessions to record something real. So that's what this is. In this episode I'm sharing something I've never talked about on the podcast before — and getting honest about what life after recovery actually looks like. Not the highlight reel. The real version, where hard things still happen and you have to figure out how to keep showing up anyway. This is a shorter one, but I think it might be one of the most honest episodes I've recorded. In This Episode: What I never expected about life after eating disorder recoverySomething personal I've never shared on the podcast beforeHow recovery showed up for me during one of the hardest seasons of my lifeWhy recovery doesn't mean life stops being hard — it just means you have something real to hold onto when it isWhat it actually looks like to choose yourself when everything is falling apartHow to hold two completely opposite feelings at once — and why that's actually the skillWhat recovery gives you that the eating disorder only promisedTimestamps: 0:00 Intro — a mini episode, recorded between sessions  2:00 Why this episode looks different this week  3:00 Something I've never shared on the podcast before  6:00 I thought the eating disorder was my big life battle. I was wrong.  8:00 How recovery showed up when life got really hard  12:00 What I did in the hospital cafeteria — and why it mattered  15:00 Recovery doesn't mean life stops being hard  17:00 What recovery actually gives you — control, safety, presence  19:00 How to hold hope and hardship at the same time  22:00 Closing thoughts — sending love to everyone doing this alongside hard things Quotes from This Episode: "Recovery doesn't mean everything in life is solved. It just means you are able to take care of yourself through it — and not compound the suffering that's just gonna be there because we're humans." "The eating disorder promises you control and peace and safety. Recovery actually puts you back in the driver's seat for all of those things." "There's gonna be hard times and there's gonna be good times. That's what it means to be a person." Resources + Connect with Me: Recovery Skills Training + Summer Workshops — use code PODCAST57 for $57 off: https://recoverwithchloe.thrivecart.com/recovery-skills-training/Instagram: @recoverwithchloeLeave a 5-star review on Spotify or Apple PodcastsSubscribe on YouTubeKeywords/Tags: life after eating disorder recovery, what recovery actually looks like, eating disorder recovery and hard times, recovered-ish podcast, chloe cox, ED recovery podcast, eating disorder therapist, holding hope in recovery, recovery and life challenges Resources + Connect with Me: Instagram: @recoverwithchloeRecovery Skills Training: https://www.recoverwithchloe.com/recovery-skills-trainingLeave a 5-star review on Spotify or Apple PodcastsSubscribe on YouTube! Start therapy with me!

Episode Description If you've ever thought "I can't do this anymore" or "I just want my life to stop being about recovery" — this episode is for you. In this episode I'm breaking down the difference between recovery burnout and actually outgrowing your eating disorder, because they can feel almost identical from the inside — and they require completely different responses. One is a sign that recovery is working. The other is a sign you need something different. Knowing which one you're in changes everything. In This Episode: Recovery burnout vs outgrowing your ED — and why they feel so similarSigns you're in recovery burnout — hopelessness, resentment, progress feeling too slowSigns you're actually ready to outgrow the eating disorderThe one question that tells you which phase you're inWhy burnout doesn't mean recovery isn't workingHow to push through without quitting or doubling down harderWhy diversifying your life is one of the best recovery toolsWhen to talk to your team before making any decisionsTimestamps: 0:00 Intro  3:00 Today's topic — recovery burnout  6:00 Recovery burnout vs outgrowing your ED  13:00 Signs you're in recovery burnout  18:00 What burnout is really asking for  19:00 Signs you're ready to outgrow the eating disorder  23:00 The donut story  26:00 The one question to ask yourself  28:00 What to do when you're in burnout  34:00 Recovery doesn't have to be your whole identity  36:00 Talk to your team before you quit  39:00 Closing thoughts Resources + Connect with Me: Recovery Skills Training + Summer Workshops — use code PODCAST for $57 off: https://recoverwithchloe.thrivecart.com/recovery-skills-training/Instagram: @recoverwithchloeLeave a 5-star review on Spotify or Apple PodcastsSubscribe on YouTubeKeywords/Tags: recovery burnout, treatment fatigue eating disorder, done with eating disorder recovery, ED recovery burnout, outgrowing eating disorder, recovered-ish podcast, chloe cox, ED recovery podcast Resources + Connect with Me: Instagram: @recoverwithchloeRecovery Skills Training: https://www.recoverwithchloe.com/recovery-skills-trainingLeave a 5-star review on Spotify or Apple PodcastsSubscribe on YouTube! Start therapy with me!

Episode Description You sent in your questions and I'm answering them — honestly, not clinically. This is the real-life picture, not the textbook one. In this episode I'm getting into some of the most common and most loaded questions I receive from people in eating disorder recovery — from whether to look at the scale in treatment, to what to say when someone comments on your weight, to how to stop feeling like you're faking it because you actually ate today. In This Episode: Should you look at the scale during treatment? My honest takeHow to respond when someone comments on your weight — practically and emotionallyHow to support a partner with an eating disorderThe earning mindset — what it is and how to break the loopThe hardest thing I had to change in recovery — and it wasn't the foodHow to grieve what the eating disorder took from youFeeling like an imposter because you ate — why your disorder is still realHow to handle friendships built around wellness cultureAdvice for someone one week into inpatient treatmentTimestamps: 0:00 Intro 3:00 Listener Q&A begins 5:00 Q1: Should you look at the scale during treatment? 15:00 Q2: How do you respond to weight comments? 21:00 Q3: How do I support my girlfriend with an eating disorder? 25:00 Q4: How do you get out of the earning mindset? 30:00 Q5: What was the hardest change in your ED recovery? 32:00 Q6: How do you grieve what the eating disorder took? 36:00 Q7: I feel like an imposter because I eat — am I faking it? 39:00 Q8: Food disagreements with my husband 40:00 Q9: Handling wellness-focused friendships in recovery 44:00 Q10: Advice for adjusting to inpatient 46:00 Closing thoughts Resources + Connect with Me: Recovery Skills Training + Summer Workshops — use code PODCAST57 for $57 off: https://recoverwithchloe.thrivecart.com/recovery-skills-training/Instagram: @recoverwithchloeLeave a 5-star review on Spotify or Apple PodcastsSubscribe on YouTubeKeywords/Tags: eating disorder recovery Q&A, should you look at the scale in recovery, how to respond to weight comments, earning mindset eating disorder, ED recovery imposter syndrome, eating disorder grief, inpatient treatment advice, recovered-ish podcast, chloe cox, ED recovery podcast Resources + Connect with Me: Instagram: @recoverwithchloeRecovery Skills Training: https://www.recoverwithchloe.com/recovery-skills-trainingLeave a 5-star review on Spotify or Apple PodcastsSubscribe on YouTube! Start therapy with me!