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October can be one of the hardest months of the year for survivors of ritual abuse and extreme trauma. As Halloween approaches, frightening decorations, disturbing images, and painful reminders can bring overwhelming memories andtriggers. In this episode of Only God Rescued Me, Lisa and Mango talk about why this season is so difficult for survivors and how we can support one another through it. Lisa shares practical ways to find calm, protect ourselves from triggers, and focus on the beauty God has placed around us. Through our daily October challenges, we're learning to reclaim a month that has held so much fear and pain. We don't have to let the darkness define this season. Each October can become another step toward healing. God is bigger than the darkness, and He has carried us through every October before. He will carry us through this one, too. Hang on. We're going to get through this together! ❤️ #OnlyGodRescuedMe #RitualAbuseSurvivors #TraumaRecovery #HealingFromTrauma#ChristianEncouragement #TakingBackOctober Only God Rescued Me:   Website: https://www.onlygodrescuedme.com/   Contact Lisa: [email protected]   To help support this podcast:   Become an OGRM Support Angel on YouTube ($4.99 per month): https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCXudcfKU-b6NtSQphUOstRA/join   Spotify Subscriber ($2.99 per month): https://creators.spotify.com/pod/profile/lisa-meister/subscribe   PayPal paypal.me/Lisa453 Venmo @lisameister4242 Square https://square.link/u/kQLAozvV Buy Me a Coffee https://buymeacoffee.com/onlygodrescuedme.com A Note from Lisa I come to these conversations as a survivor, advocate, author, and educator. I hold a bachelor’s degree in education, but I am not a licensed counselor or mental health professional. The conversations and information shared on Only God Rescued Me are intended to encourage, educate, and give survivors a place to tell their stories. They are not a substitute for professional counseling, medical care, or individualized mental health advice. My perspective is shaped by my own lived experience as a survivor and by what I have learned through listening to and walking alongside other survivors. I encourage each listener to make the choices that are right for their own healing and, when needed, to seek support from qualified professionals.

To understand the Cornell 7, we must first understand the dynamics of brotherhood within fraternity life. Loyalty, secrecy, allegiance, and the oathsof brotherhood are central to examining how the members responded to Jane Doeduring and after her reported rape. How could so many people know what was happening and yet fail to intervene or report it to the police? What happens when loyalty to the brotherhood becomes more important than protecting someone who has been harmed? These are questions that reach far beyond one fraternity. The dynamics of brotherhood are also central to understanding the experiences of ritual abuse survivors, whose voices this podcast is proud to amplify. To understand their stories, we must examine the systems of secrecy,loyalty, intimidation, and mutual protection that survivors describe within the groups that abused them. The Cornell 7 case offers a disturbing window into these dynamics. It is a microcosm of the kinds of closed systems that many ritual abuse survivors have spent years trying to expose. I encourage listeners to follow this case closely. Look beyond the actions of the individuals involved and examine the power of the group. Consider how allegiance is maintained, how silence is enforced, and how belonging to a brotherhood can provide protection and privilege at the expense of those whohave been harmed. These dynamics are not confined to fraternities. They can emerge wherever loyalty to a group is placed above accountability. Welcome to this week's episode of Only God Rescued Me. Only God Rescued Me:   Website: https://www.onlygodrescuedme.com/   Contact Lisa: [email protected]   To help support this podcast:   Become an OGRM Support Angel on YouTube ($4.99 per month): https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCXudcfKU-b6NtSQphUOstRA/join   Spotify Subscriber ($2.99 per month): https://creators.spotify.com/pod/profile/lisa-meister/subscribe   PayPal paypal.me/Lisa453 Venmo @lisameister4242 Square https://square.link/u/kQLAozvV Buy Me a Coffee https://buymeacoffee.com/onlygodrescuedme.com A Note from Lisa I come to these conversations as a survivor, advocate, author, and educator. I hold a bachelor’s degree in education, but I am not a licensed counselor or mental health professional. The conversations and information shared on Only God Rescued Me are intended to encourage, educate, and give survivors a place to tell their stories. They are not a substitute for professional counseling, medical care, or individualized mental health advice. My perspective is shaped by my own lived experience as a survivor and by what I have learned through listening to and walking alongside other survivors. I encourage each listener to make the choices that are right for their own healing and, when needed, to seek support from qualified professionals.

