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Lauren Malloy was a baby when her mother, Lori, was murdered in East Providence, Rhode Island. For thirty years, no one told her. Everyone said Lori died of natural causes. Then a stranger sent Lauren a message — and the lie collapsed. Now Lauren is investigating her own mother’s murder. She’s recorded hundreds of hours of interviews with law enforcement, family, childhood friends, and people who won’t stop contradicting each other. Every answer opens a darker question. Every person she trusts seems to be hiding something. And the closer she gets to the truth, the more she realizes the people she trusts may be the ones with the most to hide. A 10-part true crime investigation hosted by the victim’s daughter. Lauren’s mission: to finally uncover the identity of Lori’s killer.  Audible subscribers can binge all 10 episodes early and ad-free right now. Join Audible in the Audible App or by subscribing on Apple Podcasts. Listen now: HERE  See Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

He's been described as the greatest living athlete you've never heard of, but once you hear it you'll never be able to forget Tommy Caldwell's story. In the early 2000s, Tommy was just a young climber on a trip when he and his friends were taken hostage. Then a household accident threatened to end his career forever. Tommy talks about putting his life back together, post traumatic growth, and chasing big dreams. LINKS! You can catch Tommy in action in The Dawn Wall and Free Solo You can also visit Tommy's website for more from the man himself. To read more about his experience in Kyrgyzstan, read his book, The Push

Lockey Maisonneuve calls herself the "Girl Raised by Wolves." She had abusive, neglectful parents and hated when people told her she couldn't heal until she forgave her abusers. She found healing through yoga and was able to release her pain, and now she teaches others. You can get a copy of her memoir wherever books are sold. LINKS! Learn more about using yoga to heal trauma Lockey mentioned Rainn.org - it's a great resource for survivors. Learn more about Lockey and her book "A Girl Raised By Wolves" on her website

In December 2017, Darrell "Diamond" Jones took his first breath as a free man in 32 years. In 1985, he was convicted of a crime he says he didn't commit. He could have pled guilty for a shorter sentence, but he refused to confess guilt for something he knows he didn't do. We talked to him about surviving a dangerous prison and committing his life to making sure other innocent men end up in jail like he did. LINKS! You wouldn't be hearing Darrell's story without reporting from WBUR and the New England Center for Investigative Reporting. Learn more about Not In My Name.

Stacy Seltzer had just married her husband, Jason, when something happened that set off a chain reaction that upturned her entire life: She got pregnant. That led to misdiagnoses, chronic pain, and a month-long stay in the hospital in July 2012. Finally one thing gave her some relief: The July Effect. The jury's still out on whether it's a myth, but what Stacy went through is very, very real. LINKS! Decide for yourself: July Effect, fact or fiction? Be your own health advocate!

Larry Ruhl was in his 20s when he started having flashbacks. Shadowy childhood memories re-emerged of his father, coming into his bedroom late at night. As he uncovered these painful thoughts he was also grappling with his sexuality. He’s here today to talk about the process of healing and how it’s something he works on every day. Larry was brave enough to step into the darkest parts of his life and find solace in sharing with other survivors. *Heads up - this episode mentions childhood sexual abuse and suicidal ideation.*

It’s been three years since Terra Newell was attacked at her apartment complex by John Meehan, and two years since her family’s ordeal was blasted into public consciousness through the hit podcast turned hit TV show, Dirty John. When the podcast ended, Terra was still healing. We caught up with her about her PTSD, her recovery, and why she decided to go public with her story. This is, I, Survivor.

Tracy Rowland's mother figured her daughter's Christmas Break home from college was the perfect time to schedule surgery. She wouldn't miss any class and be able to lay around and recover. Of course, that's not exactly what ended up happening. Tracy is here to tell us about a Christmas memory her family still talks about. And! It's the end of Season 1! From all of us here at I, Survivor we want to thank you SO much for listening. We'll be back for Season 2 in April.Happy Holidays!

David Crabb and his husband went to Newfoundland to spend Christmas with his mother in her new house. They landed in whiteout conditions, and the trip got worse from there. They escaped, and a few months later, so did his mother.

Chris Borland played professional football for the San Francisco 49ers and after a stellar rookie season left his pro career so he wouldn’t become a statistic! He’s since become an advocate for CTE and Traumatic Brain Injuries.

What happens to artists when they need to process? They create. Writer Paul Bianchi turned a childhood trauma into a performance piece and he came into the studio to share his story with us. Links from today’s episode! Paul’s podcast, MythunderstoodArt helps a lot of people process their trauma and may help you or someone you love!

Lacey Henderson survived a childhood cancer that had no survival rate, but losing a leg didn’t slow her down. Inspired by the classic film bring it on, she became a competitive cheerleader. Then, over a casual family game of beer pong, her Dad bet her she could never pole vault as an amputee. Not only did she fly, she became an Olympian! Ok, so there was a lot of training and other hard stuff that happened in between but it kinda feels like she was born for this.

When Rachel was in the Air Force, she was assaulted by a fellow airman. While initially praised for her bravery, she was punished when she spoke out. But Rachel left the skies for the seas, and found healing on her boat, Coconut, where she now lives. Isn't it annoying that the Air Force refuses to call members anything other than "airman" even when they're air women? And to all those who have served our country, we salute you.

When Consolee Nishimwe was 14, the Rwandan Genocide ripped her country and family apart. She hid out in bushes, attics, and she survived. She shared her story with us and inspired the hell out of us. The Rwandan Genocide is a big and terrible topic that we couldn’t fully explore in this episode, so do ya homework and learn more about it to fully appreciate Consolee’s journey.

When Michele Simms was 23 she met the man she married. He was a sociopath and she couldn't escape. It took a stay in a really unlikely place for her to find the strength she needed to get out. Reminder that mental illness is not your fault, nor is it a reflection of your value. Asking for help or taking medication to manage your symptoms is not weakness and admitting you are not okay is not a failure.