**October: Live It or Hate It?** October can be a difficult month for survivors. But this year, we're doing something different. We're choosing to LIVE! Only God Rescued Me is launching the **October Challenge** across our social media pages, and we'd love for you to join the fun! Join Lisa and her very opinionated feathered co-host, Mango, as they introduce simple, daily challenges designed to help us rediscover the joy in everyday living. It's time to make new memories, find little reasons to smile, and remember that there's still so much life waiting to be lived.**October isn't going to beat us this year. We're going to learn how to enjoy it—one little challenge at a time!** Come join us! Only God Rescued Me: Website: https://www.onlygodrescuedme.com/ Contact Lisa:[email protected] To help support this podcast: Become an OGRM Support Angel on YouTube ($4.99 per month): https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCXudcfKU-b6NtSQphUOstRA/join Spotify Subscriber ($2.99 per month): https://creators.spotify.com/pod/profile/lisa-meister/subscribe PayPal paypal.me/Lisa453 Venmo @lisameister4242 Square https://square.link/u/kQLAozvV Buy Me a Coffee https://buymeacoffee.com/onlygodrescuedme.com A Note from LisaI come to these conversations as a survivor, advocate, author, and educator. I hold a bachelor’s degree in education, but I am not a licensed counselor or mental health professional. The conversations and information shared on Only God Rescued Me are intended to encourage, educate, and give survivors a place to tell their stories. They are not a substitute for professional counseling, medical care, or individualized mental health advice. My perspective is shaped by my own lived experience as a survivor and by what I have learned through listening to and walking alongside other survivors. I encourage each listener to make the choices that are right for their own healing and, when needed, to seek support from qualified professionals.

“I want to be instrumental in bringing down the kingdom of evil and the secret combinations of the latter days.” This is the heart of Pam Bostwick. Through bravely sharing her story, writing books, and educating the public about the dangers of ritual abuse, Pam has refused to be silenced. Losing her eyesight at a young age didn’t cause her to cower. Instead, she learned to meet life head-on—courageously climbing trees and even roller-skating while blind. That same courage runs through her remarkable story. You will love Pam’s quiet strength as she shares a journey marked by heartache, forgiveness, mercy, and a deep love for God that carried her through it all. Join us for a powerful conversation with a woman who has faced tremendous darkness—and chose courage, compassion, and faith.   You can find Pam’s books on Amazon:   Trilogy: By M Martha Kendall Book 1: There Are No Secrets: PartI: The War https://amzn.to/4yeXJ7V Book 2: There Are No Secrets: PartII: The Victory https://amzn.to/4xLhMKa Book 3: There Are No Secrets: PartIII: Peace https://amzn.to/4yXI794   The Power of Faith, Pam Bostwick https://amzn.to/4hMXxHe   Only God Rescued Me:   Website: https://www.onlygodrescuedme.com/   Contact Lisa: [email protected]   To help support this podcast: Become an OGRM Support Angel on YouTube ($4.99 per month): https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCXudcfKU-b6NtSQphUOstRA/join   Spotify Subscriber ($2.99 per month): https://creators.spotify.com/pod/profile/lisa-meister/subscribe   PayPal paypal.me/Lisa453 Venmo @lisameister4242 Square https://square.link/u/kQLAozvV Buy Me a Coffee https://buymeacoffee.com/onlygodrescuedme.com A Note from Lisa I come to these conversations as a survivor, advocate, author, and educator. I hold a bachelor’s degree in education, but I am not a licensed counselor or mental health professional. The conversations and information shared on Only God Rescued Me are intended to encourage, educate, and give survivors a place to tell their stories. They are not a substitute for professional counseling, medical care, or individualized mental health advice. My perspective is shaped by my own lived experience as a survivor and by what I have learned through listening to and walking alongside other survivors. I encourage each listener to make the choices that are right for their own healing and, when needed, to seek support from qualified professionals.

From surviving silence to finding healing, Stephanie’s story is a powerful reminder that even the scariest threats don’t get the final word. As Stephanie began to disclose her abuse, she discovered disturbing ways her family had enabled it and helped keep it hidden. Even more difficult was realizing that the abuse wasn’t simply something no one talked about—peopleknew, and yet continued allowing those responsible into their home. From the very first memory, Stephanie found validation. As more memories surfaced, however, the story became darker and harder to understand. Her journey chronicles a growing awareness of what happened to her, the difficult work of accepting it, and the importance of the people who came alongside her along the way. Stephanie’s story is painful, complicated, and ultimately filled with hope. Join us for a powerful conversation with another courageous victor over organized abuse. Only God RescuedMe: Website: https://www.onlygodrescuedme.com/   Contact Lisa: [email protected]   To help support this podcast: Become an OGRM Support Angel on YouTube ($4.99 per month): https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCXudcfKU-b6NtSQphUOstRA/join   Spotify Subscriber ($2.99 per month): https://creators.spotify.com/pod/profile/lisa-meister/subscribe   PayPal paypal.me/Lisa453 Venmo @lisameister4242

You’ve heard me interview survivors. This time, I am the survivor being interviewed. My friend and co-host Kardia Joi turns the microphone around and asks me about my own story—where I came from, what I survived, and what healing has looked like along the way. In this conversation, I share parts of my story that I haven’t talked about publicly before. We get into some of the harder particulars, but we also talk about what it has meant to find my voice, wrestle with what happened, heal, and discover a life that is so much bigger than my past. There is something different about sitting in the survivor’s chair rather than the interviewer’s chair. Kardia asks thoughtful questions, gives me room to answer honestly, and walks with me through a conversation that is deeply personal. This time, you get to hear the story behind the woman who usually asks the questions. Join Kardia Joi and me for this special episode of the Only God Rescued Me Podcast.   Kardia Joi https://open.spotify.com/artist/26nfYblvXy3ruxooCv3j8K?si=ntw9hpoWTbiHWrJVo-Gryw Other Kardia Joi Episodes: “Child of My Dreams” https://open.spotify.com/track/5dkrPEPRRMLqIVJHIaDr2F?si=002861aedb66442c   “Discovering Faithfulness” https://open.spotify.com/track/0REcCTwTScMcOlMz1jjU5x?si=7ea53fc5bcb343b3   “I Am Not Alone” https://open.spotify.com/track/5F14AoD7q9w5h6Yzr2df4C?si=4fffc326937a44bf   “I Don’t Know How to Be” https://open.spotify.com/track/6Gf4rn2pMpt9PojHnOu0AM?si=6ab868f92a2f4b0b   "It Isn't Well" https://open.spotify.com/track/5rjjwuUOJu7pMTXWvM8VDM?si=a3f158e7012b4d03   Let's Get Unstuck, with Kardia Joi: https://youtu.be/yYka7ImvLOc   "Life to Me," with Kardia Joi https://open.spotify.com/track/6hA1rnF8ZiWF5BXPYwU0cA?si=2b7642f7f8a54979   "Love That Will Not Leave Me Blind"https://open.spotify.com/track/0oeJmmABDNoHesi3LRYZGn?si=a58d785f4f8942cf   “Meet Me Here” https://open.spotify.com/track/4lPajoxBMeJyigEVJll8bb?si=77b0a19b32d44819   “Pieces” https://open.spotify.com/track/69Os278hLX1OpCV2cKHSkv?si=54da4d0f61354721   “Small” https://open.spotify.com/album/2bUNIUkZjW5SkGMGbHTQE6?si=sTZru3bESf27IWiCjWmtzg   Healing Music with Kardia Joi: https://youtu.be/2jzDXEyZJqU   Only God Rescued Me: Website: https://www.onlygodrescuedme.com/   Contact Lisa: [email protected]   To help support this podcast: Become an OGRM Support Angel on YouTube ($4.99 per month): https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCXudcfKU-b6NtSQphUOstRA/join   Spotify Subscriber ($2.99 per month): https://creators.spotify.com/pod/profile/lisa-meister/subscribe   PayPal paypal.me/Lisa453 Venmo @lisameister4242 Square https://square.link/u/kQLAozvV Buy Me a Coffee https://buymeacoffee.com/onlygodrescuedme.com

What if we didn't have to be afraid of thoughts ofsuicide? What if, instead of running from them or feeling ashamedof them, we could gently explore what they are trying to tell us? Dr. Mark McNear joins us for a conversation thatsurvivors have needed for a long time. Together, we explore how suicidal thoughts often carry important emotional messages—not messages to act on, but messages to understand. When approached with compassion, curiosity, and truth, these thoughts can reveal deep pain, unmet needs, and burdens that have been carried for far too long. In this episode, Dr. Mark helps us learn how to hold these thoughts gently, untangle what they are communicating, quiet the inner critic, and recognize when we need the support of someone else to help us carry the weight. This is an important conversation for survivors, loved ones, and anyone who wants to better understand the complex reality of suicidal thoughts. Join us as we face this difficult topic head-on, remove the shame surrounding it, and discover that compassion can be a powerful step toward healing. Connect with Dr. Mark Website: traumameetsrecovery.com YouTube Channel: http://www.youtube.com/@TraumaMeetsRecoveryPodcast Book: Finding My Words: A Ruthless Commitment to HealingGently After Trauma  https://amzn.to/4xEWgXX   Listener Discretion & Disclaimer: We discusssensitive topics related to trauma and healing. Please practice self-care while listening and reach out to your support system if you feel triggered. Note that this podcast is intended for educational purposes only and does not replace the guidance of a licensed mental health professional.   Suicide Hotline: Call or text 988   Only God Rescued Me: Website: https://www.onlygodrescuedme.com/   Contact Lisa: [email protected]   To help support this podcast: Become an OGRM Support Angel on YouTube ($4.99 per month): https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCXudcfKU-b6NtSQphUOstRA/join Spotify Subscriber ($2.99 per month): https://creators.spotify.com/pod/profile/lisa-meister/subscribe PayPal paypal.me/Lisa453 Venmo @lisameister4242 Square https://square.link/u/kQLAozvV Buy Me a Coffee https://buymeacoffee.com/onlygodrescuedme.com

The Anonymous Italian returns to the Only God RescuedMe Podcast to discuss an important topic: the differences between how men and women often experience healing. In conversations with Anonymous, I became aware that this platform has naturally been geared more toward women. I want to acknowledge that oversight and apologize to the men who may have felt underrepresented. Going forward, Ihope to bring more balance through future interviews, conversations, and memes that speak to the unique experiences of male survivors. In today's episode, we explore what healing can look like for men and why understanding those differences matters to our community. We also discuss why many men are less likely to share their stories—whether publicly or privately—and some of the challenges that contribute to that silence. While Anonymous speaks from his own lived experience, his insights invite all of us to listen with curiosity, compassion, and a willingness to better understand the healing journey of the men among us. Only God Rescued Me:  Website: https://www.onlygodrescuedme.com/  Contact Lisa: [email protected]   To help support this podcast:   Become an OGRM Support Angel on YouTube ($4.99 per month): https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCXudcfKU-b6NtSQphUOstRA/join Spotify Subscriber ($2.99 per month): https://creators.spotify.com/pod/profile/lisa-meister/subscribe PayPal @Lisa453 Venmo @lisameister4242 Square https://square.link/u/kQLAozvV Buy Me a Coffee https://buymeacoffee.com/onlygodrescuedme.com

What if one of the greatest obstacles to your healing isn't whathappened to you—but the shame you were left carrying? Shame is one of the enemy's most powerful weapons against survivors. It convinces us we are damaged, dirty, or beyond hope. But shame is a lie. In this powerful interview, Rebecca Davis helps us understand what shame really is, how to recognize it in our lives, and how to begin releasing the burden we were never meant to bear. Together we explore life-changing truths: ·       Shame is not your identity. ·       Shame belongs on the abusers—not on the survivor. ·       Shame was never yours to carry. If shame has kept you silent, isolated, or feeling unworthy of love, this conversation offers both understanding and hope. Freedom begins when we recognize the lies shame has told us and embrace the truth of who we are. Join us for this important discussion and take another step on the journey from shame to freedom. Only God Rescued Me: Website: https://www.onlygodrescuedme.com/   Contact Lisa: [email protected]   To help support this podcast:   Become an OGRM Support Angel on YouTube ($4.99 per month): https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCXudcfKU-b6NtSQphUOstRA/join Spotify Subscriber ($2.99 per month): https://creators.spotify.com/pod/profile/lisa-meister/subscribe

SA and SRA can leave survivors with long-term gynecological conditions that are often surrounded by deep shame. That shame can become so overwhelming that many survivors feel unable to ask questions, seek medical care, or even talk about what they are experiencing.Today, Dr. Claire Robertson Taylor joins us to help remove that shame and place it back where it belongs—on the abusers. Together, we explore difficult but important questions, offering understanding, validation, and practical information for survivors navigating these lasting effects.Content Warning: This is a highly triggering interview. Please take care of yourself as you listen. Go slowly, pause when needed, and return only when you feel ready.Disclaimer: This episode is for educational and informational purposes only and is not intended to provide medical or mental health advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare professional regarding your individual circumstances.

What if everything you believed about one man's childhood sounded too unbelievable to be true? Today we proudly bring you the story of a male survivor. Male survivor stories have been rare on this channel, making this interview all the more important. In this powerful conversation, Anonymous Italian shares a life that seems almost impossible to comprehend. He grew up in a town where spies, Nazis, Russians, the military, and the mob all intersected. His uncle had connections to Nazis and Operation Paperclip, while his father was a low-ranking member of the mob. Although his Catholic mother came from a loving Italian family, she placed him in an Episcopal church where he says he became part of Project Artichoke. For years, he struggled to understand the fragments of his past. When he finally confronted his mother as an adult about the sexual abuse he endured, her response was one of anger, telling him never to speak of it again. This interview follows Anonymous Italian as he pieces together a life filled with secrets, trauma, and unanswered questions. Whether you're a survivor, a helper, or simply seeking to understand the complexities of trauma, this conversation offers a remarkable look at one man's journey to make sense of the unimaginable. Thank you for joining us. If this interview is meaningful to you, please consider subscribing, sharing it with others, and leaving a respectful comment below. Only God Rescued Me exists to give survivors a voice, educate helpers, and point people toward hope and healing through Christ. Only God Rescued Me: Website:https://www.onlygodrescuedme.com/ Contact Lisa:[email protected] To help support this podcast: Become an OGRM Support Angel on YouTube ($4.99 per month): https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCXudcfKU-b6NtSQphUOstRA/join Spotify Subscriber ($2.99 per month): https://creators.spotify.com/pod/profile/lisa-meister/subscribe PayPal @Lisa453 Venmo @lisameister4242 Square https://square.link/u/kQLAozvV Buy Me a Coffee https://buymeacoffee.com/onlygodrescuedme.com

Trust, it's a hard concept for survivors when it comes to God, yet so essential. Today we dive into what trust is and how we can begin to approach trusting God when everything inside us says not to. Only God Rescued Me:Website:https://www.onlygodrescuedme.com/Contact Lisa:[email protected] help support this podcast: Become an OGRM Support Angel on YouTube ($4.99 per month): https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCXudcfKU-b6NtSQphUOstRA/joinSpotify Subscriber ($2.99 per month): https://creators.spotify.com/pod/profile/lisa-meister/subscribePayPal @Lisa453Venmo @lisameister4242 Square https://square.link/u/kQLAozvVBuy Me a Coffee https://buymeacoffee.com/onlygodrescuedme.com

Welcome to the Gillard Trilogy! In this series, Lisa Gillard invites us into the everyday reality of life as a survivor. Together, we explore flashbacks, triggers, chronic health issues, family relationships, navigating the mental health community, malevolence, crime, justice, healing, and what it takes to weave all of those experiences into a meaningful life. This interview is especially important for helpers who want a clearer picture of what survivors live with day after day. It is also an opportunity for survivors to recognize their own experiences in someone else's story and discover that they are not alone. Through honesty, wisdom, and hard-won insight, Lisa helps bridge the gap between surviving and understanding. For her original podcast with all her story, you can catch it here: https://youtu.be/Hl11aBj5hoE https://youtu.be/VR3c_jcrEXk https://youtu.be/68yEznP15Nk Only God Rescued Me: Website: https://www.onlygodrescuedme.com/ Contact Lisa: [email protected] To help support this podcast: Become an OGRM Support Angel on YouTube ($4.99 per month): https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCXudcfKU-b6NtSQphUOstRA/join Spotify Subscriber ($2.99 per month): https://creators.spotify.com/pod/profile/lisa-meister/subscribe PayPal [email protected] Venmo @lisameister4242 Square https://square.link/u/kQLAozvV Buy Me a Coffee https://buymeacoffee.com/onlygodrescuedme.com

Welcome to the Gillard Trilogy! In this series, Lisa Gillard invites us into the everyday reality of life as a survivor. Together, we explore flashbacks, triggers, chronic health issues, family relationships, navigating the mental health community, malevolence, crime, justice, healing, and what it takes to weave all of those experiences into a meaningful life. This interview is especially important for helpers who want a clearer picture of what survivors live with day after day. It is also an opportunity for survivors to recognize their own experiences in someone else's story and discover that they are not alone. Through honesty, wisdom, and hard-won insight, Lisa helps bridge the gap between surviving and understanding. For her original podcast with all her story, you can catch it here: https://youtu.be/Hl11aBj5hoE https://youtu.be/VR3c_jcrEXk https://youtu.be/68yEznP15Nk Only God Rescued Me: Website: https://www.onlygodrescuedme.com/ Contact Lisa: [email protected] To help support this podcast: Become an OGRM Support Angel on YouTube ($4.99 per month): https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCXudcfKU-b6NtSQphUOstRA/join Spotify Subscriber ($2.99 per month): https://creators.spotify.com/pod/profile/lisa-meister/subscribe PayPal [email protected] Venmo @lisameister4242 Square https://square.link/u/kQLAozvV Buy Me a Coffee https://buymeacoffee.com/onlygodrescuedme.com

Welcome to the Gillard Trilogy! In this series, Lisa Gillard invites us into the everyday reality of life as a survivor. Together, we explore flashbacks, triggers, chronic health issues, family relationships, navigating the mental health community, malevolence, crime, justice, healing, and what it takes to weave all of those experiences into a meaningful life.This interview is especially important for helpers who want a clearer picture of what survivors live with day after day. It is also an opportunity for survivors to recognize their own experiences in someone else's story and discover that they are not alone. Through honesty, wisdom, and hard-won insight, Lisa helps bridge the gap between surviving and understanding.For her original podcast with all her story, you can catch it here:https://youtu.be/Hl11aBj5hoEhttps://youtu.be/VR3c_jcrEXkhttps://youtu.be/68yEznP15NkOnly God Rescued Me:Website:https://www.onlygodrescuedme.com/Contact Lisa:[email protected] help support this podcast: Become an OGRM Support Angel on YouTube ($4.99 per month): https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCXudcfKU-b6NtSQphUOstRA/joinSpotify Subscriber ($2.99 per month): https://creators.spotify.com/pod/profile/lisa-meister/subscribePayPal [email protected] @lisameister4242 Square https://square.link/u/kQLAozvVBuy Me a Coffee https://buymeacoffee.com/onlygodrescuedme.com